I can’t help but look around me as I run down the abandoned street. My canvas clad feet smacking harshly against the dirt road with my increasing stride. The early morning sun making it easy to see as the darkness lifts. My breathing became deafening as I continue to tire. I need to push on they need the medicine.
You’re not going to make it, the fever will kill all those effected all because you weren’t quick enough. That’s why they abandoned you the first time, isn’t it? You weren’t quick enough, It’s all your fault they left you. My subconscious speaks like I am a five year old in need of a scolding.
My uneven breathing grows harsh as my throat closes up with memories rushing back from my subconscious’ taunting. My fingers automatically go to the left side of my forehead to trace the ridge of the scar to its end just below my right eye.
Why is it whenever I’m alone I always end up drowning in the torment created by my own mind? Come on Bailey, you just have to get the medicine back to the others.
I start thinking about the group I am currently with. Sure they were nice but they mainly have children that survived the carnage. They almost always need me to go on supply runs but I can’t help myself from thinking they just want to get rid of me.
Imagine all the things they say behind your back, being branded with the shame of failure and rejection is the best thing that will ever happened to you. That scar warns others away from you. The disgust and the suspicion, it’s all clear on their faces. My subconscious cackles, delighted by their obvious disgust.
No! They don’t look at me like that, do they? I have to distract myself. Maybe if I look at the buildings.
The abandoned buildings around me were trashed when the apocalypse started. I remember when the first outbreak was reported, the infected were ripping people’s throats out. I always thought the apocalypse would have been caused by zombies but it’s not. Get this, the apocalypse started because of vampires and not the twilight kind of vampires. No these vampires don’t have glittery skin or look even remotely attractive. These vampires have rotten skin from the lack of food and their eyes are black bottomless pits. These monsters can go out in the sun without the fear of their skin burning. Their nails look like thick wires protruding from their fingertips reminding me of barbed wire. It is terrifying. I don’t ever want to get caught in the middle of a pack of them. I have seen it happen. I shudder from the atrocious memory, that’s not something I want to see ever again.
I knew I was nearing the compound due to the buildings having a stronger structure with more stability than the rubble around them and I knew I was nearly at the compound. I draw closer only to notice the screams and the sound of gunshots in the distance, my breath hitches as I sprint towards the wailing. How could this happen? The groups on patrol are excellent at spotting threats. Have they been attacked by another group? Is it those monsters? Have they been overrun?
My thoughts intensify as I stumble along the dirt road as fast as I can.
I have to help them! I need to help them!
What and risk your own life? You’re too cowardly to consider that. My appalled subconscious spat.
They helped me when I was lost. I need to be able to help them when they need it.
The only reason they help you is because they need some mindless drone to do all their bidding. Think back do they ever try to make you feel comfortable? What do they want from you, that doesn’t involve you running around. Don’t be stupid abandon them! My subconscious all but screams at me as I continue towards the compound.
No, they don’t ask me for anything but errands but I don’t care! They took me in, they could have left me to those monsters and I would never have survived but they didn’t so I’m not going to abandon them.
You’re such a little bitch whimpering, waiting, hoping to save them. Bailey they aren’t making it out alive! Now turn around and leave! The presence in my head increases until a dull ache appears, I grip my head as I continue to run.
Stop please! Please stop I’m going to help them!
Fine if you want to die, please continue on the path you’ve chosen! The ache disappears and my subconscious with it.
I pant as my feet carry me towards the compound, I wonder if anyone will be alive and if they are will they be happy to see me?The scent of iron became heavy in the air as I slow to a jog. The compound looks daunting as the gun shots echo around. Where is everyone?Just as the thought came to mind the gunshots and screams silenced, the roaring in my ears was deafening as I pushed my way past the fallen debris to look for any sign of life but I knew I wouldn’t find what I was looking for, the realisation that I was completely alone yet again dawns on me as I came across a body. It was one of the teenagers that also had been taken in, I stare at his horribly disfigured body and I came to the conclusion that this attack was caused by those monsters, if they were still around I need to gather all the supplies I could before they found me or before the corpses reanimated I quietly search the bodies I could reach without having to leave the cover provided by the debri
It won’t work... here let me demonstrate. You throw the bottle and it shatters on a rock away from you, you wait a minute with baited breath as the shrieks head towards the bottle. Now! It’s your chance, you start for the building but…but you step on a stick and it snaps. Oh no! they’re coming for you, bam! You’re caught and ripped into shreds. My subconscious chuckles as my hand picks up the transparent glass bottle, I just need to throw it far enough that they will run away from me. That way I can make a run for the building and barricade myself inside. My hands start to sweat with the tension running through my body, I grip the bottle tight as my breathing became heavy. I prepare to lob the bottle
It won’t work... here let me demonstrate. You throw the bottle and it shatters on a rock away from you, you wait a minute with baited breath as the shrieks head towards the bottle. Now! It’s your chance, you start for the building but…but you step on a stick and it snaps. Oh no! they’re coming for you, bam! You’re caught and ripped into shreds. My subconscious chuckles as my hand picks up the transparent glass bottle, I just need to throw it far enough that they will run away from me. That way I can make a run for the building and barricade myself inside. My hands start to sweat with the tension running through my body, I grip the bottle tight as my breathing became heavy. I prepare to lob the bottle away from me. Here we go I just need to get it far enough away from me. I draw my arm back I propel the bottle forward, the glass easily slips through my sweaty grasp as my muscles tighten with the release.
Fuck there is two of them. How am I supposed to take them down? You can’t. You should take that shard and slit you wrist now. You can’t take two of them down. No matter how weak they are. Remember you are weaker than them. Shut up! Just remember I offered you an easy way out. I gripped the shard firmly as I reassessed the creatures behind me. I was right, they’re sickly looking. They’re barely standing. They were in the same place but their heads were tilted backwards as if they were concentrating on something. Were they listening? Were my footsteps too loud? I shook away the impending anxiety as I peered around for a distraction. I need to lure them away from each other. I spotted a rock and slid my hand along the dirt until I felt the rough surface, not taking my eyes away from the group. I carefully picked the rock up and tested the weight in my hand, would they
I need to get down and search the body of the vampire that impaled itself. Maybe I can find something on one of the bodies that can help me. I looked around me as the ledge seemed to only have one way down and it was those rickety steps. I began to climb down.Don’t look down there. Don’t. Look. Down. Scared are you? Come on. I dare you to look down. If you look down it might ease your mind… Stop trying to be nice!Stop interrupting me! I was going to say. It might ease your mind to know how far you’re going to fall!That’s not any better than pretending to be nice to me!I continued to climb down until I reached the last step, how am I going to get enough momentum? Maybe if I can find something to hang onto in case I don’t make it? My eyes looked to the sides of the ravine as fast as I could until I spotted a vine like objec
I guess that’s why I have my scar, a reminder of the fact that I’ll never be as strong as I need to be. As strong as I want to be. Maybe I deserve the scar…. I-i know I deserve my scar it’s all my fault. I… I need to search the body. I wiped my eyes with the back of my hand, collected the supplies and got to my feet, stumbling backwards as my backpack settled on my shoulders.I breathed in through my nose, dragging my feet towards the shish kebabbed vampire. I just need to kill the other one then I can leave. I’ll figure that out later I suppose. I sighed as I reached the rotting body that had been speared by the rod, god these things actually stink. I squatted down and patted the pockets down until I felt a hard rectangle in the front. I put my hand into the pocket after glancing around, it was just an ID and a pocket knife. I felt my stomach role as I stared at the picture on the plastic, the woman had blonde hair and blue
I have been traveling for four days now, the weather had stayed clear and there was no drama however I can’t even begin to explain how much my feet hurt. I was around 200km in by now and the evacuation centre seemed so far away but I knew better than to give up now, I had come so far and I refuse to give up for now at least.Darkness slowly coated the surroundings, I need to find a tree that’s steady and could hold my weight. I walked around the massive oak trees looking for one that wasn’t too high but wasn’t too small. As I walked around I could hear the snapping of twigs and the ground crunching beneath the weight of god knows what, the sound of panting reached me. What it that? The panting wasn’t as frantic as the beasts but It kind of sounded like a dog. Is it wild? Has it gone feral?I looked around for some kind of cover whilst I tried to figure out what kind of shape the dog would be in.I really hope it&rs
Wow that’s a fucked up thoughtI admit that’s fucked up even for me I rolled my eyes and sluggishly tried to sit holding my hand to my head to try and ease the pain that had gotten worse.I think I have a concussion or something...You don’t say I struggled against the pull of sleep I need to stay awake that is what you do with concussions right?No you need to lay back down and sleep let your mind drift away whilst you think of before the world went to hell.Hmmm tempting but I think not, I need to stay awake and aware of my surroundings. After managing to sit up I watched the dog with weary and unfocused eyes as it crawled towards me.“What are you doing?” I watched as closely as I could as it paused and lifted its ears.”Do you understand me?”