Chapter 13: CAITLIN

"Caitlin, do you know what it does to me when you cry and I'm not there to hold you?" I sniffled and tried to pull myself together. Acting like a baby is a sure way to lose him, but sometimes I can't help myself. Life is so unfair.

"There's nothing in this world that should make you cry. You're beautiful, smart, and you're loved. I love you, your family loves you and I know you're well taken care of even if I'm not there and you know I'll be with you soon."

I nodded at all his points and acknowledged that he was right because I wasn't willing to bring up my fears again for the one-hundredth time. See, right there, that way he looked at me right then, it's like the boy is disappearing more and more and this 'man' whom I've never met in the flesh has taken his place.

He's still my Todd, we haven't missed a day talking to each other in all the time he's been gone. His attitude towards me hasn't changed any that I can tell, but I know my Todd. When I saw the pained