DEIRDRE
The look in Matteo's eyes told me he meant business and was willing to do whatever it took to get what he wanted. But I wouldn't let him have the satisfaction without a fight. He would never take my child from me.If he killed me, maybe he would succeed. However, the thought of lying dead on the floor sent a shiver down my spine. No, I had to fight back. I couldn't let him win."I'm not pregnant, Matteo. Fuck off," I scowled and pushed him away as he tried to grab my hand."You were," Matteo corrected me. "I'll forgive you for keeping me out of her life, but I won't forgive you for taking her away without my knowledge and raising her like a bastard!""I don't know what you're talking about," I said, trying to sound as convincing as possible.Matteo laughed, cold and cruel, "Don't play dumb, Deirdre. I know everything. You can't hide the truth from me.""I don't have any child of yours with me," I protested."You've told me many lies, and I won't forgive you this time. I'm taking Kendall away from you, and there's nothing you can do about it. You should know I'm ready to fight you if you try anything!" Matteo snapped.He threw a handful of photos at me, and I snatched one from the floor. My fingers shook as I turned it over to see Kendall's smiling face. Kendall was the one person who brought joy to my life, and now Matteo was using her against me. Fear crept up my spine. How did he know about her? Had someone told him? I struggled to keep a straight face, not wanting to reveal anything.Matteo was a powerful man with many watchdogs. I wouldn't be surprised if he had someone watching me. He let out a hollow laugh as if he knew he had me right where he wanted me."See, I have the power to do what I want?" Matteo's words were hard, and I felt the wall I had built around me for four years crumble instantly.I stepped towards him, desperate to plead for Kendall's safety, but he held out a hand to stop me. "You are useless to me, and I have no need for you."His words made me tremble. I had known Matteo was unfeeling, but this was a new level of cruelty. I wondered if I had made a mistake by accepting his proposal. I had seen all the red flags, but I had ignored them in my desire to be with him.I had thought he was Prince Charming, but little did I know, he was the devil himself. If he hadn't come into my life, I would still be living my quiet life as a translator.I could have ignored him the first time he signalled for me to have dinner with him. We first met at an auction, where I was the translator for a wealthy nobleman. I had noticed Matteo, so handsome and quiet, at the corner, watching as everything unfolded. I had assumed he was one of the artists until he started speaking with my employer. His subtle gaze towards me made me think he was interested in me, but I never knew he wanted to use me.My employer had warned me to stay away from him, as he was one of the most dangerous men in Sicily, but I had brushed it off, thinking he was only a ruthless businessman. I had foolishly dived straight into his bed without thinking, let him fuck me over again, and when he proposed, I had thought it was love and had jumped at the offer.It wasn't until after the wedding that I saw all the red flags I had been blind to. They had been present from the beginning, but I had been too stupid to notice them.As Matteo stepped away from me to answer his phone, I took a deep breath and paced around the room. I stopped in front of him, ready to beg for Kendall's life, but when his beautiful grey eyes gazed at me, I forgot all I had wanted to say. I licked my bottom lip, feeling flushed.His eyes often did something weird to me, stirring up strange sensations inside me. It wasn't in an awful way; it was a look that screamed, "I want to fuck you, and I hope you are aware of that."I wondered how many women he had lured into his bed just by staring at them. Fucking and proposing to women was a game to Matteo and people like him. They never committed and never would.As soon as he finished talking, he tossed his phone aside and gazed at me, "What? Are you ready to bring her to me now, seeing as you have no powers against me?"I shook my head, trembling as sudden rage glided through my body.Clenching my fists, I breathed slowly, trying to control my anger."Give me a few days with her." I gritted my teeth, knowing nothing I said would make Matteo agree.He was fucking hard-headed."No darling," Matteo shook his head. "You had all the time with her; I believe it's my turn now.""She is not a commodity that can be whisked around whenever!" I yelled, rather upset."And?" Matteo raised his brows."She is a fucking child. She should not concern you because our contract has been dissolved. Kendall is mine!"As Matteo stood up, I became acutely aware of his towering height, which loomed above my 5ft6.He stepped towards me and loosened the tie around his neck. He yanked it off and undid the buttons on his pristine shirt."What are you doing?" I sucked in a deep breath as he slipped out of his shirt.And then he undid his belt.Swallowing down the lump in my throat, I glance at the door. I knew it was locked, and I doubted there was another means of escape as several alarms rang in my head.DEIRDRE POVITALY—SICILY, FERRARI ESTATEYesterday, when I felt something shifted in the way that Matteo had made love to me in Disneyland while listening to the fireworks go off multiple times, I knew something was going to change, but I never knew he'd be bringing me to his family home in Sicily.It felt like I had taken a nap in London to wake up in Italy. The weird thing was that he didn't give me the time to take in my environment, and boom, a party started.In his defense, he was a public figure and was hosting a charity for his return. He couldn't afford to miss it and needed to appear with me.I wonder if Matteo was afraid I'd run away from him, hence why he had brought me here.It wasn't as if I could run away from him while in London, much less in an unfamiliar environment like this. Besides, if I was planning on escaping, Kendall would be part of the plan, but Matteo separated the three of us for some reason. We hadn't arrived together.He had mentioned Kendall coming with
DEIRDRE POVTWO DAYS LATERI watched as Matteo took a few steps away from me, barking orders into his phone. He had been tensed since we arrived here, and I knew he was only smiling because of Kendall. She was the reason we were here; after all, Matteo had promised to bring her to Disneyland, and he was trying to be happy for her.It wasn't sadness I saw in his eyes; it was anger, and I couldn't help but wonder to whom it was directed.Kendall was a different matter. The moment we stepped through the gates of Disneyland, her hand had left mine. Her little gasp of delight and the way her eyes lit up as she took in the colorful sights melted a part of me.It was this reaction I wished to see in her all the time, and I was glad that she experienced this while with Matteo, her father."Mummy, look! It's Belle!" Kendall squealed. She ran towards me, gripping my hand while pointing her finger toward a woman in a flowing yellow gown with brown hair curled at the tip and subtle makeup. She wa
DEIRDRE POVI groaned, twisting on the bed. My body tingled as the event of last night flooded into my head, and I let out a slight moan.My cheeks warmed as I recalled all that had happened. From getting spanked to wanting to allow Matteo to tie me up like a dog and fucking my mouth until my throat went sore. I remember begging him to spill his semen on me and telling him how I enjoyed him doing so.Should I talk about the piss he had forced out of me three times due to disobeying him?No, I most certainly shouldn't.Last night's event was dirty, humiliating, yet pleasurable. Would it be weird if I said I wanted him to do it again? Maybe.Again, my cheeks warmed due to my excitement. I guess I was insane.But hey, if you were in my shoes, I doubted you wouldn't want Matteo to do all the things I had said to you.Matteo wasn't just handsome; his bedroom game was a hundred percent, leaving you satiated."Hey beautiful," I startled, becoming instantly awake. I turned to Matteo. I had fo
DIEDRE POV"He's going to be fine," Mrs Smith assured me for the umpteenth time."No," I murmured, my gaze traveling to the wall clock.It was close to midnight, yet Matteo wasn't there. How was he going to be okay then?My head reeled as I thought back to the gunshot I had heard, followed by the scream. I couldn't precisely say whose it was, and it could be anyone. Yet, I couldn't help but think it was Matteo's.The voice had been a deep, masculine voice. It sounded almost like Matteo, and I could barely hear what was said, seeing as Lucia had nudged me into the car."He isn't here; how do you want me to believe that he's fine?" I asked her.Folding my arms in front of me, I breathed out.I shut my eyes, opened them again, then shut and opened them again, hoping he'd magically appear in front of me.But I knew then to hope for that to happen.Mrs. Smith's expression softened. "You're exhausted. You haven't slept since arriving. Mr. Ferrari wouldn't want to see you like this."Then he
DEIRDRE POVI groaned, turning in my seat. My stomach did a flipflop, and my eyes shut tightly.I was not too fond of flying. It was one of my many fears, but I didn't think I had any choice in this situation.I couldn't tell where Matteo and Victtorio had gotten the chopper, but I was grateful. We had set out of the island very early, and soon, we'd be arriving at the airport as it was stated.I had been sitting in my seat for only God knows how long and counting until the moment we were going to land."Cara," I heard Matteo's raspy voice in my ear, then he placed a hand on my forehead."Are you sick?" he asked.I shook my head slowly, swallowing back the vomit that surged up my throat for the umpteenth time.My eyes were shut tight, and I continued to grip the chair I was in as if I was holding on for dear life."You look pale, and you're sweating..." he murmured.I didn't need to stare at him to know he was frowning.I didn't respond to him, and I shook my head again. Hoping he'd
DEIRDRE POVMatteo didn't love me.Of course, he didn't. I was stupid to think he'd be bowing at my feet when he didn't three years ago.I was just a fuck mate to him then and still a fuck mate now.I assumed his taking me to the forbidden waterfall could mean he was into me and wanted to explore other things with me, but he had done it to fuck m,e, and I had allowed him.Sighing as my eyes closed and opened, I sat up on the bed, pushing a hand through my hair.Why would I want him to love me anyway? It was silly. I was going to leave him and never intended to stay with him after leaving the Island, yet I still desire to hear the three-letter words."Deirdre," I groaned, falling back to the bed. Everything was confusing, even my heart. It knew what it wanted, and at the same time, it didn't."I don't want to leave him anymore," I muttered, pushing my bottom lip out.I guess it was insane. Staying in a loveless relationship and barely knowing what your husband was up to. He'd disappear