Mag-log inI was not given food or water.
A few hours after Cillian left me in the dark, the iron door shrieked open again. Two massive Beta guards dragged me out by the chains, my bare feet scraping against the freezing stone. The sudden influx of torchlight felt like daggers in my eyes. My head was pounding with a sickening, rhythmic thud.
The suppressant withdrawal was fully setting in.
Every nerve in my body felt stripped bare and rubbed with salt. My skin stretched too tight, flushing with unnatural, rolling waves of heat that made my teeth chatter. Deep in my lower abdomen, a dull, terrifying ache coiled tight. The pre-heat. My body, starved of the toxic chemicals that kept it dormant, frantically tried to wake up the Omega inside me.
If it hit full force while I was surrounded by a castle full of enemy soldiers, I wouldn't survive the night.
The guards dragged me up three flights of stairs and threw me through a heavy wooden door. I hit a wet, greasy cobblestone floor, sliding slightly in a puddle of dirty water.
The scullery.
It was a massive, chaotic cavern of heat, steam, and shouting. Servants rushed back and forth carrying entire roasted boars and massive vats of stew. The smell of the rich meat hit my ruined stomach, and I violently dry-heaved onto the stones, bringing up burning yellow bile.
A sharp kick to my ribs sent me sprawling onto my back.
"Get up, you filthy Silvermoon rat."
I gasped, clutching my side, and looked up. A severe, heavily scarred Gamma woman stood over me, holding a bucket of grey, caustic lye soap.
"I'm Hilda," she spat, her eyes raking over my bruised face and shivering, malnourished frame with absolute disgust. "The King gave specific orders about you. You are nothing. You are the dirt on our boots. You are not to speak, you don't look anyone in the eye, and you don't stop working until you drop."
She threw a ragged, coarse burlap tunic at my face. "Put that on and get to the training yard. The warriors need their armor scrubbed and the blood washed from the sparring mats. Move!"
I stripped off my torn, bloodied shirt with shaking hands and pulled the rough burlap over my head. The coarse fabric scraped against my hypersensitive skin, making me want to scream, but I bit my lip until I tasted blood. I grabbed the heavy wooden bucket of lye and stumbled out the back doors into the biting winter wind.
The Alpha training yard was a sprawling, fenced-in arena of packed dirt, melting snow, and absolute brutality.
Over a hundred Blackwood warriors were sparring. The air was thick with the suffocating, heavy scents of aggressive Alphas sweat, iron, wet fur, and dark musk. The sheer concentration of dominant pheromones slammed into my waking Omega senses like a physical wall. My knees buckled, and I leaned heavily against the wooden fence just to stay upright.
My inner wolf whined, a desperate, pathetic sound echoing in my skull. It wanted to submit. It wanted to bare my throat to every single one of them just to stop the overwhelming pressure.
No, I told myself, digging my fingernails into my palms until the pain grounded me. You are a ghost. You are nothing.
I grabbed a stiff bristled brush and dragged my bucket to the edge of the sparring mats. The ground was slick with mud and fresh blood. I dropped to my bruised knees and started scrubbing.
The lye water was freezing, but the chemicals burned like fire. Within minutes, the skin on my knuckles was cracking and bleeding, mixing with the dirty water. My arms ached with every frantic motion, but I kept pushing. If I stopped moving, the fever burning in my blood would consume me.
"Well, well. Look what the King dragged in."
A shadow fell over me, blocking out the pale winter sun.
I froze, keeping my eyes glued to the muddy mat. A pair of heavy combat boots stepped directly into the puddle of dirty water I was trying to clean.
"I heard the King spared a Silvermoon runt," a voice sneered. An Alpha. His scent was sharp, aggressive, and unstable, reeking of rotting pine and burnt copper. "You don't look like much. You smell very funny. What are you?"
He kicked the side of my bucket. The freezing, caustic water splashed all over my chest and face.
I gasped at the shocking cold, my vision spotting with black dots as I fell back onto the mud. Laughter erupted around me. A group of five Alpha recruits stopped their sparring to circle me like a pack of starving hyenas.
They didn't know I was an Omega. The lye, the blood, and the freezing air temporarily masked the sweet, heavy scent of vanilla desperately trying to bleed out of my pores. But their Alpha biology sensed a weak, submissive male in their territory, and their basest instincts screamed at them to dominate, humiliate, and destroy it.
"Stand up when an Alpha is talking to you, rat," the leader snarled. Torin, the massive guard from the raid.
I pushed myself up onto my hands and knees, my arms violently shaking. The fever spiked. My vision blurred at the edges. Just take it, I told myself. Just take the beating. As I looked down at the mud, a terrifying realization hit me. I was sweating through the freezing water. My body burned up. The lye would fail to hide my scent soon.
"I said stand up!" Torin roared.
He grabbed a heavy, solid oak training sword from the rack. Before I could brace myself, he slammed the blunt edge directly into my already bruised ribs.
The crack echoed across the yard.
I refused to scream, denying them the satisfaction. All the air left my lungs in a violent rush, and I collapsed into the freezing mud, curling into a tight ball as agonizing pain exploded through my left side. I tasted blood in the back of my throat.
"Pathetic," Torin spat, stepping closer. He pressed the heavy heel of his boot directly onto my bleeding, lye-burned hand, grinding it into the dirt.
A broken gasp tore from my lips. The pain was blinding.
Above us, the heavy wooden doors of the royal balcony slammed open.
"Good morning," Cillian said.His voice came out incredibly rough. The words sounded like he swallowed dry dirt. He kept his volume very low. He did not want to startle me.I turned around and looked directly into his tired golden eyes."Good morning," I replied.My voice was completely flat. I did not smile. I did not soften my expression. The anger from yesterday still sat heavy in my chest. The wide gap on the mattress still sat between us. I was not ready to pretend everything was fine. I refused to let him off the hook easily.I pulled my shoulders back. I stood up completely straight in the center of the room."I am going down to the East Wing," I told him calmly. "I need to see the guest quarters. I need to find out if Silas and Corinne decided to stay in the North. They might have packed their bags and run away during the night."Cillian nodded slowly. He did not tell me what to do. He did not try to take charge of the situation. He just listened to my words. He kept his large
I walked back into the bedroom. Cillian was already changed into dark cotton pants. He did not wear a shirt. His chest and arms were covered in old battle scars. He stood by the edge of the bed waiting for me.I walked to the left side of the massive bed. I pulled the heavy furs back and climbed onto the mattress. I lay down on my back and pulled the blankets up to my chin.Cillian walked to the far right side of the bed. He climbed in very carefully. The thick mattress dipped heavily under his massive weight. He lay down on his back. He stayed on the very absolute edge of the mattress.A wide gap of empty space remained between us in the center of the bed.I reached over and turned off the small lamp on the nightstand. The room went very dark. The only light came from the orange glow of the dying fire in the hearth.The silence in the room felt incredibly heavy.I lay perfectly still under the heavy furs. The thick blankets trapped some of my body heat, but it was not enough. I felt
I pushed the heavy oak door open and stepped inside the bedroom.The massive Warlord was pacing frantically in front of the roaring fireplace. His heavy boots slammed against the wooden floorboards in a rapid, chaotic rhythm. He looked completely consumed by anxiety. He walked back and forth across the thick rug. His large hands opened and closed into tight fists. He stared at the floor.I reached behind my back and pushed the heavy wooden door. It clicked shut. The metal lock fell into place with a loud sound.Cillian froze in his tracks immediately.He snapped his head up and looked at me. His broad shoulders were completely rigid. His golden eyes were wide and filled with pure terror. He stood completely still. He waited for me to speak. He looked like a man waiting to hear his final sentence. He fully expected me to say I was leaving the North forever.I walked further into the room. I stopped a few feet away from the edge of the thick rug. I looked directly at his face. I saw the
[POV: Elian]"Where are they?" I asked.I stood two feet away from Cillian's chest. I tilted my head back and looked directly into his tired golden eyes.Cillian braced himself. His broad shoulders went stiff under his dark shirt. He expected me to scream. He expected me to tell him I was leaving the fortress forever.He blinked slowly. "They are in the East Wing," Cillian answered honestly. His voice was rough and exhausted. "I placed them in the main guest quarters. I posted guards outside the door for their safety. I kept them inside the fortress. I made sure they had food and a warm fire."I nodded once. I turned around and walked straight back toward the heavy wooden door.Cillian took a fast step forward. His heavy boots hit the floor with a loud thud. Panic flooded his scent immediately. I turned my head and looked at him. I held my hand up."Stay here," I said gently. My voice was very firm. "Do not follow me. I am going to see them right now. I need to do this completely alo
[POV: Elian]I shoved the heavy iron doors open and stepped out onto the high stone battlements.The Northern wind hit my face like a physical strike. The cold sliced right through my thick winter cloak. The freezing temperature bit into my cheeks and numbed my nose instantly.I walked to the edge of the stone wall and looked down. The massive main courtyard was completely empty. The heavy snow blanketed the cobblestones. The golden carriages from the South were gone. Silas and Corinne were nowhere in sight.I stared at the empty courtyard for a moment. A part of my brain knew I should wonder where they went. I should wonder if Cillian ordered his guards to lock them in guest quarters or if they just gave up and rode back through the gates.I did not care.I honestly felt absolutely nothing about their absence. I could not bring myself to worry about the strangers from the South. My mind was completely consumed by the heavy scent of ash in my bedroom and the realization that my Warlor
I pushed myself up from the wooden floor. My legs felt weak, but I forced myself to walk over to the heavy oak wardrobe in the corner of the room. I pulled the doors open.I grabbed a thick leather travel bag from the bottom shelf. I dragged it over to the bed and threw it onto the mattress. I unzipped it with a loud, aggressive pull.I walked back to the wardrobe and started grabbing clothes.I did not care what I was grabbing. I pulled down thick wool shirts, heavy dark trousers, and thick cotton socks. I carried the pile of clothes over to the bed and started folding them.I folded a dark shirt. I pressed my hands hard against the fabric, smoothing out the wrinkles with violent, sharp movements. I shoved the shirt into the bottom of the leather bag.I grabbed a pair of trousers. I folded them tightly and shoved them in next to the shirt.The physical action helped. It gave my hands something to do. It gave me a tiny piece of control in a situation that felt completely out of my gra
The solid rock cracked under his fist, sending a shower of dust to the floor. The force of it snapped something back into place inside my head. Raw, pure fear cut through the fever haze. I pulled my hand back, pressing it tightly against my chest. What am I doing? I thought, panic cutting throug
The first thing I felt was cold. A heavy, damp chill seeped straight into my bones, sucking the life right out of me.Where was I? I tried to move, and a sharp, metallic clink echoed through the darkness. My breath caught. I pulled my arms toward my chest, stopping short as heavy iron chains bit
Several people screamed. I slapped both hands over my mouth to keep from making a sound, biting down on my own palm so hard I tasted blood. My heart was beating so fast against my sore ribs that I thought my chest was going to split open. Panic. Blind, total, animal panic. My body got hot fast.
My ribs ached before I opened my eyes. That was how every morning started. Pain. A dull, steady ache burned on my left side where Alpha Thorne had kicked me two days ago. My crime? I hadn't scrubbed the blood out of the training mats quick enough. It wasn't just that my ribs ached. The screaming







