The One He Never Put First.

The One He Never Put First.

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Following his wife's heartbreaking tragedy. Billionaire philanthropist, Aaron Miller, is forced to look at how badly he's treated her over the years as he hopes and prays desperately for her recovery. Things quickly take a turn when it is revealed his wife's accident, which put her in a coma was planned by the people closest to him.

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Chapter 1

Good 'ol days.

On our wedding day, he had to rush to take his ex-wife to the emergency room because she was going to give birth.

I'm not a terrible person, of course I understood - she was having a baby. I just wish he would've called. Or come to our wedding at all that day.

A text would've been better than nothing.

It wasn't always like this, for a while it was great. For a while, it was the best thing I'd ever had. I'd even go so far to say it was like that for him too.

We were never perfect but I think that was what made it work, that was what made us work.

He put in the effort and I did too.

He cared.

So much that he would've given anything and everything to see a smile on my face.

He used to leave me little notes about how much he loved me on random days. Sometimes it would be cute little sentences about how much I mean to him and how I was his saving grace.

Sometimes he would leave me words like 'beyond' in the morning, he would then come back from work later that day to explain to me that it meant he loves me beyond comprehension.

The one time he left a note inside my jean pocket that ended up in the washing machine without my knowledge. I'd been so mad because all the clothes I'd been washing ended up messy from all the wet paper that got on my clothes because he was trying to be cute.

"Your jeans can always be replaced, but my love for you won't." He'd whispered to me and we'd made love the whole night that evening.

He used to insist on picking me up after work every day, he'd always said a queen like me should never bother herself with mundane activities like that, of course I'd rolled my eyes.

I knew it was because he'd always thought my colleagues had a thing for me so he wanted to make it very clear that I was taken.

To him, everyone had a thing for me, even our security guards. I think all is partly to do with the insecurities he'd accumulated through the years.

He used to be my biggest rock no matter what I was going through. Talking to him was my calm, my serenity.

We were each other's cheerleaders.

But now?

He hasn't been home in a week. I wish I could say that's something odd but it's not. It started off happening every now and then, he would miss dinners because of 'work'. And then there were never-ending business trips. Now he just disappears without saying a word.

But see, I know for a fact that he's not cheating on me. That's not the person that he is, at all. Especially having been through the things he has with his exes.

He's got a lot going on, which is something I understand.

Aaron Miller is the busiest, most successful man in the country right now. He's also my husband of a little over three years.

We met when he'd given up on love. He'd gotten a divorce from wife number four and had officially decided that was it for him, relax - he married young and the marriages didn't last very long. He'd decided that love was something that was simply not for him until I showed up... at least that's what he said.

He said that I was a light at the end of a very long and dark tunnel.

See, Aaron is a lover. He's the kind of man that gives himself wholeheartedly to someone that he loves. But when you keep giving yourself away like that, you end up depleted.

When you marry an older guy, you've got to be prepared to face the demons he'd accumulated through the many years. In my case specifically, the demons he'd carried from his other marriages.

It gets worse...

Aaron still keeps in contact with his ex-wives, for various reasons ranging from the fact that he's got three kids in total with three of them to the 'simple' fact that these were people who meant the world to him at one point, so he wasn't going to just throw them in the dirt once he was done with them.

I'd been 'ok' with this explanation, enough to not lose my mind. But also, it couldn't have been that bad, could it? Yes, they were his ex-wives but I was the one that he was with now. I needed to focus on that, and I did.

But when they started calling in the middle of the night as we laid in bed, and when they would show up at our home unannounced, it became a problem.

He used to say that one of the things he loved about me was the fact that I was understanding, I'd always felt like that was a trap. Because he'd said that about me, I was forced to then be 'understanding' all the time, even when I really didn't understand, and that happened to be all the time. I'd conformed over and over until it became too much. One could only keep it in for so long.

So I'd finally confronted him about it, it was something that messed my mind up for a while until I'd decided I wasn't going to do that to myself anymore. If he loved me he would understand, right?

Wrong.

This is still something we fight about three years later.

I don't like to bring it up anymore because it's something that I know will never change. So when they call, I put a smile on my face so he doesn't walk out on me because I'm 'starting again'.

When they show up to our home unannounced, I make them a nice meal because that's what a good wife does right?

And when his adoptive kids who are older than me disrespect me, I 'try to understand', because this is 'something new to them'.

But when we're all alone, when his ex-wives aren't calling and showing up, when his kids don't come around, we're great. More than just great, we're the happiest.

He sings me lullabies because I struggle to sleep most nights. He spoils me rotten. He loves me, a lot.

But is that enough?

Is it enough that I have to suffer through the misery of always being put last and being disregarded?

Is it enough to be the one he never puts first?

I guess so because this baby is not going to raise itself.

I coincidentally hold my slowly protruding belly at the thought then swerve a little to allow the aggressive driver behind me passage.

"Hi Siri, please call my husband."

I'm sure Siri is tired of that request because I am too.

But I need him to come back home. I don't care about the stupid fight we had before he left, I just need him to be here with me. I crave his proximity, I crave his love.

The deep love he used to have for me. The incredible passion that we shared. I miss it all.

But I guess he doesn't because,

"You have reached the voicemail box of ..."

I let my disappointment come out in a form of tears.

If he wants me to never utter a word about his ex-wives again, I won't. If he wants me to be his pretty little wife who doesn't voice any concerns, I will be.

All I need is for him to answer his phone and tell me that he's ok and he'll be coming home to me soon.

I let my tears stream down my face, so much that I don't notice the aggressive driver has stopped in the middle of the road.

I try to stop the car with all my might but I'm too late because not too long after our cars collide and everything goes dark.

.... for a while.

Until my eyes pop open. I ignore my seemingly disfigured body and the shattered glasses all around me.

I feel water dripping down from my head and I almost wipe it off until I realize it's too thick to be water and it's dripping out so much that I wouldn't manage to clean it all off if I tried.

I then focus on my mission to find my bag then internally smile when I reach it without having to stretch too much because I'm not sure if I would've been able to do that.

I don't have any other family, not anymore. Something about being married to a man who's old enough to be my father didn't sit right with them.

But I was in love. I AM in love.

So much so that even though he hasn't answered my last 200 calls, I still believe in him.

I believe that he will show up for me, just like he'd promised he'd always do.

But when the voicemail message sounds again, I feel my heart getting shattered into a million pieces.

But I still say,

"I'm sorry. About everything. I'm sorry I never appreciated the love that you gave me and I brought up problems. I'm sorry I was a horrible wife to you. And I'm sorry that I don't have any family so you're going to have to deal with the inconvenience that is burying me." I say slowly feeling my flesh leave my body.

"I love you so much Aaron. Never forget that."

I say ending my voice message then I feel my eyes slowly shutting.

I collapse not long after.

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39 Chapters
Good 'ol days.
On our wedding day, he had to rush to take his ex-wife to the emergency room because she was going to give birth.I'm not a terrible person, of course I understood - she was having a baby. I just wish he would've called. Or come to our wedding at all that day.A text would've been better than nothing.It wasn't always like this, for a while it was great. For a while, it was the best thing I'd ever had. I'd even go so far to say it was like that for him too.We were never perfect but I think that was what made it work, that was what made us work.He put in the effort and I did too.He cared.So much that he would've given anything and everything to see a smile on my face.He used to leave me little notes about how much he loved me on random days. Sometimes it would be cute little sentences about how much I mean to him and how I was his saving grace.Sometimes he would leave me words like 'beyond' in the morning, he would then come back from work later that day to explain to me that it
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Burn.
"I'm sorry. About everything. I'm sorry I never appreciated the love that you gave me and I brought up problems. I'm sorry I was a horrible wife to you. And I'm sorry that I don't have any family so you're going to have to deal with the inconvenience that is burying me."Aaron frantically made his way past the many people in the casualty department of the busy public hospital."My wife. Where is my wife?"He'd shouted as soon as he reached the reception desk but it came out as a whisper.He'd made it to the hospital as soon as he'd heard, unfortunately that wasn't soon enough.He couldn't wait to see her, his baby girl. He needed to be next to her and make sure she was ok. He needed her to be ok otherwise he wouldn't be. He'd be broken. His wife was his life.But he'd felt his patience running thin when,"Sir. Please have a seat, someone will come and assist you soon."The busy lady in reception had said to him as she'd continued navigating the switchboard.Although Aaron understood t
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Different.
*Flashback*"That's not fair. Do you even care at all about what I want? No, you don't! It's always been about you! What you want and what works for you! Everyone else can just suck it right?"Kayla had argued back to her husband that evening. She hadn't been one to raise her voice - for anything really, but she'd been beyond livid."Kayla, we've talked about this many times. Shouting will not get you anywhere."Aaron said softly, clearly in an attempt to calm her down but he'd ensued the opposite. Because yet again, he was shutting her off. Dismissing her.So,"See that right there is my problem. You've already decided for the both of us. You never cared to ask me what I thought about that."She'd kept quiet, too many times. But one can only take so many punches.Kayla understood that her husband was a bit of a senior in comparison to her. She'd understood that he'd already experienced the thing she'd only been experiencing then - marriage.But while she understood that he'd been thr
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My life.
A whole week later Aaron had decided to only then leave the hospital to go back home to freshen up. He'd been by his wife's side, holding onto her hand and praying for her recovery since he'd been there. He didn't even decide to leave himself - if it was up to him he would've stayed, but he was practically forced to.After having her moved from a public to a private hospital - partly because he was starting to get recognized, he had much more freedom to visit her and stay with her as much as he could. But even private hospitals had their limits and they'd finally asked him to go home, mostly because they wanted him to recharge as he wasn't at all looking well.Aaron simply couldn't leave his wife's side, what if she'd woken up and asked for him and he wasn't there? He would never forgive himself.He'd used to avoid being at home as much as he could, that was because of the fights. But even when they weren't fighting he knew she'd thought of it, he could always see it in her eyes. She
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You break me I break you too.
*Flashback*"It's Kyla right?"Kayla ignored the strong urge to roll her eyes. She laid back on the couch to get herself comfortable then took a deep breath, she needed to prepare herself for the hurricane that was looming.The older lady knew exactly who she was, they all did. It wasn't the first time they were meeting her, nor was it the third."It's actually Kayla, but you can call me Mrs. Miller."If she wanted to be petty she could've just said. She'd thought she'd find that easier since she too was Mrs. Miller. The only difference with them was that Kayla was the real Mrs. Miller, not the one who'd kept the name because of the status that came with it.She ignored the looks she'd felt on her form from all directions, they clearly didn't like her comment. She knew they were trying to intimidate her, she needn't let that happen."Oh yes, you're the one who's younger than all his kids."You could tell by the wide smirk on her face that she was extremely proud of her remark. They d
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Sad souls.
"Where is she?! Where's my daughter?!"Aaron could hear the loud noises that made it to the hospital room he was in with his wife, seemingly coming from the main reception. He took a few deep breaths to calm himself, a storm was looming.He'd contemplated breaking the news to them, mostly because they'd very clearly stated that they wanted nothing to do with the girl. They'd disowned her and hadn't seen nor spoken to her since they'd gotten married. But Aaron was never one to stop believing in family, no matter what. It was the most important thing to him, after his wife of course - though he knew he didn't always show that. So he'd eventually reached out. The girl had been in hospital for a few weeks and he'd finally thought to let her family know. Whether they'd then decided to come and see her or not - it would've been up to them. As long as he'd done his part of letting them know.He was going to get one of his secretaries to get in contact with the family on his behalf, but he'd
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Broken ties.
*Flashback*"Over my dead body!"I hear my mother shout at the top of her lungs as I go upstairs to pack my bags as instructed."You don't know anything! You're 18!"She continues to yell. I chuckle lightly at that because she'd always told me I'm one of the smartest people she knew despite my age. And that wasn't only because I was her daughter, she'd always reiterated. She's finally doing it, she's kicking me out. Months and months of threatening me and she's going through with it. I'd thought she was bluffing to be honest. I knew she didn't like the fact that I'm dating an older guy but I'd always told myself she would accept it one day. That it would take a while but once she sees how happy I am she would have no choice but to accept it.But as I stand taking out clothes from my drawers and putting them in my bags, I finally let my tears go. Because it hurts, more than anything I've ever experienced in my 18 years of living. My mother basically asking me to choose between my fami
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Imperfect beginnings.
"Mr. Miller, I was told to bring this to you."The young lady said as she approached the older man cautiously. He'd thrown a fit a few times at the hospital and she didn't want to become one of his victims for the day."Thank you so much Uhm... " He'd waited for her to tell him her name."Susan.""Thank you Susan."He'd said with a smile as he took the tray of food from her hands. He wasn't hungry but he didn't want to be rude to the poor girl, not anymore at least. He'd admittedly been a bit difficult on more than a few occasions but that was only because of the well-being of his wife. Everything needed to be done right, otherwise he would lose it. He would lose his cool.He'd then decided to stop after realizing what he had become, Kayla wouldn't like that very much he'd thought.Aaron could see the terror in the young girl's eyes as she nodded her head and turned around to leave."Susan..."He was turning a new leaf.It had been over 5 months since his wife had been in the coma. He
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Kind hearts.
*Flashback*I've always found it easier to talk to Brittney, more than a lot of other people. She's never judged me off of my age nor disrespected me because of it. Yes she's my husband's ex but she's understanding. Certainly a lot more understanding than his other ex-wives.She'd warmed up to me from the very first day she'd met me. I was this young girl in a world I didn't belong in and she'd helped me navigate my way into it, and I guess also deal with the other evil ex-wives. Although her approach has always been to be nice to them, I've always preferred avoiding them as much as I could. Obviously that hasn't been exactly smooth sailing with my husband basically forcing me to get on with them.Point is, she's someone I've really taken a liking to in a place where no one seems to want to like me. She's become someone I can truly open up to.That is why,"I'm pregnant."I'd been keeping this inside for too long that saying it feels like finally drinking water after a week-long hiatu
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To kill for.
Aaron hastily checked his watch as he hurried onto the elevator to go to his office. He had to be back at the hospital.He'd hated not being there when she woke up but he needed to sort a few things out at the office. He was going to make his way there soon after.But what he hadn't been expecting was a full office that morning. It was too early he'd thought.Aaron owned the whole building but only a few people were permitted on his office level, the highest level. And that list didn't have more than 5 people on it.So his shock was justified when he'd walked in and saw more than a few people seemingly in police uniform talking to his secretary.So the worst possible conclusions made it to his mind, naturally. It better not be about his wife, it can't have been. He was with her just a few hours before, she was ok. Could it be about his kids? Was there fraud in his company he didn't know about?"Morning Officers."He'd settled with just finding out from them, to not drive himself crazy
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