Chapter 1: Me

Belle's Pov:

So today was like the other days I woke up tired. Getting ready for work. I work for my father. Handling his business.

My father is a businessman and a mob boss that's why he is so ruthless. He only cares about himself.

So luckily he is usually busy. Our relationship isn't that good. I am actually afraid of him.

I am an only child. Maybe if I had a sibling life would've been better. Or not who knows.

They are many things that I like to change in my life but I can't. Will things get better? Will anything change? These are just two questions from hundred of them inside my head.

I am usually a quiet person. Not shy. Just quiet. Not in the mood for anyone or anything. Trying to do whatever my father wants yet I manage to make him angry. Maybe he is just short tempered.

I feel like everything I do it's not enough to make him satisfied. It's like he sees me as a mistake.

Sometimes all I want is just getting away from here. Going somewhere that no one knows me and my name.

My life is always about him. What he wants. And when I disobey ughh I don't want to even think about the consequences.

I got ready and went down. My father was sitting and eating his breakfast.

"Good morning." I said. He just nodded. Not even bother himself to look up at me. I sat in my seat and ate my own breakfast in silence. My father got up and left.

Once again I was by myself but cool with it.

After my breakfast I got in my car heading to work. I usually stay out of my father's mob business and he won't share much with me. All I know is to handle myself.

My father wanted me to train so if by any chance I get into trouble I would be able to save myself. So I trained for years till two years ago that I started my job in his company.

I started my job while studying. I got my degree few months ago. At first my father was against me studying but I convinced him and let me assure you it wasn't easy.

He believes everything has it own consequences. Maybe that's most of the reason that I suffer. Maybe that's why he is so cruel even toward me.

He was never a family man and I am sure he even prefer his second in common over me. He sees me as a mistake that he should deal with and doesn't even try to hide it.

If I didn't do the DNA test I would've said that he isn't my biological father but that damn test said the otherwise.

I did a DNA test to make sure he is my real father hoping it would be negative so I could convince myself that's why he behave like that toward me. Pretty fucked up. Unfortunately he was my real father.

I was seventeen years old back at then. Still remember his face when he found out. He wasn't sure if he should beat the shit out of me or pity me.

It was me and him for like eight years yet he still hates me and since my mother left things got worst. He never said a nice word to me. Never said a simple thank you or appreciate what I did. He was cold and ruthless for sure. Finally I arrived.

"Hi ma'am welcome." Said my secretary Lia.

"Thank you." I nodded and went to my room. Starting my work for today.

I was sitting behind my desk staring at the bruise on my arm. I am getting tired of hiding them٫ of wearing long sleeves.Wearing a backless, sleeveless dress is becoming a dream for me.

flashback

"Dad please don't do this to me. Please I am sorry." Cried the little girl. Desperate for not getting hurt, desperate for comfort, for the love she never got but deserved.

"Shut up you should face the consequences. Maybe you will learn to think before doing anything. You should learn your lesson. You should meet the consequences of your actions." He replied with cold and harsh tone. A tone that will bring mob-bosses to their knees let alone a little girl.

"No plea.."

End of flashback...

"Ma'am I brought you your files and a cup of tea." Said Lia as she entered my room. I rolled down my sleeve and nodded. Brushing past the memories of my younger self.

"Sorry I knocked twice but it seems that you were lost in your thoughts." She said with a smile.

"It's ok." I said and nodded.

"Tomorrow is a big day I heard that your father will be here and you will have an important meeting with our new partner." She said.

Ugh another boring meeting. How I hate the days that my father is in company.

"Ok thank you." I said with a forced smile. How I used to smile everyday but now is forced and fake. They stole my smile as well.

I like it how Lia is used to my behaviors. It's like she understands me and that's all I need from her. To cooperate with me. She doesn't get offended when I am not replying back with eagerness. I know it's hard for her cause she is so energetic and talkative. She is good at her job for sure.

She doesn't ask any questions when I sleep at my work or skip meals or act weird or have bruises, she just understands and that's all I could ask for.

Today was a great day actually. My father wasn't home for dinner. That's the best thing that could happen him being away from me.

When he goes on a trip it's like my Christmas. The best thing I could ask for. Being around him makes me anxious. Brings back memories I don't want to remember. As much as I want to forget them I can't. It's impossible It's like I am swimming in them, they are all around me.

Finally the best part of the day: sleeping. I went to sleep trying to imagine myself in another life. In which I am happy, I am smiling and my family loves me.