Mag-log inChapter 11
ELENA For a moment, I couldn't hear the howling. I couldn't hear anything at all except that voice in my head. Soft. Smooth. Almost gentle. Leave no one alive. Especially the girl. Silas. Kade's beta. Kade's oldest friend. The man who smiled at me at the gate and told me nobody would hurt me here. The man who sat at Kade's right hand at every meal. He burned my village. He killed my mother. And he had just walked away into the crowd like nothing happened. I turned my head and searched the faces around the ring. I found him easily. He was standing near the front, his arms folded, his bandaged hand tucked under his elbow. When he saw me looking, he smiled and gave me a small nod. I wanted to scream his name. I wanted to point at him and tell the whole pack what he was. But who would believe me? A human girl who couldn't even remember the last few days of her own life. A human girl who ran away on her first morning. They would laugh. And Silas would smile his kind smile and say I was confused. Scared. Out of my mind with grief. I looked for Kade. He was standing on the other side of the ring, just outside the stones. His face was hard, his eyes fixed on me. Through the bond, I could feel how worried he was. It sat in my chest like a stone. I had to tell him. But first I had to live. "Human!" Vera's voice snapped me back. She was standing in the middle of the ring now. She had taken off her boots, and her bare feet were planted in the dirt. She wore only a thin shirt and trousers, and in her right hand she held a long hunting knife. The blade flashed silver in the moonlight. "Are you going to stand there all night?" she called. "Or are you going to come and die?" The pack laughed. My legs were shaking. I made myself walk forward, one step, then another, until I was inside the circle of stones. Garrett, the old elder with the gray beard, stepped up onto a flat rock at the edge of the ring. He raised his hand. The howling stopped. "By the old law," he said, his voice rough and loud, "a challenge has been called. Vera of the Blackthorn pack against the human, Elena. The fight ends when one cannot fight on. The moon is watching." He dropped his hand. Vera didn't rush at me. She just walked. Slowly. Around and around me in a wide circle, like a cat around a mouse. She was smiling. I turned with her, keeping my eyes on her knife. I held Silas's dagger in front of me the way Kade had taught me. My palm was sweating around the handle. Patience, I told myself. Let her come to you. "Look at her," Vera said loudly, to the crowd. "She's shaking like a leaf." More laughter. Then she moved. She was so fast I didn't even see it. One second she was three steps away. The next, her shoulder hit my chest, and I was flying backward. I landed hard on my back in the dirt. All the air rushed out of me. The crowd roared. I rolled over, coughing, and pushed myself up onto my knees. Vera was already walking away, arms raised, soaking in the cheers. "Get up," she said without looking back. "I'm not done." I got up. She knocked me down again. This time it was a kick to the back of my knees. I fell forward onto my hands, and the dirt scraped my palms raw. I got up. She knocked me down again. A slap across the face so hard my ears rang. I tasted blood. I got up. It went on and on. She didn't use her knife. She didn't need to. She was playing with me. Every time I stood, she found a new way to put me back in the dirt, and every time, the pack laughed louder. My lip was split. My knees were bleeding. My whole body screamed with pain. And through the bond, I could feel Kade. Every hit I took, he took too. I could feel his anger building, hot and wild, like a storm about to break. He wanted to jump into the ring. I could feel how hard he was holding himself back. Don't, I thought. Please don't. If he broke the law, the pack would turn on him. Silas would make sure of it. I got up again. Slower this time. My legs barely held me. Vera tilted her head and looked at me. For a second, something like surprise crossed her face. "You're stubborn," she said. "I'll give you that." "So I've been told," I said through my bloody lip. Some of the pack laughed at that. Not at me this time. With me. Vera heard it too. Her face went hard. The smile vanished. "Enough," she said. "I'm bored." She came at me for real this time. I tried to do what Kade had taught me. I tried to step to the side. I tried to lift my blade. But I was too slow. Too tired. Too human. Her knife went into my side. It went in under my ribs, in almost the same place as the wolfsbane blade in the cellar. She drove it so hard I felt the tip burst out through my back. She was so close I could feel her breath on my face. I didn't scream. I couldn't. The pain was too big for screaming.Chapter 16ELENANot a sound. Not a whisper. Not even a breath of air. My lips moved. My throat worked. I was screaming as hard as I had ever screamed in my life, but the room was completely silent.I grabbed my throat with both hands. Panic crashed through me like a wave."There," Silas said gently. "That's better."I tried again. His name. Just his name. Silas. I pushed it up from my chest with everything I had.Silence.I tried to say help. I tried to say Kade. I tried to say fire.Nothing.Silas walked over to the table. He picked up a small piece of paper and a stick of charcoal that Hilda used for writing labels on her jars. He held them out to me."Go on," he said. "Try."I snatched them from his hand. I pressed the paper flat against the table and held the charcoal over it. I was going to write it. I was going to write his name in big black letters and show it to everyone in this house.S.That was all I had to write. Just the first letter.My hand wouldn't move.It hung over
Chapter 15ELENAThe first thing I saw was a bundle of dried herbs hanging from the ceiling.Lavender. Sage. Something with small yellow flowers that I didn't know. They swayed a little in the air from an open window. For one sweet, confused second, I thought I was home. I thought I was lying on the old cot in my mother's kitchen, and she was about to walk in with a cup of honey tea and tell me I had slept too long.Then I tried to sit up, and the pain in my side pulled me back down with a cry.I wasn't home. There was no home anymore.I turned my head slowly. I was in a small room with white walls and a wooden floor. Shelves full of jars and bottles covered one whole wall. There was a table with a mortar and pestle, a pile of clean bandages, and a basin of pink water. The healer's room. Hilda's room.I was alone.I lifted the blanket and looked down at myself. My side was wrapped in thick white bandages. Around the edges of them, on my skin, I could see thin dark lines. They were fai
Chapter 14KADEThe elders' hall was packed. Every warrior who could fit inside was standing along the walls. The air was hot and thick and angry.Vera sat on a bench near the fire, wrapped in a blanket. There were dark purple bruises all around her neck. My bruises. The shape of my fingers. Her leg was wrapped in bandages from the heel to the knee. She didn't look at me.Garrett stood up."Vera of the Blackthorn pack," he said. "The challenge was ended. You were beaten. And you attacked the winner from behind after she spared your life. That is against the old law. It is a coward's act."Vera's jaw tightened, but she said nothing."The punishment is exile," Garrett said. "Two months, beyond the northern border. No pack. No shelter. No help. You leave at sunrise."Nobody spoke.Then Garrett turned to me."And you, Alpha," he said. "You nearly killed a member of your own pack. A warrior who has fought beside you for eight years.""She tried to kill my mate.""She did," Garrett said. "A
Chapter 13KADEI don't remember crossing the ring.One moment I was standing outside the stones with my hand pressed against my bleeding side. The next moment I was in the air, and the world around me was a blur of moonlight and screaming faces.I only saw two things. Elena, turning her head too slowly. And Vera, her jaws wide open, her teeth an inch from the back of Elena's neck.I hit Vera in midair.My shoulder slammed into her ribs, and we flew sideways together, past Elena, out of the ring. I felt Vera's teeth snap shut on nothing. Then we hit the ground and rolled, and I was on top of her.I didn't shift. I didn't need to. I grabbed her by the thick fur of her neck with both hands, lifted her off the ground, and threw her.She hit the stone wall at the edge of the clearing so hard the old stones cracked. She yelped once. Then her body twisted and cracked, and the fur pulled back into her skin, and she was human again. She slid down the wall and landed in a heap at the bottom, g
Chapter 12ELENAAcross the ring, someone else did.I heard the gasp ripple through the whole pack. I turned my head, slowly, and I saw him.Kade had dropped to his knees in the dirt outside the stones. His hand was pressed against his side. Blood was spreading across his shirt, dark and fast, in the exact same place as mine. His face was white. His gold eyes were locked on me.The whole pack was staring at him. Their alpha. On his knees. Bleeding for a human girl.Nobody was laughing anymore.Vera pulled her knife out of me. I stumbled but didn't fall. I don't know how. Somehow, through the bond, I could feel something flowing into me. Warm and strong. Holding me together. Holding me up.Kade's strength. He was giving me everything he had.Vera looked over at Kade, then back at me. Her lips curled."You see that?" she whispered, leaning close to my face. "That's what you are to him. A weakness. A chain around his neck." She lifted her knife again and laid the flat of the blade agains
Chapter 11ELENAFor a moment, I couldn't hear the howling.I couldn't hear anything at all except that voice in my head. Soft. Smooth. Almost gentle.Leave no one alive. Especially the girl.Silas.Kade's beta. Kade's oldest friend. The man who smiled at me at the gate and told me nobody would hurt me here. The man who sat at Kade's right hand at every meal.He burned my village. He killed my mother.And he had just walked away into the crowd like nothing happened.I turned my head and searched the faces around the ring. I found him easily. He was standing near the front, his arms folded, his bandaged hand tucked under his elbow. When he saw me looking, he smiled and gave me a small nod.I wanted to scream his name. I wanted to point at him and tell the whole pack what he was.But who would believe me? A human girl who couldn't even remember the last few days of her own life. A human girl who ran away on her first morning. They would laugh. And Silas would smile his kind smile and sa







