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“We do,” Corvin replied. It left me speechless for a while. I'm familiar with Marlowe International and how powerful and wealthy they were. I have read their feature in the magazine, and now I'm surprised I'm actually standing in front of someone so influential. When I recovered, I took his hand and accepted the handshake. His palm was soft and warm against mine, sending a chill down my spine. I had to quickly let go. Corvin then popped the champagne. Only then did I notice the pair of champagne glasses I haven’t seen earlier. “Are you sure you’re fine with champagne? I thought you’d want something to eat,” he said, handing me one of the glasses. He filled it almost to the brim. I shrugged. I don't really feel hungry. I haven't eaten all day, and this champagne was technically my meal. I'm used to fasting–it helped me stay fit and maintain my figure. “Are you on a strict diet or something?” For a guy, I thought he was quite talkative. My first impression of him had been that he was the quiet, mysterious type, the kind who would command rather than ask questions, especially personal ones. “Not really,” I replied. As soon as he finished pouring, I lifted the glass and took a sip. I figured it was my turn to ask something. “Why are you here?” Just moments ago, I was certain I have the entire place to myself. I hate crying in front of people, so I always make sure to do it somewhere private. But I'd been wrong this time. Contrary to what I thought that this place was closed for the night, it clearly wasn’t closed to the owner. “Because I saw you coming up here.” That made me raise a brow. I confirmed his eyes really followed me the entire night. “Now, why are you broken-hearted again?” The question made me finish the rest of my glass. That question stings that I held the glass out for more. Corvin didn’t speak. He simply refilled it. “Because what people see isn’t really the truth,” I began. “Well, for a brief moment, it was. We were actually in love. But that ended just a while ago. We broke up, and now I have to pretend that everything’s okay between us.” Derek and I started as a love team in an online series. It unexpectedly clicked with viewers and earned us thousands of fans. People loved our chemistry and how real everything looked between us. It paved way to the 'successful career' we have now. Because of all the champagne I've consumed, my emotions started to overwhelm me. I told him about the contract we signed, binding us together for at least seven years. It had been three years since signing, and I thought everything was fine. But then Derek started becoming this hot-tempered, impatient person who shouted and screamed at staff and crew. I was shocked, and for a moment, I wondered if I really knew him. Derek’s treatment of me changed too. We used to be so in love, so sweet, affectionate, always together. Then suddenly, he was never around and would ignore my calls and texts. I felt as though I was being pushed aside, and it made my heart ache. But I held on. Not just because of the contract, but because I love him. But maybe all good things must come to an end. Our arguments grew worse–Derek would shout and snap at me often. Whenever we're alone and the cameras weren’t pointed at us, he became a completely different person. Misunderstandings piled up, quarrels became more intense. And then I just couldn't handle it anymore. I decided to break up, and he agreed without a fight. And it broke me. More than I can imagine. I didn’t realize I was already crying. Until he offered me the same handkerchief again. This time, I accepted it without hesitation. “And we signed a contract! I want to move on, but how can I when we’re still supposed to be together? When we still have to see each other every day?” The contract is valid for seven years. One of its clauses required us to stay together as a love team turned “real couple” for that duration to maintain the fantasy for our fans. It brought enormous profit to the company, so the rule was strictly enforced. We both benefited from it, so we agreed to continue. But it's becoming harder for me. Because he still holds a piece of my heart, while he doesn't want me anymore. It would be hard to move on because another clause of the contract strictly forbade us from being with other people except for work projects. We can't fall in love. We can't be with anyone else but each other. “And you know what’s funny?” I mumbled, a mix of laughter and pain in my voice. “He can’t even pleasure me! Whenever we make love, it’s always about him! I have to do all the work, and when he’s done, I’m all alone. I’m left to take care of my own needs. How crazy is that?” My emotions were running wild, and I wasn't really thinking. I was feeling hurt, regret, and betrayed, all at the same time, which is why I didn't care about the words that came out of my mouth. “He’s my first everything… But I never really had a real orgasm with him. It’s always fake. I’m always responsible for my own satisfaction.” And then I suddenly started hearing the words I said. It was a private information between us and I forgot I was talking to a man I barely know. I fell silent, and so did Corvin. I suddenly wanted to smack my head. How could I share all of those?! What would Corvin think of me now?! “God, I’m so sorry,” I quickly said. “Oh my God, I wasn’t supposed to say that!” I brought the glass to my mouth, but it was empty now. Corvin readily filled it, and I murmured a quick thanks before downing it in one go. I think I'm crazy. “It’s fine,” he quickly replied. There was something in his voice that I couldn’t quite distinguish. “I’m really sorry. That’s private information!” This time, Corvin didn't reply. We fell silent again, and I wanted to run away. But my feet seemed to be glued to the floor and my body frozen on the bench. I think I'm really crazy. “You never had true orgasm?” He asked. Out of everything I shared, that's what struck him the most? I then shook my head, still embarrassed. “I… I’m always responsible for my own… orgasm.” When I looked at him, I saw him nodding. But I could see he was deep in thought. I'm feeling anxious now, also curious about what was going through his head. He took a slow sip of his own drink, and a thoughtful, almost predatory look settled on his face. “You’ve given me quite a lot to think about, Kayla,” he said, his voice low and steady. “And honestly, I find myself deeply intrigued.” He paused, leaning forward just slightly. “It seems to me, you have needs that aren’t being met. Needs that a woman like you absolutely deserves to have satisfied.” He placed his glass down on the bench. “I propose an arrangement..” He started, and I was holding my breath, anticipating his next words. “Do you want to feel what it’s like to have a real, great orgasm?” I couldn’t reply. My thoughts were mixed up and running in every direction. “I can offer you the satisfaction and the attention you’ve been missing. No strings, no future obligations, and certainly no illusions of a relationship. Just for tonight.” Corvin’s face had shifted–no teasing, no smirk, just quiet seriousness. And I know he wasn’t joking. “Just two adults acknowledging a mutual curiosity,” he continued, his voice low. “It would be my pleasure to make sure you never feel like you’re on your own again.” The room felt smaller, warmer, as the weight of his words settled between us. I didn’t answer right away—this wasn’t a decision to make lightly. But as his steady gaze held mine, I realized I could do it. Derek had been with other women, and a small part of me wondered if maybe this was something I needed too. So, with an answer I hadn’t fully thought through, I replied, “Okay.”KAYLA“That fucking asshole!” Maddie commented after I told her everything that’s been going on between Derek and me.It was so draining having to retell all those stories, but I had to. I needed someone to vent to. If I kept everything inside, I’m sure I would explode sooner or later.I was a ticking bomb, and once I got triggered, all of my secrets might spill. And I couldn’t afford for that to happen.“He texted me earlier, telling me to bring you meds, food, makeup, and clothes because you were hungover,” she said. “I wasn’t sure if it was true, but I went anyway. I was even impressed by how much he seemed to care about you. But God!”I slowly shook my head, unsure of what to say.“That wasn’t caring, Maddie,” I finally said. “He was trying to make sure I looked fine. He didn’t want anyone to notice what happened.”Maddie’s face softened. She looked at me for a few seconds before asking, “Does Casey know about this?”My heart skipped.“No,” I quickly answered.“Are you sure?”I no
KAYLAI stared at the ceiling, a million thoughts swimming through my head, while fear lingered deep inside me.The room was already dark, and I was alone on this huge queen-sized bed. Alone with my thoughts. Alone with my tears.After what happened, Derek apologized furiously and insisted that I stay here. He said he would come back in the morning. I was too dumbfounded to react. Too stunned to fight back, to retaliate, or even move.When I think about it now, there were moments when he wanted to hurt me. But I was too emotionally devastated to notice the signs. I was so focused on the pain he was causing me that I never really stopped to think that he might actually hurt me physically.And when I think about it even more, he only hurt me because of Sarah.Was he really in love with her?Enough to hurt me like this?Enough to throw away everything we had?Was I not even worth being honest with?I mean, if he had just told me that he was in love with someone else, that he wanted to be
KAYLAAfter the showing comes the after-party. From a glamorous and classy dress, I changed into a sparkly spaghetti-strapped dress that falls just in the middle of my legs. It looks sexy and a little playful, which suits the event tonight.After changing into my dress for the after-party, I headed back to the rooftop where the party was being held. A lot of people were already there, and everyone seemed ready to let loose after the long night.I didn't have Derek with me, as we were staying at different hotels. My team had to drop me off at the venue because I insisted that he not fetch me this time. I didn't want that after what he did.He did wait for me before he got inside, though. Because if he didn't, rumors would surely spread, and that's something he couldn't afford right now.Especially knowing I have something on him.His brows were in a knot when he saw me getting out of the car."Disappointed?" I grumbled when I got near him."Shut it," he replied.I almost rolled my eyes
KAYLAMy heart was beating so fast inside my chest that I felt like it was about to jump out of my body. I had to hold onto the bathroom sink the moment I got inside. My fingers gripped the edge tightly because, if I didn’t, I’d probably be on the floor by now.Seeing him looking like that–like some prince straight out of a storybook, hurt like hell. Because I knew I couldn’t touch him. I couldn’t be with him. I couldn’t hug him.It was torture. I admit it. I miss him.My life shifted into a different phase without him. It was like something was missing, and somehow, he was the missing piece.God, I’m hopeless.I’m crazy.I stared at myself through the mirror. I saw the miserable Kayla staring back at me. The Kayla who had to pretend she’s happy tonight when, in truth, she just wanted to disappear.I’ve had too much faking tonight. I don’t think I can handle it any more.I took a deep breath before deciding to go inside one of the cubicles. I had to keep myself together for a few more
CORVINThe hotel was busier than usual tonight. Every corner was filled with people in expensive suits and elegant gowns. Cameras flashed from every direction, reporters moved around with their microphones, and the sound of people talking filled the entire lobby.I've attended countless events like this before, but tonight was different. Not because of the premiere. Not because of the celebrities.Because she’s here.I stood near the entrance with a few members of our management team, greeting guests and exchanging polite smiles. Since our family owned the hotel where the premiere was being held, I was also invited.It was expected of me to be here, so I came.But then I saw her.For a moment, everything around me seemed to slow down.She stepped out of the car wearing a dress that made her look almost unreal. Her hair was styled perfectly, her makeup was soft but striking, and she carried herself with the kind of confidence that made people turn their heads.The cameras immediately w
KAYLA“I guess the limo’s here,” Maddie said.We all looked toward the entrance and, sure enough, the limo was already waiting for us.We walked toward it, and I had to smile and wave at the people we passed whenever they called my name. Like the usual movie star that I was.“Oh, Derek’s dashing as always,” Melanie whispered.She and Belinda giggled behind me as they watched Derek step out of the limo.He looked handsome, yes. He was wearing a black suit tailored perfectly to his body. He had his usual actor look, complete with his perfectly styled hair and that charming smile he always wore whenever there were cameras around.I used to love that smile.I fell in love with that smile.But now, I couldn’t help but feel irritated whenever he smiled. Because I knew that behind that charming expression was the true color of the person who broke me.“Hey, my love,” he said with a smile as he offered me his hand.I stared at it for what felt like forever before taking it anyway.I forced my
KAYLA “Sorry,” I quickly said the moment I realized I had been in his arms for what felt like forever. I tried to stand up properly, but it was nearly impossible as my other sandal had lost its heel. I had to grab it, and for a moment, I wanted to scold it for causing my fall, which was absurd. I
KAYLA It was the most beautiful ceremony I've ever witnessed. The priest’s message was heartfelt and sincere, and the couple’s vows definitely caused another batch of tears. I reached for another glass of champagne as I felt the sting of tears threatening to fall again. I can’t cry now. Not in fro
KAYLA “We’re here!” Maddie exclaimed. I must have been spacing out, because I didn't even realize we've already arrived at the church where my sister is about to get married. A sea of people gathered outside at the entrance, all dressed in shades of champagne and gold. The women wore long dresses
KAYLAEverybody looked my way the moment the church doors opened. A soft hush fell over the room, followed by warm smiles that bloomed across their faces. I stepped forward slowly, my movements graceful and careful at the same time.A delicate violin rendition of ‘A Thousand Years’ started playing,







