*Flashback*
"Over my dead body!"
I hear my mother shout at the top of her lungs as I go upstairs to pack my bags as instructed.
"You don't know anything! You're 18!"
She continues to yell. I chuckle lightly at that because she'd always told me I'm one of the smartest people she knew despite my age. And that wasn't only because I was her daughter, she'd always reiterated.
She's finally doing it, she's kicking me out. Months and months of threatening me and she's going through with it. I'd thought she was bluffing to be honest. I knew she didn't like the fact that I'm dating an older guy but I'd always told myself she would accept it one day. That it would take a while but once she sees how happy I am she would have no choice but to accept it.
But as I stand taking out clothes from my drawers and putting them in my bags, I finally let my tears go. Because it hurts, more than anything I've ever experienced in my 18 years of living. My mother basically asking me to choose between my family and the love of my life. I've never known pain like this.
I didn't choose because I didn't want to, I just didn't understand why I had to. Why couldn't I have both? Was that a lot to ask?
"How can you do this to me?"
Was what she'd asked emotionally when I first told her about it. She'd made it seem like I'd purposely fallen in love with someone older to get back at her or something. Which didn't really make sense to me because mom and I always had the greatest relationship. Certainly one that rivaled that of a lot of mothers and daughters. She was my best friend.Why would I want to hurt her in any way?
It had taken me a while before I decided to tell her, which was a lot harder than I would've ever thought because mom and I have always been really close. I used to tell her everything.
I'd been single for the majority of my teenage years and I'd used to think it was because I simply wasn't ready for a relationship, that was until I realized I just wasn't attracted to the boys my age. That was confirmed when I met the infamous Aaron Miller who now owns my heart.
There was no doubt from the moment we'd met that my heart craved for him, that the gods aligned and perfectly crafted him for me. Of course that was something I hadn't experienced before so I didn't really know how to react to it, so I did the most logical thing - I was rude to him.
"What do you need sir? I don't have all day." were the exact words I'd used on him. I'd never seen someone get so livid from what I'd said before.
In all honesty, my attitude was unjustified. All he did was walk in and offer a genuine smile. Maybe that's where he went wrong. He confused my heart and my mind with his beautiful pearly white teeth and his dimpled smile. Don't get me started on his drowning grey eyes. Point is, he was a very attractive man.
I was working at a hotel as a receptionist in the summer. Cousin Andrew was the hotel manager and he'd always hooked me up with the position during the holidays to earn a little extra something for myself.
The Phoenix Hotel was known to shelter some of the most distinguished figures not just in our country but in the world, I knew this of course and one of the most important things that were communicated to me before I even started was that I needed to keep my cool, no matter what. I never had a problem with that as I'd never been one to care for people's status and wealth.
I'd already seen too many of these affluential beings and was well over their existence in its entirety.
But one thing that people didn't quite know about the Phoenix was that it had a brothel in the nighttime. So whenever we had these known figures check-in at certain times, we knew what they were there for. And that had been exactly what Mr. Arron Miller himself had been there for.
In retrospect, I think my bad attitude towards him had to do with knowing what he was there for. I think a part of me didn't want him to go there, I wanted him all to myself even though I didn't quite know it at the time.
Clearly he didn't know too because the man got me fired.
No he didn't go to cousin Andrew to complain - something I was actually thankful for, he'd instead went to the owner of the hotel to complain about me - which I guess was much worse. Long story short was that I didn't last very long there. By the end of that day I was told to never return to the hotel ever again.
I'd never hated someone so much in my life before.
I let a smile unconsciously occupy my tears at the memory of how we met as I continue packing. I then send him a quick message letting him know that I'll be done soon and he can leave so long to come to pick me up.
I'd never wished for any of this to go down this way. I never wanted to not have a relationship with my family anymore but they quite literally left me with no choice.
"I'm sorry that I turned out to be such a disappointment. To you and everyone."
I say to my mother when I pass the kitchen where she seems to have started dinner, with my bags in hand.
"I hope that one day you can forgive me. It'll never be late because I'll never give up."
She doesn't bother to look at me but I don't need her to. I just need her to hear me.
"I love you so much, mom. And I know you love me too despite your being upset with me right now. We'll get through this... I promise."
I finish before finally leaving the house I'd grown up in to start a new life.
To truly understand someone, you have to go back to their past, what they'd been through.I, just like the majority of humanity have been taught that one can either be good or bad. That it can either be black or white, yes or no. But I think that's not true.I think that people do really bad stuff sometimes, but that doesn't necessarily make them bad people. It just makes them well... human.I also think that mental illness is a part of it. When you've been hurt so much, you start to expect it. And when you've hurt people so much, they start to expect that from you - so you give them what they expect.Of course that's not the 'mental illness' portion of it. I just think that our minds are really fucked up.It's been a year.The 'Aaron Miller Massacre' news took the world by storm. There wasn't a news channel that didn't cover the story, nor a person who didn't speak of it.When I'd heard about what had actually happened, I was shaken beyond words. Literally.See after they'd removed h
'My dearest Kayla,If you're reading this it's because I'm either serving life in prison or my life has been taken from me.I know I haven't been the greatest partner and I'm sorry that I'll never get a chance to make it up to you. You were right, I should've put you first. You were the most important person to me and I should've shown it.I'm writing this with so much sorrow in my heart because I've been utterly betrayed, by the people I'd thought had my back. Because of that, I've had to do some things you wouldn't be very proud of, things that have either gotten me in trouble with the law or got me killed. But I would've done that and more to make sure you're safe.I put my trust in people I thought were my family when I should've considered you family to start with. You were the only person who truly cared about me, you were the only one who loved me. I'm so sorry I didn't realize that sooner my love.It's too late now but for what it's worth, I wish for you to know that I was wor
"Oh don't act all mighty, you never liked her. You just acted like you did so he doesn't get rid of you.""Excuse me? We were friends. She trusted me.""Oh yeah but I bet you wanted to take her place so bad, didn't you? She was a constant and painful reminder that you lost it all. That he was finally over you and you would never get that perfect life back. You cheated on him and you wish you could take it back.""Shut up! Shut the hell up, you don't know what you're saying."Britney heard herself shouting at the girl who stood in front of her. She was not one to lose her cool but she hated how the girl always ensued the worst out of her.Yes she'd always regretted cheating on Aaron but she'd long gotten over that. It was a long time ago, he'd since gotten married plenty of times."I gave up on any kind of future with him when he'd gotten married the first time. You're just looking for drama where it doesn't exist.""Oh but does it not? Sweet little Britney... Everyone's best friend. I
"What did you do?"He felt his heart beating a mile a minute. Somehow he knew what he'd done but he'd hoped otherwise."Boss, you know this was for the best. It needed to happen."He had to be dreaming, there was no way it was real."Mike...""They've done nothing but cause you pain and heartache...""Mike... no..."He was not one to cry but the tears had taken on their own life because they'd started pouring out without his permission.Words failed him as he looked at the man he'd trusted with his own life."Get them to talk, that's all I said."He'd heard himself say barely audible. His chest was weighing heavy on his heart, he couldn't breathe."I'm not the enemy here boss. They've done nothing but...""That doesn't mean they deserve to die!" His calm betrayed him, he felt himself shake as the words left his lips.Who was he to decide their fate? That was exactly the reason he'd always kept a distance when it came to the people who'd worked for him, he'd always remained stern becau
"Gosh, I love it here."It was the lake, the trees, the breeze. But it was mostly the fact that they were alone that made her love it so much. It was peaceful."Yea."Kayla agreed as she closed her eyes feeling the wind blow against her skin softly. She'd missed such simple things in life."So...""So...""How's everything going with you-know-who? I've barely seen you the past couple of days."Elisa asked ensuing a blush from the other girl.Their friendship had transcended through the weeks and they'd somehow become closer each day."Well, nothing's official yet. I like him but I'm taking things really slow. I don't wanna jump into anything too quickly y'know?"The truth was that she was afraid. She'd done the whole falling in love thing and it didn't quite work out for her."It's been months Kay, the man clearly likes you."It was true and she knew it.He'd planned to stay for the Christmas holidays but decided he'd stay around a bit longer to help out his mother. Kayla knew he'd pa
*Flashback*"What do they have on her?""Uhm... Mr. Miller. Maybe let's not get too focused on the details. It...""What do they have on her?!!"They knew he was the wrong person to play that game with. He'd always preferred people to be straight up with him, no beating around the bush."Uh...""Talk Brandon! Use your words!""Fingerprints! They found her fingerprints on the door handle."Aaron felt his world shatter as the words of the man who stood in front of him registered. It can't have been, his ears must've been playing tricks on him."They think it was when she went inside to take her belongings after the accident. They claim she didn't want her to be found so she Jane Doe'd her.""Sir, they're making it look like she wanted to kill her because of jealousy. It would be a miracle if we won the case...""Shut up! Shut the hell up!"He knew that and he needn't have said it. They'd had so much evidence against them and there was no way the verdict was going to go in their favor.
He didn't care anymore, he didn't want to know who exactly was at fault. The simple fact that they'd even thought to harm his wife and his little boy who was now in heaven was reason enough. Aaron had never felt so much rage in his life. The people whom he would've given anything for, the people he'd thought cared for him, how could they?"Aaron please...""Aaron no.""Aaron!"He'd ignored their cries. He was tired and his heart hurt so much it felt numb."Do it."He'd simply said to his ally then turned around to leave ignoring their cries getting louder.----"She's having a baby.""What?""I said!! She's having a baby! She's damn pregnant!""Shit... that means.""Everything will be ruined. Yes!"That had been the worst thing that could have ever happened. It was bad enough that the man had changed so much because of his wife, now she was pregnant. They knew that would change everything.They never had to worry about much before as they knew the man didn't have a biological child th
*Flashback*Third time wasn't the charm so the fourth time had to be right? Well that was what he'd told himself. He was never one to give up so he wasn't going to do that. He was going to keep trying.Besides, Sandra was great. She was nothing like the others. She was confident, she knew what she wanted and wasn't afraid to go for it. She was sassy and took no nonsense. He'd be lying if he'd said he hadn't found that attractive. Not to mention she was easy on the eye too.She'd had striking features that made you do a double take. When she walked into a room people stopped what they were doing to simply admire her beauty and the way she walked like the world was her platform. He couldn't help but feel attracted to her energy, her aura. She was the kind of woman you'd want to have by your side.So,"How hasn't anyone swept you off your feet?"They'd been sitting having dinner at a very fine restaurant she'd strongly recommended. He would've taken her anywhere. It was beyond him how s
"How old were you?""16 when I met him but we didn't do anything until I was 18.""Did he Uhm... force y...""No no, not at all. If anything I practically begged him." She'd said remembering the day like it was yesterday.'Please. I can't take it anymore. Please Aaron.' She'd practically cried. She knew he wanted her just as much as she wanted him. She couldn't take the waiting anymore, the sexual tension drove her mad.It had taken him a while but eventually, he'd given in."Oh. How old was he?""He was 35 when we met."The questions were getting a bit too judgmental but she'd understood why he was asking them. She probably would've too.Their relationship had been frowned upon pretty much since they'd met and at some point, they'd gotten used to it, It didn't phase them anymore.And as much as Kayla was over her soon-to-be ex-husband, she never wanted anyone to think he forced her into anything. The relationship was consensual on both sides. He never took advantage of her."But was