Zero
I'm at the end of patience with waiting, I want her, I need her. I’ve never wanted a woman so much before. I've never had to work so hard to get a woman to want me either. Since I've met her, I watched her play with her life as she throws herself on the ground, belittling who she is. Why does she do it? Why does she deny what it is we have? How can I help her? What do I do? It's all those questions that remain unanswered as I finally get to her. I wrap the blanket around her shoulders and sit my ass down beside her as my arm pulls her toward my chest. She fights me and my heart aches at how broken she is. If I were a lesser man I would have broken down and cried. “It's only me.” She settles at my voice. Her head resting on my chest. There is no moon to light our darkness as we watch the tears from the sky feed the lake. My hold on her tightens at just the thought of tomorrow. I’ll have to leave herZero I'm at the end of patience with waiting, I want her, I need her. I’ve never wanted a woman so much before. I've never had to work so hard to get a woman to want me either. Since I've met her, I watched her play with her life as she throws herself on the ground, belittling who she is. Why does she do it? Why does she deny what it is we have? How can I help her? What do I do? It's all those questions that remain unanswered as I finally get to her. I wrap the blanket around her shoulders and sit my ass down beside her as my arm pulls her toward my chest. She fights me and my heart aches at how broken she is. If I were a lesser man I would have broken down and cried. “It's only me.” She settles at my voice. Her head resting on my chest. There is no moon to light our darkness as we watch the tears from the sky feed the lake. My hold on her tightens at just the thought of tomorrow. I’ll have to leave her
Beggar It's clear why the kid loves it here and I feel a twinge in my heart for my baby girl. She’ll be about his age by now. He offers me the bowl of popcorn but I shake my head. “You gotta bath kid.” He has a fistful of popcorn in his little hand that's half way to his open mouth. His hair is hanging lifelessly to the front of his face and he just freezes. Then everything happens so fast. Aron throws the popcorn in my face, jumps off the bed, past Storm and Texas, knocking their drinks down and out the door. “Aron, not cool,” Texas shouts. I chase after him at the same time big burly hands catch his little body's retreat and lifts him up. “Uncle Logan put me down.” His legs kick out and his body moving like crazy. My steps falter and I just stand there watching Zero. He’s laughing as he tickles a crazy Aron, “Are you going to run?” “No
Beggar"Beauty look at me please." I spin around and stare at his sullen face, "What do you want Zero?” I sigh, “My name is Beggar, it's not beauty, it's Beggar, okay, I said it was good. We good, we said what we had to say, don't worry about it. How many times are you gonna keep apologizing?" His face crumbles, and I feel that tug as my resolve slides a fraction."Until I stop feeling like shit." I nod once like I understand then turn back to my job. I don't want him to be here. Why can't he leave me alone? Zero is creeping in my thoughts, slowly stealing my mind a second at a time. I've done good these last few hours. I haven't thought about him, haven't thought about his promises and kisses, I haven't thought about his ultimatums. This day with Zero has been a world wind of numerous emotions that are confusing and dangerous. "Can't we just go for a walk. And talk." I turn back to him, glad that my hair is tied up and h
Beggar “Will I ever be able to trust you?” His question rolls off his tongue and out of his mouth without thinking. I get up from the bed, my hair falling around my shoulders, down to my waist. “That's a question only you and time will know the answer to Zero.” I move toward the door and pause. My back to the Enforcer. “Thank you for that kiss but I cannot be your woman Zero, because the same monster I run from is the only one who’ll ever own me.” “I’ll kill him.” He replies with so much hatred and promise that another woman would've believed him but hope is a fool’s courage. I spin around, my smile weak. “My fate was sealed years ago Zero, killing him won't save me.” I walk out the door of my room and down the steps knowing that I did the right thing. It's for his own safety, for my last shred of humanity. I can't be saved and I can't let myself get hurt eit
BeggarStaring into his depths I know that I want to be his, I want to be owned by a hero just one time, but just like that I'm reminded that I am someone else's possession, a beautiful monster, who will never let me go. He will always search for me; he will always find me.“Tu sei mia mendicante.” You are mine beggar. Those were the last words he whispered to me, two years ago, the last time he found me. The thought should scare me, should leave me in fear but I find myself resigned. I had 5 years to accept my fate. 5 years to accept my chains.I hide my turmoil as I stare into this man’s harsh face, this man that keeps the monster away. By doing that I also hide my fate but I'm determined to live in this moment, for once I just want to live in this moment. Can’t I just have that?“You gonna jump on the back of my bike, gotta meet my dad woman.” I'm taken back by that and the serious look in his eyes. I drop my hand
BeggarMy humanity is next.I don't drop my gaze, and he doesn't drop his shocked one either. And then we are at a stare off and I'm sure I'm going to win this; I just know it.Zero's eyes become smaller the longer I hold. The one with the scar ticks as he lifts his finger to rub the scar. My stomach tightens at the hard glint he bestows upon me. “No,” He growls tersely, “I'm not fuckin’ going anywhere. You and I are happenin’.” My gaze narrows and I do the stupidest thing. I piss the beast off. My legs kick out and my feet hit him in the chest. He makes a “oomph” sound, grabs my ankles and splits my legs open. He got one ankle locked in each of his big hands. “Let me go you asshole.” I try to twist but his grip is strong. “I don't want you!” I scream from my tortured throat.I snicker when he tightens his hold of my ankles in warning. “Too fuckin’ bad, woman.”“I don’t give second chances.” I glare at him