Chapter 5

I was staring into Alpha Logan’s eyes when I slowly reached up and placed my hand over his hand. I felt a sudden calm with him right in front of me, and I gently removed his hand from my neck.

“Why don’t I feel as much pain when you’re near me?” I asked. And his face changed again.

He looked conflicted. Confused. Upset. All of the emotions that I had never seen come from him before.

“It’s the mate bond. That’s why the hospital beds are so big. Whenever someone is in hospital, their mate stays with them because they heal faster.” He explained. And I nodded my head.

Bella then started whimpering in my head and I caught his scent, but it was mixed with something else.

I pushed him away from me and I walked towards the kitchen.

“Get out.” I said, grabbing a cigarette from the cupboard and I sat on the bench next to the window.

“What?” He asked.

“I can smell that bitch on you. Are you trying to punish me for something? Because I don’t know what the hell I have done that has made you hate me so much.” I said.

“She’s my girlfriend. What do you expect?” He asked.

“Dump her. You don’t want me seeing anyone else. Maybe you should take your own advice. Or do you like torturing your mate?” I asked.

“I never said that I liked torturing you. But I can’t just dump her. We’ve been together for two years. She deserves an explanation.”

“Alright. Tell her she’s a bitch. At least it’s the truth.” I snapped.

“Would you stop calling her that? I love her.” He yelled. And I looked at him, not knowing how to answer that.

Bella was trying to take control after that, but I was fighting her back as well. And I knew that Alpha Logan could see the battle that I was having.

“Get out.” I said, looking out the window.

“I can’t just break up with her.” He said.

“I don’t care anymore. Just leave me alone.” I said.

I still didn’t look at Alpha Logan, but I heard the door open and close and I turned to see that he was gone.

Bella was really upset now and I had to wipe the tears away from my eyes again.

“This is bullshit. I’ve cried more in one day than I have in my whole life.” I said.

“He does love us.” Bella said.

“Stop fooling yourself Bella. He doesn’t care about us.” I said.

“I hope he does. We can’t keep living like this. Today has been hell.” She said.

“It’ll be alright. We’ll get through it. We always do.” I said.

I went to have a shower and I brushed my ass length snow blonde hair and put it up before I went to go and sit on the couch.

Mom didn’t get home until really late and she was looking so exhausted that I thought she was sleep walking.

“Hi honey.” She said.

“Hi. How was your day?” I asked as she turned to look at me and her eyes went wide.

“Apparently better than yours. What the hell happened?” She asked, rushing over to me.

“Oh, don’t worry about this.” I said.

“What do you mean? Your head is bandaged, your arm is broken…” She said.

“And I’ve got a fractured ankle. But I’ll live.” I said.

“What happened?” She asked.

“I fell down the stairs at school. It’s nothing. Stupid. More embarrassing than anything.” I said.

“Are you sure?” She asked.

“What do you mean?” I asked.

“Are you sure you tripped and you weren’t pushed?” She asked.

“Yes. I’m sure. You worry too much mom. It was my own fault.” I said.

“Okay. I hope so. Do you have any painkillers or anything?” She asked.

“No. I don’t need them. Hey, can I talk to you for a minute? Or are you too tired?” I asked.

“I can talk to you for a minute.” She said, sitting on the couch next to me.

“Well, I was thinking that I’ll be graduating in a couple of months. I’ve already been accepted to a lot of werewolf colleges around the country.” I said.

“I know. I’m so proud of you.” She said.

“I was thinking that we should both go.” I said.

“What are you talking about?” She asked.

“When I go off to college. I want you to come with me. I’m sure you can get a better paying job out there. I’ve already done the research. A waitress out there in the real world makes double what you make here. So you won’t be working as hard as you are now.” I said.

“You’re serious about this?” She asked.

“Of course I am. Why wouldn’t I be?” I asked.

“Morgan. Your father is buried here. I don’t want to leave him.” She said.

“I know you don’t. We can still come back and visit him. Put fresh flowers on his grave. I’ll choose a college that isn’t too far away so we can come back over the weekends.” I said.

“I don’t know. I have never considered leaving. It’s a lot to think about.” She said.

“Please think about it. Hard. I’m serious about this. I don’t want to leave you here alone.” I said.

“Hey, I’m meant to be taking care of you.” She said.

“We’ve always taken care of each other.” I said.

“Yeah. We have. Alright, I will definitely think about it.” She said.

“Okay. Thank you.” I said.

“Sure. Well, I better have a shower and get to bed. I have to be up in a few hours.” She said.

“Okay.” I said. So she kissed me on my forehead and she headed off to the bathroom.

She had a shower and got ready for bed and went into the bathroom.

I grabbed my blanket and pillow and laid out on the couch, which was my bed, and I laid there staring at the ceiling for a little while.

I know that mom would want to know that I had met my mate. But I couldn’t do that to her. Alpha Logan’s father is the one that ruined our lives. And our father died because of him.

I couldn’t tell her that I was mated to his equally arrogant son.

It wasn’t long before I heard crying coming from the bedroom.

She was right on time. Every night, just after she gets into bed and has to try and go to sleep without my father asleep next to her. She starts crying.

She cries every night until she goes to sleep.

I was glad that it didn’t last too long tonight. Because there was nothing I could do to help her. And I hated hearing her like that.

I finally managed to go to sleep but I wasn’t sure how long I was asleep before I was woken again by a horribly sharp pain in my stomach.

I rolled off of the couch and onto my hands and knees on the floor and I grabbed my pillow down off the couch and I buried my face in it so my mother couldn’t hear me screaming. I had never felt anything like that before. And I had just been beaten by five werewolves. This pain was so much worse than even that. What was wrong with me?