I just couldnโt do it. I really wanted to sit next to Finn this morning, but after seeing his happy face day after day coming out of what used to be our bedroom, I couldnโt tear him away from his mate.
I know it is best if I continue to spend time with him, but I also canโt even bring myself to think about hampering his joy. I have never seen him smile so much or so wide. Everyone can tell with one look he is happy.
Who am I to stop it? He deserves it.
I know Wyatt and Kane have talked with Owen and have told him I will share the bed with Owen and Finn. But who am I kidding? Can I really do that? They have just found each other and have mated. It would be right to get in the middle of it.
Why does this have to be so hard?
I sigh and look out the carโs window. My mind continues to wage a battle as I stare at the passing scenery as it zooms past.
Dee shifts around in the f
Can Tommy actually do this without Finn?
I smile as I walk out of the bedroom and head down the hall with Owen. The warmth of his hand seeps into me as he gently holds my hand. At the same time, his soothing scent of cinnamon wraps around me like a warm blanket. Ah. I can do this every day. Wait. I will do this every day. Who knew that just holding hands could be so enjoyable? My thoughts are soon interrupted when Kane calls out from another room, โCome on, you two. The food is done and will be cold soon.โ Food. How could I forget about eating? I softly chuckle and holler back, โWe are coming. Donโt worry.โ With a spring in my step, I pull Owen towards the dining room. My smile instantly vanishes as soon as I step into the room. I look around, but there isnโt anyone else here besides Wyatt, Kane and Connor, who is in the highchair. What the heck?
It is just the three of us in the living room now. My eyes drift over to Finn and Owen. Even though my friend is only a few feet away from me, it feels more like miles. I stay quiet and keep my mouth shut as Finnโs warm laughter fills the room. Every fiber of my body wants to run over and sit beside him while I tell him about everything that happened today. How I almost had an impenetrable wall of people around me all day long which gave me some peace, but not like what Finn provides to me. Or how Dee chased off some idiot who thought I looked like an easy target to pick on in the cafeteria. The corners of my mouth curl upwards as the scene replays in my head. It didnโt take long for Shane to join her and direct the jerk to go somewhere else, while I silently shake in my boots and almost piss my pants behind a large human wall. Luckily, the crowd of sworn protectors kept the idiot a safe di
“Why did he say that?” As tears roll down my face. I still can’t believe Tommy said those things to me. I can’t believe that is my friend. Something had to have happened. He would never do this on his own. Right.Owen dashes out of the bathroom towards me while I stand frozen in the middle of the room and lost in my own thoughts. He quickly engulfs me in his arms and coos, “I’m sure Tommy didn’t mean it. It will be all right, sweetie. I’m here.”Like a knife, a pain shoots right through my heart, and tears wells up in my eyes desperately trying to escape. Tommy’s cold words repeat over and over again in head. “I don’t need you anymore. I’m better off on my own, and the spare bedroom is now my bedroom.”Just hearing those words again sends a cold shiver through my body and another sharp pain jabs through my he
Jimmy POV I still canโt believe what has happened this past week. My world has literally crumbled down around me and there is nothing I can do or say to fix it now. Well, at least, I still have Becky. Oh, speaking of Becky, I havenโt talked to her in a couple of days. I have had my head so focused in on making sure Iโm still able to stay at the university that I havenโt had time to talk to her or even meet her. On the upside, a part of my worries is now gone. This afternoon at the Registration Office, I was relieved to find out the university has a program for students like me, who have their lost funding. So, at the moment, Iโm able to stay enrolled and keep my dorm room. Iโm going to chalk it up as a win. Plus, I need all the little wins I can get right now. I sigh and look up at the clear blue sky as I lean back against the tree. I didnโt plan on coming to this little park, but as I was trying to clear my mind, I found myself a few blocks away from campus and sittin
Shane POVDee nudges my arm as we walk through Dark Moonโs pack house towards Alpha Mikeโs office. I glance to my side and softly hum, โHmm. What?โShe leans towards me and asks, โHey, Shane. Do you have any idea why Alpha Mike has called you to his office?โI shake my head. โNo. The last email from him and Beta Malcolm stated they would announce their pick for the new Beta next week. When they asked me to come, they didnโt say why either. So, I have no idea.โWhen we round the corner, Alpha Mikeโs office comes into view.I take a deep breath as my hand fidgets with the hem of my shirt. I wish I knew why I have been called here. Dee nudges my arm again when we stop in front of the Alphaโs door. โMaybe they needed to ask you a few more questions before they make their final decision. You never know.โI sigh. Yeah. But they could have just asked any additional questions over the phone. Why do I need to come here and talk to them? Well, I guess I will find out in a few mor
I glance around the restaurant, but I still donโt see any sign of Jimmy. Where is he? A soft pat on my arm pulls my attention back to the table and my mate, along with his friends Tommy, Dee, and Shane. Finn leans towards me and whispers, โAre you still looking for Jimmy?โ I slowly nod my head. โYeah.โ As I scan the restaurant again, from across the table, Dee sighs, โI think we can safely say that Jimmy isnโt coming. We can meet him another day. Donโt worry about it. I know you really want us to meet him now, but remember we are here to celebrate the fact that not only did you and Finn find each other, but Shane has been selected to be Alpha Mikeโs beta. The added benefit is that Shaneโs family now belongs to a pack and arenโt considered rogues anymore.โ She turns towards to her side and tenderly smiles at Shane. He smiles back at her before he turns his attention back towards us. โNot only that, but we have had to wait a while to even celebrate. I wonโt let the fact t
I glance towards the barโs entrance while my fingers tap against the table. Luckily, the bar is almost completely empty tonight. I donโt know how I would handle it if people were swarming everywhere. Sigh. Why does Owen even want to talk to me? Granted, I havenโt really given him much time to say anything to me recently, but my world has kind of turned completely upside down. Honestly, I really could use my friendโs help right now, but I donโt want to put a damper on his happiness either. He just found his mate, while I have turned my life into a complete shit show. Well, that is the easiest way to describe it. Not only have I been kicked off Alpha Mikeโs beta candidate list, but I have also been kicked out of my pack with no contact from my friends and family. What else would you call it? I think a shit show is about right. Tap. Tap. Tap. Tap. My fingers continue to drum against the table as I glance at my watch again. He has another 5 minutes, and if he isnโt
As I sit on my bed and stare out the window, I continue to replay everything Owen and Finn have talked to me about tonight. I havenโt really had much time to think of what I was going to do next, and honestly, I have no idea either. One thing is for sure, though, I know I donโt want to be a rogue. But do I really have another option besides my friendโs new pack? Iโm still really surprised Finn didnโt join our pack. No. Scratch that. I should say my old pack. It is tradition in the werewolf community the mate of an alpha joins the alphaโs pack. This is the first time Iโve ever heard of the alpha joining the omegaโs pack. From what little they told me, I get the impression Finnโs pack is a little different and unique. I look up at the dark sky through the window. However, I canโt see anything. Just like my future, I canโt see anything. Not even one small glimmer of light. My mind suddenly flashes back several years ago, when Owen and I were sitting in my bedroom, hang
With a small grin, I sit down at the table while a few elders scurry around, getting things ready for our lesson. It has been a long time coming, but Alpha Wyatt has finally approved all new members are to learn the packโs complete history, including all the information about the royals. Thus, they wanted Tommy and me here today to go over it, too. I take a deep breath. This is a big day, but not for the lesson. No, this is another big day for Tommy and him accomplishing another milestone. At this rate, he will overcome all his fears in no time. Iโm happy and proud of what he has accomplished, but a part of me, right now, canโt completely get over the loss of our pup. Iโm smiling on the outside, but there is a chunk of my heart still grieving the loss. I glance across the room at Owen as he walks into the room, with Tommy and Jimmy following behind. Even though he appears to be happy too, I know he is battling the same pain inside as me. Rose walks into the room and clears
** 4 months in the future ** I take a deep breath as I stare down the hallway. Students scurry back and forth, hurrying off to their classes. Murmurs from all directions hang in the air, but I ignore them. I can do this. Taking a shaky breath, I rub my sweaty palm across my mateโs mark on my neck. My heartbeat quickens as my breathing becomes shallow. This is the first time Iโve ever tried to walk to my class by myself. Finn is some distance behind me and if I need help, he can rush to me, but Iโve told him only to come if he has no other choice. This is another small goal I need to do on my own. Each day, I get closer to conquering all my past demons. Touching Jimmyโs mark soothes my nerves while I gather my courage. I donโt dare look back at Finn, or Iโll lose what little courage I mustered up to do this. My eyes dart back and forth along the hallway before landing on my classroomโs door, which is at the other end of the hall. The door is open and a female student w
I stand in the hallway and stare back and forth between the two bedroom doors, while I wonder if everything will be all right. One couple is at their peak of happiness, while the other couple is at their lowest point since becoming mates. What do you do when the two people in the pack who can calm everyone else down are the ones who need someone to calm them down? How much longer will Owen and Finn keep to themselves and lock themselves in their room? Even though Iโm the Luna, I donโt feel right barging into their room and trying to help them. This is something personal between the two of them, and only the two of them should work it out. My heart aches thinking about what they are going through right now. Iโve already given them a small talk, but I want to wrap my arms around them and make it all go away. My attention slowly drifts back over to the other door. I also want to wrap my arms around Jimmy and Tommy, but instead of taking away their pain, I want to rejoice in thei
My stomach flutters as my hunger for Jimmy soars. My wolf purrs in delight as I smile. Before my mind can wonder to other things, he captures my lips in a passionate kiss, and I remember exactly what we are doing. I have just demanded he make love to me and claim me. My wolfโs purrs stop as he jumps to the front of my mind. He also wants to put an end to our loneliness. He wants his mate as much as I do.My wolf wonโt be the one enjoying this, though. It will be me. I may be fearful and shy in other instances, but not this time. The both of us have gone through so much to find each other. Iโm not letting my wolf take control, no matter what. Iโm going to be the one to savor and enjoy this moment.I moan into his mouth as his large hands move at the speed of light. Our clothes fly in every direction and in only a matter of minutes, we are both naked, with him hovering over me. Unfortunately, I havenโt been able to see much of his tall, godlike body. Yes, I want to devour
** A couple of hours earlier ** I canโt stop my foot from bouncing while my heart races. Tommy has kissed me. He accepts me. With a faint smile on my face, I stare out the front window of the car. My mate is in Alpha Wyattโs car in front of us. Even though we arenโt sitting side by side, a warmth slowly builds within me, knowing what will happen when we get back to the pack house. We will claim each other and officially become mates. My true mate is going to be mine. That seems so foreign and surreal. I had come to terms with the fact Iโm never going to find my mate, but the moon goddess has a different plan for me. A sharp pang stabs me right through my heart as guilt washes over me. I havenโt stayed true to my mate. I know from Owen my mate has stayed pure and innocent for me. Why have I been such an idiot? Well, I know why, but I wish I could go back and change my past. If only that is possible, I would do it in a heartbeat. I run my palms down the top of my t
Owen POVI donโt know what to do. Finn has been crying on and off for days now. Something is seriously wrong, but he wonโt tell me anything. I can tell by the looks on Alpha Wyatt and Luna Kaneโs face they know what it is, but I also know they have looked into my mateโs mind to get the answer. I have promised to never do that, but this is almost too much. It eats away at me to see Finn so upset every night. I have been hesitant to push anymore because there are usually other people in the apartment, but right now, we are the only ones here. This may be my only chance to talk to him alone. With my arm wrapped around his shoulders, I pull him even tighter against me as we sit on the couch in the living room. I really donโt want to do this, but I have to. Gulp.Well, here goes nothing. I squeeze his shoulders and reluctantly ask, โFinn, baby, can you please tell me what is wrong? I want to help you, but I canโt do it if I donโt know what has happened.โHe rests his head again
No. Not again. My breath hitches. Fear rushes through my body, turning my blood ice cold, as the sound of people rushing towards me echoes in my ears. Imagines of the last time something like this has happened, when I nearly lost my life, come flooding back to me. However, this time, I wonโt go without a fight. I may be scared out of my mind, but it doesnโt mean Iโm going to welcome anything these jerks want to do to me. Up to this point in my walk, I have only been worrying about my mate. His burned egg scent keeps tickling my nose and no matter what I do, I canโt seem to block it out. Luckily, he has kept his distance. As the group suddenly surrounds me, the one person who I have been avoiding, my mate, is the one person I want to call out to, but I donโt know his name. BAM!The tallest guy from the group knocks the wind out of me as the first punch lands on my stomach. A cold shiver runs down my spine as his rough hand grabs my shirt. Instantly, my body wants to repel
Iโve been so nervous Tommy is going to cancel his trip to the mall. As for Owen and Finn, I still donโt know exactly what is going on, but something is clearly happening there. I wonโt push the topic or even look into my friendโs mind. When he is ready, he will tell me. Until then, Iโll wait patiently. I glance down at my watch as I pace back and forth in my room. Any minute now, Owen should tell me whether or not Tommy is going to the mall or not. If Tommy goes through with it, Iโm going too. Iโm sure he can smell my scent, but I want to be there, no matter what. Tommyโs words suddenly come flooding back to me, along with his disgust. My wolf whimpers and cowards back into the shadows. I have talked with the elders, including the Supreme Elder. They have told me this same situation with Tommy has happened in the past on rare occasions with other mates, but they also told me I still have a chance at changing things. Nothing is set in stone. If I can just prove to Tomm
Man, the elders are brutal. I think my college classes are hard, but the professors are nothing compared to the elders. Ughโฆ My mind is still spinning. Each day, they overload us with new information on things Iโve never heard before. Then our ability training is on another level which drains my energy.As soon as I walk into the apartment, I take a deep breath and let Finnโs delicious scent wash over me and calm me down as it wraps around me like a soothing blanket. I donโt care how hard or bad my day is. My mateโs scent of a spring rain instantly sends my mind to a wondrous field of spring flowers in bloom and gives me a silent boost of energy. I know he doesnโt have any flower aromas in his scent, but I canโt help to associate his spring rain aroma with blooming flowers. Just as Finnโs scent soothes my mind and body, Tommy rushes around the corner towards me. With an edge to his voice, he comes to a grinding halt in front of me and grunts, โOwen! Something is wrong with