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Two days ago, I lost my consciousness again for the second time. My mom was sickly worried about it kaya't pinalipat muna n'ya sina Aziel at Lissy sa apartment ko para may kasama ako. Hindi na ako nagprotesta pa. Maging si daddy ay 'yon rin naman ang sinabi sa akin.
Aziel's birthday is on Saturday that's why I made sure that I'll not be busy doing any kind of schoolworks during that day. Kanina rin ay nagluto si Lissy. I told her that I'll just bring packed lunch dahil time consuming kung hihintayin ko pa sila bago makakain sa cafeteria.
"Sure ka na hindi ka sasama, Amorelle? Final na 'yan?" pag uulit ni Thamara na ngayon ay nakasukbit na ang shoulder bag. Kakatapos lang ng panghuling subject namin bago maglunch break.
"Yep. Thank you sa notes,"
"No prob. Basta yung request ko, ha?" kinikilig na tugon nito. I don't know if she's serious about it. Gusto kasi n'yang ipakilala ko s'ya kay Vaughn ma
BirthmarksI wandered my eyes around right after I turned on the lights again. The theme of this room is black—curtains, quilts, sleeping pillows, slippers and mats all have similar colors. There are also beautiful murals on the walls, hand painted by someone who's really professional on arts.I went closer to it only to see it's every little detail. There were exactly seven paintings. All have the same sizes except on the other one. The subjects of the painting are all abstract. It's really heard to interpret its meaning maybe because I am not knowledgeable enough when it comes to this matter.I'm sure that this is Alton's room. I wonder if he's also the one who made those paintings.Wala na akong nakita pang kakaiba rito sa kwarto. Bukod sa malawak at mabango, mga murals lang talaga ang mabilis na nakakaagaw ng pansin.It's been an approximately ten minutes since Alton left but still, I
Other HalfHearing the waves crashing to the ocean caught my attention. I stepped out of my cabin and went to the veranda to have a spectacular and clear view of the ocean. I was smacked in the face by the pure and refreshing air. Looking at the peaceful sunset and calm water surface gave me a sort of relaxation. Staring at an almost orange sky and distant silhouettes of the other ships gave made me feel a heavenly serenity.Habang nakahawak ako sa railings ng barko, naramdaman ko namang may humaplos sa likod ko."Sweetheart, what bothers your mind? Hindi mo ba pupuntahan ang pinsan mo?" napatigil ako sa pag iisip nang biglang magtanong si momm
FeelingsI told myself that I will never tell my parents what happened to me because I don't want them to get worried pero hindi ko na rin napigilan pa yung sarili ko. Every night, I always find myself staring at the ceiling, wondering why things ended up like this. Vaughn already confessed to me pero sa halip na maubos ang mga tanong sa isip ko, mas lalo lang itong nadagdagan.Willing naman silang makinig pareho sa akin. Dad even cancelled his appointments just to be with me. Nakaupo ako ngayon sa sofa habang pinag gigitnaan nilang dalawa."You want to tell us about Vaughn, sweetheart?"Hindi pa man ako nakakapagsalita pero alam na kaagad ni mommy kung ano yung tumatakbo sa utak ko. Did I look too obvious?It's been a week since Vaughn and I started dating. They first met him during Aziel's birthday. Palagi rin silang magka-call ni mommy. Vaughn never failed to update her everything about me. Tapos tuw
Good NewsLissy told me that Alton flew to Cebu because he was their department's representative for a three-day seminar. Mas mabuti na rin 'yon dahil hindi ko alam kung paano siya haharapin pagkatapos ng lahat ng sinabi niya.Those three words that came from his mouth are still vivid. I admit that I'm really happy knowing that we felt the same way for each other. But then, I remembered Vaughn. Kahapon rin ay bumalik ako ng bahay at nakausap ko si mommy.I was crying in her shoulders. I told her everything about Alton. The advice that she gave me is to avoid him as much as possible so I'll easily forget my feelings.I tried my best to follow what she wanted. Pinigilan ko ang sarili kong h'wag magreply kahit na panay text pa rin sa akin si Alton.I just decided to turn off my phone so I won't be able to read his messages. Pagkatapos n'on, lumabas na ako para sana magpunta ng convenience store nang makita ko si Vaughn.
InfatuationHindi ako makapaniwala sa sinabi ni kuya Led sa akin. Hanggang ngayon ay panay tanong pa rin ako kung seryoso ba siya sa good news na ibinalita niya."I'm not good at making jokes, Relle," sambit pa nito.Hindi ko tuloy alam kung ano ang gagawin ko ngayon. Hindi ko naman siya pwedeng iwanan sa bahay kasi may asthma si mommy. Hindi rin pwede sa apartment dahil nasa hospital ako for two days. Hindi ko rin siya maaasikaso at baka magka allergy na naman si Vaughn. Another thing, kasama ko rin sa apartment si Aziel. Alam kong n'ong una pa lang ay ayaw na nito kay Callie."Let me take care of her," napatigil ako sa pag iisip nang biglang magsalita si Alton."Sure ka? Hindi ba abala?" nahihiyang tanong ko.Even if I'm doing my best to avoid him right now, I am left with no choice but to trust him. Alam kong siya lang ang makakatulong sa akin ngayon. He's more knowledgeable of taking caring of pets r
Mad"Will you not answer the call?" Vaughn asked that snapped me back to my senses. Hindi ko namalayan na masyado na palang napalalim yung iniisip ko at kanina pa akong nakatulala.Napatingin ako sa screen ng cellphone ko. Alton was the one calling. It took me an almost a minute while staring at it before I finally decided to reject the call."It's alright," tipid na sagot ko bago ko naalala yung nangyari kahapon.Maybe he was just confused too. I'll just continue avoiding him until he gives up his feelings for me. Makakalimutan niya rin yung nararamdaman niya para sa akin."It's okay with me if you'll answer his call and be friends with him, mi amore. I don't want to see you in pain," sambit pa niya na nakapagpatigil sa akin sa pagkain. I tried my best to smile just to show him that what he thought is wrong."Who told you that I'm in pain? Masaya naman ako," I reasoned which made him chuckle.
PainI have so many things in my mind while walking along the hallway. Hanggang ngayon ay hindi pa rin mawala sa isip ko lahat ng sinabi sa'kin ni Aziel kanina. He didn't give me further details; the reason why we ended up fighting again. Whatever happens to Alton and Azalea is not in my concern anymore but there's something that pushes me to know what actually happened between them. Hindi ko na alam kung ano pa ba ang ibang kasinungalingang tinatago sa'kin ni Alton. If it's true that he was meant for Azalea, what about his feelings for me?"Amorelle ija, mabuti at napadalaw ka rito. Hindi mo ba kasama si Aziel?" tanong ni Manang Cecilia na isa sa mga mapagkakatiwalaang kasambahay nina tita Mirae. Hindi ko alam kung saan ba ako kumuha ng lakas ng loob para magpunta rito. I just want to know if Aziel is saying the truth. May parte sa akin na umaasa pa rin na sana, hindi totoo lahat ng sinabi niya."Maupo ka muna at ikukuha kita ng makaka
Fountain Tower"Get an enough rest, mi amore. Everything will be alright tomorrow," Vaughn consoled. Hindi ko tuloy mapigilan ang sarili ko na umasa na sana nga ga'non ang mangyari kinabukasan."Goodnight," I replied as I stared at the curve on his lips hoping that the pain in my chest will be gone."Goodnight," sagot niya habang bakas pa rin sa mga mata ang pag aalala sa akin.Pagkapasok ko ng kwarto, parang sirang gripong nag unahan sa pagtulo ang mga ko. I suddenly remember what I did earlier. Alam kong nasaktan ko si Alton sa ginawa ko. I'm hoping that after what I've did, he'll totally move on from me because that's what the best for him.Maybe, I was just meant to meet him and experience the temporary happiness each day that we're together. I'll just trust the fate's choice for me. I know someday, I'll be the happiest girl because I've come up with the right decisions."Relle, will you not attend your class to