VESPER GREY LYSAN POV
The first time I set my eyes on Zevran Ilvane, I knew he was going to be the death of me.
It was the way he stood at the side of his father, his lifeless black eyes digging into my very soul.
He was just a child, but even from the distance, I could feel his darkness reaching toward me, wrapping around my throat and making it difficult to breathe.
Why was he looking at me, and what was with that small creepy smile on his face?
Fear slithered down my spine the longer I watched him, the hairs on the back of my neck standing on edge as goosebumps traced my skin. He wasn't blinking at all.
Someone suddenly shoved me, their hands bearing down on me and forcing me to my knees.
I resisted, but they were too strong, and soon my knees were planted roughly on the graveled floor.
I winced at the pain, my hands clenching into fists.
Ilvane got up from his seat, the smirk on his face stretching as he walked toward me.
I braced myself, the sound of my heart drumming loudly in my ears the closer he got. Was this another punishment? My back still hurt from the lashing I'd gotten a week before, and I wasn't sure I could survive another.
He stopped in front of me, leaned toward me, and then grabbed my chin roughly, his finger digging into my cheek as he jerked my head up.
Our gaze met and held.
"For a teenager, you sure have guts," he murmured, then let go of my face as if I disgusted him. "I heard you tried to escape again. Does this make it your tenth attempt?"
I watched him, my teeth clamping down hard on my lower lips to stop the horrible words I wanted to yell at him from coming out. It never ended well and after months of being hit and tortured, I was physically and mentally exhausted.
Just when was Mother going to come and rescue me? I've held out for as long as I could and I was starting to lose hope that she was ever going to show up.
Was she really going to give up on me? She'd always said if I wasn't careful enough and allowed myself to get caught she was going to leave me to die. Had she meant it? No. There was no way. I was her only child, the only heir to the Lysan fortune, even though she hated me, she couldn't leave me to die. She wouldn't.
"Since you're so set on running away, I've come to a decision. I am giving your mom ten more days Vesper. After months of going back and forth with your bitch of a mother, I've finally decided to kill you if she doesn't give up those properties. It's going to be her birthday in ten days. Your pretty little head as her birthday present should make her happy right?"
I scoffed, unable to stop myself, but it wasn't aimed at him. It was the whole situation and the fact that I knew the woman who birthed me. If his demands were for her properties, then I was sure I was really going to die.
I met his gaze, tears burning my eyes. "You shouldn't hold your breath Ilvane. Why don't you just cut off my head now—hah!" I gasped as his palm crashed against my face.
The ringing in my ear was loud and for a few seconds, all I saw was darkness.
Fingers dug into my chin, and I was pulled forward by my face.
My knees scraped at the gravel, my palm smacking against the rough stones as I attempted to hold myself up. I let out a sharp cry, my eyes wincing shut as pain wracked my frame.
I wasn't given a chance to recover as Ilvane tipped my head up, forcing me to look at him. "Don't ever call me by my name if you want to keep all the teeth in your mouth" he yelled in my face, an angry veins bulging at the center of his head. "You better behave child, or I might really just cut off your head and be rid of thrash like you," he threatened, his eyes boring into mine.
I swallowed down the coppery taste in my mouth, my face twitching. "I am not afraid of you, Ilvane, and you better pray and hope that you kill me first because I won't be living here without your blood splattered all over the walls for everything you've done to me."
He stared at me for a few seconds, let go of my face, and then burst out laughing. It was loud and taunting. My heart squeezed as his laughter bounced around me. It was sickening.
"God damn it, look at that fire. Selene really raised a wild one this time," he addressed the men standing around me, and they chuckled, their eyes all moving in my direction. "She'll be such a good match for Zevran if her blood wasn't corrupted wouldn't she?" He asked, his eyes moving from my face down my body.
"That's if Zevran doesn't get disgusted and gut her for sport," one of the men said, and Ilvane burst out laughing again, but this time it was worse. He laughed so hard that tears slipped down his left eye.
When he finally got himself under control, he called the maid over. "Take her to her room and treat her wounds. Dress her up nice and get her ready for me" he ordered.
My eyes widened at his words and what they could mean, but I was given no time to react as the maid grabbed my arms and pulled me to my feet.
She started to drag me out even as I struggled.
"Let go of me. Let go!" I yelled, fighting and trying to drag her down, but she was strong, and I was malnourished, so nothing I did slowed her down a bit.
I wasn't one to give up though, so I started to fight her harder.
"Stop," Ilvane ordered, then walked toward me.
My chest heaved from exertion, my hands clenching as he came to stand in front of me.
He smirked, then backhanded me. Hard.
I stumbled back, my face going numb.
He grabbed my arm, pulling me close. "Be a good girl for me and go quietly vesper," Ilvane got out, his mouth curving in a grin. "Or I'm really going to start hurting you for real."
He was going to start hurting me for real? Was he saying everything he's been doing so far was nothing?
He let go of me and motioned to the maid.
She grabbed my hand and despite my head screaming at me to protest, I let the maid drag me out of the room.
We stepped out of the room, but the prickling sensation on the back of my neck had me feeling uneasy. I turned my head, glancing behind me. I shouldn't have.
Zevran was right behind me, and the smile on his face as his black, lifeless eyes held mine had my blood freezing in my veins.
He closed the distance between us. His smile stretched wilder, but they never quite reached his eyes.
He thrust his hand toward me, his slender pale fingers glistening with a red sheen.
I could tell what it was. Blood.
"Can I be your friend? Forever," he uttered, his eyes pinned on mine as his smile stretched even wilder.
I stared at him, the hate in my lungs suffocating. If I had a knife, his eyes would be rolling on the floor.
He waited, his eyes red and glistening. "Just say the word Ves and I'll be yours forever. I promise."
I stared him down, hoping he saw just how much I despised him.
"I'll never be friends with a monster like you."
ZEVRAN ILVANE POVThe floor was cold, but my heart felt colder.I sucked in a breath, the darkness creeping up the edge of my vision blurring out Vesper's face. Maybe if I closed my eyes, the throbbing ache in my chest would stop. Maybe if I give in to the darkness, I'll finally find my peace.The sound of the car had long faded, so what was I waiting for?Vesper was not coming back.Tears trailed down the side of my face, the fire in my lungs burning fiercer.Why. Why did you break your promise to me, Vesper?I glanced up at the sky, the twinkling stars reminding me of her eyes. Those beautiful eyes. Eyes, I used to think, could save me. Eyes I would've burned the world for if I so much as glanced that she wanted it.But now, all I saw was how they'd looked when she pulled the trigger. How they didn't blink. Didn't shake. Didn't care. My heart slowed, stuttering as my lungs started to close up. The air got chillier, slicing into my flesh like darts of ice, yet, all I could think of
VESPER GREY LYSAN POV Everything felt bleak, the numb feeling spreading through my system like smoke, thick and suffocating.The sun had come up at a point, the bright lights streaking through the windshield, hitting my eyes and making me wince.I turned my head, my gaze locking on the gun on the passenger seat.Zevran's face flashed in my head, the look that had been on his face when he realized that I'd betrayed him making my heart clench.My fingers curled around the steering wheel, my knuckles aching from the pressure. But it wasn't enough. Nothing was enough.I shouldn't have killed Zevran. But it was too late for regret.I sucked in a breath, fast and shallow, then grabbed the gun with a hand that wouldn't stop shaking.The Mansion loomed ahead of me, dead and cold just like I remembered. How many months has it been since I was taken? How many days did I spend locked up? How many beatings did I endure without a single word from the woman I called my mother?My jaw clenched, my
VESPER GREY LYSAN POV Tonight was the night.I glanced down at the parcel on my bed, then with trembling hands, I gripped the edge of the wrap and peeled it open. It was a gun. Zevran had sneaked me a gun.At this moment I was sure he was working on destroying the security system.He'd given me a watch and told me when to move.I picked up the gun, the weight of it assuring me of how much damage it could do.Zevran had said I'll have to take care of the guards at my door myself. He'd also given me directions on where to wait for him so that we could escape together.I glanced down at all the marks on my body, the one he'd inflicted over the course of five days while laughing at my screams of pain and terror. He'd left my face because he thought it was too pretty to mar, but every other part of me had been fair game and Ilvane had watched it all happen. "It all ends tonight Ilvane. I'm going to make sure you never hurt anyone ever again." I said picking up the gun.The timer rang out
ZEVRAN ILVANE POVI blinked my eyes open but the throbbing in my head soon had me shutting them back.Goodness, everything hurt. The glare of the lights hitting my eyes made it uncomfortable to go back to sleep, though, so I had no choice but to force myself out of bed.I moved to get up, my teeth gritting together as a flood of pain wracked up my side.I puffed out air, sweat dotting my brows and hairline as I struggled through the pain to sit up.Sucking in a sharp breath, I tried to calm down and wait for the ache to lessen, but my head was thumping hard. It also felt like I was missing something.Glancing down my body, my brows pinched together as I noticed all of the bruises on my bare chest and the bandage on my arms. "What the hell..." I broke off, my heart kicking in my chest like a sledgehammer as the memories of what had happened the night before crashed through my head.Goosebumps rippled down my arm, the taste of metal filling my mouth as my heart drummed so frantically
VESPER GREY LYSAN POV The door burst open just as my hands twitched in readiness to attack.Ilvane stepped into the room, his eyes coming to land on me, his mouth set in a thin cruel line as he saw the dagger.My blood ran cold. Every time he'd shown up like this, it just meant he was in a bad mood, and I was about to get beaten to an inch of my life. And now, I was even holding a knife. I bet he could also see my handprint on Zevran's cheek.His shoulders bunched, his hands clenching into fists as he stepped in my direction. I braced myself, my eyes clenching shut as I tried to prepare myself for the first hit. They always hurt worse.Zevran suddenly stepped in front of me, his little body shielding me from the full glare of his father's dark intentions.My eyes slowly opened, my trembling hand still clinging to the dagger as my heart hammered in my chest.He watched us for a few seconds, a cold smirk twisting his face."Master—" Zevran started and gasped, his eyes almost popping ou
VESPER GREY LYSAN POV It's been three days since Ana's death.I turned on my side, sleep elusive as my head kept replaying that moment over and over again.Goosebumps traced my skin, my body shivering from the intensity of it.God, I was going to lose my mind.I clutched at my hair, my fingers tangling in the strands as I pulled down on it.I tried to force my eyes shut, but each time I did, the darkness took over; all I saw was Ana's face and the way she'd looked at me as Zevran slit her throat.I curled in on myself, the ache in my heart drowning me. It was all my fault. I should have believed it when Ana told me that even though Zevran was a child and had an angelic and innocent look to him, he was a cold-blooded killer... If I'd taken her words seriously, then I wouldn't have stubbornly chosen to ignore him. I would have seen his obsession for what it was. But I didn't and Ana was dead.Tears slipped past my eyes, the pain in my heart making my whole body ache.Ana was dead, bu