I WAS BEING DIAGNOSED with Major Depressive Disorder and Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder. I underwent treatments, because I became really out of my mind after Deus Paulo’s lifeless body inside the casket was being buried in the private mausoleum. Nawala ako sa tamang huwisyo at sinasaktan ko na ang aking sarili. Lagi akong nagwawala at umiiyak sa tuwing naalala ko ang pagkamatay ni Deus Paulo. Sobrang sakit nito para sa akin dahil pinipiga ang puso ko. Pakiramdam ko ay nawalan na ng saysay ang buhay ko lalo na’t hindi ko nagawang iligtas at protektahan ang aking anak.Mas lalong tumindi ang galit ko sa tuwing nakikita ko si McKenzie nang dahil na rin sa aking Postpartum Depression. Naging sarado ang isip ko at lagi ko siyang sinisisi mula sa pagkamatay ni Deus Paulo. Walang oras na sinisisi ko siya. Ayaw na ayaw ko rin siyang nakikita o lumalapit sa akin dahil naiinis ako sa kaniyang pagmumukha. Until I lost my sanity. I attempted suicide by cutting my wrists and sleeping inside th
MAFIA LORD MCKENZIE’S POVI HAD A TOUGH power and role to fulfill ever since I was born in this world, because I’m the future heir of being the Mafia Lord of the Castello di Accardi. The lives of every lineage worshiped and believed in my clan were on my shoulders.The Accardi Clan was one of the strongest in one of the boundaries of the Mafia Empire in Italy. At a very young age, my vision and perspective were wide open in the maze of the Mafia Empire. I needed to be strong and vigilant otherwise I would get killed which would make my clan be slaves to whoever nemesis of mine would defeat me. ‘And I don’t want that to happen. . . I wouldn’t let anyone under my wing be trapped in danger and be killed. Until I’m breathing and alive, I would really do everything to defend them against all odds.’Nonna always taught me to be strong and wise at all times or else I would be lost in the battle. I really admire her, because she was dauntless, strong and wise. I even didn’t see her being lo
I GAZED at the serene sky as the waves were tamed as I stood near the shore. I couldn’t help but to smile as the sand went on my feet. I slowly lifted my hand to somehow make myself feel that I could touch the cloud that looked like a shark. “Happy birthday, Anak. Miss na miss ka na ni Mama. . . Sana ay masaya ka na kasama sina Nonna sa heaven. Mahal na mahal kita at lagi kang nasa aking puso at isipan,” I uttered softly as the wind blew on me which made my hair and the hem of my skirt dance. A lone tear escaped from my eye. “Soon, we would meet again, but for now, please guide us, being our adorable guardian angel. . .” We visited the private mausoleum of Deus Paulo, and sang him a happy birthday song. His private mausoleum was full of Shark balloons, cake and his favorite foods. After that, we headed here to Il Paraiso di Accardi to continue the celebration. It was a special place that my son really loved when he was still alive in this world. “Mama!” masayang pagtawag sa akin
I THOUGHT fairytales really existed after I married Derson who was the love of my life, and the father of my baby that I’m carrying inside my womb, but I’m wrong, because that led me to suffer in hell. Akala ko ay tanggap na ako ng pamilya ng aking asawa kahit na gawin ko ang lahat. Ngunit hindi pala sapat iyon para sa kanila. Halos mapasubsob ako sa palanggana na puno ng sabon at mga labada ng mga malalaking kobre kama at mga kurtina nang sipain ni Mommy ang kinauupuan ko. Mabilis akong napayakap sa aking sarili lalong-lalo na ang aking malaking baby bump. Napaigik ako sa sakit nang nanggigigil niya akong sinabunutan sa aking buhok. Pakiramdam ko ay matatanggal ang aking buhok mula sa anit ko dahil do’n. “M-Mommy, tama na po, please? N-Nasasaktan na po ako,” umiiyak kong pagmamakaawa. “Talagang sasaktan kita dahil ang bagal-bagal mong inutil ka! Hindi porket pinakasalan ka ng aking anak ay magbubuhay reyna ka sa aking pamamahay! Kahit na bihisan ka pa ng ginto ay umaalingasaw p
I WAS AWAKENED with kisses all over my face which made me smile. My husband and I were really excited for this day, because we already set an appointment for my new OB-Gynecologist, and he really made sure that she was the best OB-Gynecologist for my pregnancy. “Good morning, Babe! Rise and shine, My Beautiful Wife!” masaya niyang turan sa akin. Hindi ko napigilang humagikhik nang dahil do’n. “Good morning din, Babe. Bakit parang hindi nababawasan ang energy mo?” He smiled mischievously. “I would always be energized, especially if I had a dose of you.” My face flushed with his bluntness. Even though I’m pregnant, he was still insatiable, and always found ways to pleasure ourselves while not hurting our baby. “I know that you were still sore and tired, so let me do the honor to be your slave, Babe. I would bathe and put clothes on you,” he added. I squealed in delight when he scooped me, and carried me effortlessly in his arms. I couldn’t help but to giggle, and let him tak
I WISHED that it was a nightmare, and I want to wake up from it. I couldn’t believe that the hell I was suffering intensified after the news spread like a wildfire inside the Canlas Mansion about my baby’s special condition of having Down Syndrome. Pagkalipas ng ilang mga linggo ay nararamdaman ko na ang unti-unting paglayo at panlalamig sa akin ng asawa ko. Hindi siya ganito dati at sobrang naninibago ako lalo na’t lagi siyang hatinggabi na kung umuwi. Hanggang ngayon ay disappointed pa rin siya na ang aming baby ay mayro’ng ganitong kondisyon at kahit hindi niya sabihin sa akin ay alam kong hindi niya tanggap ito. “Babe,” pagtawag pansin ko kay Derson na sobrang busy sa kaniyang cellphone habang nakaupo sa swivel chair sa loob ng opisina niya na konektado sa aming silid. “Ahm. . . Busy ka ba?” Nag-angat siya sa akin nang tingin habang nakakunot ang kaniyang noo. Halatang naistorbo ko siya mula sa kaniyang ginagawa sa cellphone. “Hmm. . . What?” “Usap naman tayo, please? Sob
I WAS STARING BLANKLY outside the window while I’m sitting on the rocking chair as I felt the door creak open and close. I heard the familiar footsteps from my husband as he silently headed towards his walking closet to change his clothes. He was still hiding his dirty little secret from me, and I want to know the truth from him. “Derson,” pagtawag ko sa kaniyang pangalan. Alam kong narinig niya iyon. “Kailan mo ba balak sabihin sa akin na mayro’n ka nang iba?” Narinig ko ang papalapit niyang yabag. Naramdaman kong nasa tabi ko na siya. Ngunit hindi ko siya inabalang tignan. Nandidiri ako sa ginawa niya sa akin. Hindi ko matanggap na ginagago niya ako at pati na rin ng kaniyang kaibigan na talagang binuntis niya pa. “Bakit gising ka pa rin hanggang ngayon? It was already one in the morning. You should be better sleeping right now,” pag-iiba niya. ‘Iniiba niya ang usapan. Talagang mayro’n siyang itinatagong sikreto mula sa akin at gusto ko nang matuldukan iyon ngayon.’ Mapait akon
I’M SELFLESS for love and also for my family, because I could do anything for them. But still, there was still the end of it, especially in toxic love which only brought pain and hell in me. After the threat of my mother-in-law that she would kill me and my baby, I didn’t think twice about signing the annulment papers with my shaky hands while tears fell from my eyes as I freed myself from a shattered marriage with my cheating husband who impregnated his mistress. Ayaw ko nang manatili pa sa isang relasyon na wala nang patutunguhan. Sagad na sagad na ang pagiging tanga ko sa kanila. Kung hindi ko rin inisip na lumayo ay paniguradong malamig na kaming mga bangkay ng aking baby kung ipagpipilitan ko pa ang sarili ko sa kanila. Hindi ko rin masisikmura na pakisamahan ang mga demonyong iyon. Sobrang makasarili sila at walang ibang iniisip kung hindi ang maging mabango ang kanilang mga pangalan kahit bulok ang kanilang pag-uugali. They shamelessly choose the bastard child of my cheat