The Quest of Man

Then after the cleaning in their presence , kids run to the door to get some hugs and kisses from their mother. That moment when I had to do my best to put myself together and behave as a married husband would behave. Many thoughts and speaking to myself was literary taking away the better of me. So I looked at my wife I saw that fine girl I found just a few years ago, a lady that sacrificed all of herself to a me who had nothing but a sweet tongue. Oh God how can I make this lady the best queen ever.

My desire was just to make her life better, bring her hopes into the real world and at least we would have something different to talk about. I kept on looking at her as she was clearing mucus from our little girl's nose in the presence of her fellow women who said their farewells after greeting me as they claimed to be on a hurry , but I suspected that they were giving us time as a family and did not want to interupt the good moment they found me having with my kids. It was just good to have these three people in my life they kept me going, their existence was an encouragement for me.

All new things they come with a price tag it's either you have to quit or endure the pain.

Life was really taking shape I don't want to lie. My new ordeal was really opening up a promising future. You know a person with literature and  is able to apply it to his life is just a golden vessel. I was really getting excited to become the best version of me that would really be on the spot light of making it. 

When they say settle your past they really mean something. To me to settle the past was a statement that meant nothing until I saw the greater pain. My business was actually booming I was now thinking of opening a tuckshop that was going to aid to our success , but surprising my first born was so sick that death smelt at our doors. He got admitted and was put in the Intense Care Unit. The cost of the sickness was equivalent to my savings only living my wallet and box at home. He was diagnosed with low blood in his veins and there was need for an immediate donor for their reserves lacked his blood group.

This was really a heart rendering moment they tried to call a few listed donors who they knew some numbers were on voicemail and those which went through it's either the person had just donated for someone else or that they had gone to stay in South Africa. I got in a moment of despair , man are strong on tears but on this one I cried my boy like he was dead. The only option now left was just one to try my blood. Remember I was fearing that my thinness was because of my wife I suspected of cheating me at some point. Now the mind was asking "what if actually your wife got you infected you are also dying ?"

I took time denying to get tested asking the doctor if we could not make contacts with the sister hospitals of the General hospital we were at. Yet he insisted that it was myself who was now their last chance. The other thought that came was like "what if this child is not mine obvious the blood group would  not match ?" So I was having these problem from my past and I wanted to bring them along into my successes. This is one problem why we cannot be successful, it's easy for a rich man to pull out a gun for revenge or just to find another wife to marry. Sometimes poverty has actually kept some homes alive.

I looked at my wife twice as I paced my foot into the ward. I wanted just to say a few warning words before I saw a taboo in my blood. I was shut by the doctor who rushed me in with a warning that delaying was going kill my boy. I was tested and results came out, I was gotten on my face with so much shock that left my heart in fullness. I almost ran just to kneel before my wife , and just say that I was really sorry. Each time I tell my story the most women they say if I was your wife and you did that it was going to be over, but I'm thankful to God for HIS gift my wife. It was in that moment that the pint of blood was taken from my body for my boy.