GISELLE
I let his words sink into my head for the next five minutes. I feel pale and I slowly go to sit on the edge of the bed. It's devastating news and I wasn't given a heads-up. I wasn't prepared for it, guess that's why it hit me hard.
Tears brew in my eyes but I blink them back. I shouldn't be crying. It'll only make him feel worse. I have to try hard to keep my emotions in check. No matter what, I got to try for him.
"Why?" I finally ask, getting a hold of my tears. "What happened?"
"It just did. One minute, I'm at my desk and the next minute, I'm asked to leave. Just like that." He's looking out the window. His shoulders are slumped and that's enough indication that he's hurting.
"I don't understand…" Who gets fired out of the blue? And it's not just that. Theo is the best accountant in the company. He's been with them for five years now. Why would they just fire him without so much as an explanation? It doesn't add up.
"Me neither." There's a wet crack in his voice. "It feels like a nightmare and I'll wake up from it soon. That's why I couldn't tell you. Because I still can't believe it myself."
My vision gets blurry with tears and I let them fall. I'm hurting, more because he's hurt. Theo has been my husband and soulmate for eight years. We're connected in every way a husband and wife should be. Right now, I'm feeling every inch of his sore heart, and all I wanna do is soothe him.
He turns to look at me and the tears in his eyes jab at my heart. His leg is crossed over to the other and his hands are in his pockets.
"I'm so sorry, Giselle. I promised to give you the best in life and make sure you don't lack a thing. But right now, I don't have a job. I'm such a failure…"
"No. No, Theo, you're not."
"The facts speak for themselves, don't you think?" He adds calmly, taking a sharp breath. "I'm not gonna be selfish enough to ask you to understand and not get mad. You have every right to get mad…"
"I won't…"
"You should. You also have every right to leave me if this burden is gonna weigh you down. It's gonna break my heart to watch you go, but I'm not so selfish as to force you to stay with me in this unpleasant situation…"
"Theo, don't say that." I sob, feeling hurt by his words. "I'm not gonna leave you…"
"I wish you wouldn't. Trust me, baby. I'll do anything to make you stay. But I just lost my job. I don't know how long before I can get a good job. Things might get hard. I won't be able to give you the comfort you're used to."
"And I'll understand…"
"I don't want you to understand because you feel you're obligated to. You deserve every bit of comfort and I'm never gonna hold it against you if you choose to go get that comfort elsewhere."
I sob quietly. This conversation just took an ugly route and it's drilling painful holes in my heart. I hate that he thinks I'm ever gonna leave all because he lost his job. I hate that he thinks so low of my love for him.
"Do you want me to leave, Theo?" I ask, sniffing back my tears.
"God knows I'll do anything to make you stay." His mouth is partly open, as tears roll down his tears.
"Do you want me to leave, yes or no?" I reiterate, looking into his teary eyes.
"No." He admits in a broken tone. "I don't want you to leave, baby. But I've lost all the rights to ask you to stay."
"You have every right to ask me to stay, Theo, and I'll do that. All you have to do is ask, not push me away. It hurts when you do that."
"I'm sorry." He whispers. "I just don't know what else to say. I've never been in a situation like this before and I don't know the best way to handle it."
"I understand."
We're both silent again, but our eyes are glued on each other's. No words are said, but a million feelings are being conveyed through our stare. He's shattered and hurting. His eyes are hooded with pain. There's no way I'm ever gonna leave him. He's been my ride-or-die for eight years. I'll never give up on him just because he lost his job. And if I'm given all the in the world, without him by my side, then it's just…not complete. He's my first comfort. The only man I've been with all my life. Leaving him is impossible.
A soft knock on the door rids me of my thoughts.
"Mummy, I'm ready!" Shane yells, still knocking on the door.
"I'll be down soon, sweetie. Go wait in the sitting room!" I yell back, trying to sound as cheerful as I can.
I hear his heavy steps on the floorboard as he runs down the hallway. It's just me and Theo again.
"I'm not leaving, Theo," I tell him firmly, drying the tears stained on my face.
"But, Giselle, I –"
"I said, I'm not leaving." I snap, cutting him off. "I'm staying."
"But why?" He asks desperately. "I just lost my job and…"
"Because I love you, Theo."
"I know, but baby, love doesn't do it all. It doesn't clothe you, feed you, or give you the beauty in life. Money does, and I don't have it right now."
"But you will." I stand and walk closer to him, cupping his face. "And I'll be here to support you all the way. I'm not leaving you, Theo. For better or worse, right?"
He nods with a smile and a tear drops. "Yes. For better. For worse."
I smile too, thrilled that he looks relieved. "And besides, where am I ever gonna get a man who's gonna fuck me as good as you do?"
My little tease gets him laughing and he pulls me into a tight hug. I pat his back, shutting my eyes to feel every inch of him.
"I love you, Giselle."
"I love you more, Theo." And I meant every bit of it. I love him. More now than ever.
A MONTH LATER…GISELLEI check my phone for the thousandth time. Still no message or calls. Where could she be? I glance at the door again, wishing she'll walk right through it. I've been waiting for half an hour now. I'm getting tired.Taking another sip of my coffee, I glance at the handful of people in the cafe. Everyone has a companion. I'm the only person sitting alone at a table. I feel insecure and once again, I'm glancing at the door.Frustrated, I pick up my phone to call her. But her familiar cologne fills the air and I look up. There she is, heading towards me with an apologetic smile."I'm so sorry, Giselle. I got stuck in traffic." Tasha, my best friend, says, as she sits opposite me. She has a cup of coffee and she places it on the table. She's dressed in a three-piece suit, her typical working attire."I understand, but you should have called or texted. I got worried, you know?" I pout, relieved that she's here."I'm so sorry." She gives my hand a warm squeeze and I smi
GISELLE"Whoo-hoo!!" I let out another wild squeal, taking a chug from my glass of whiskey. The D.J. just switched to a badass beat, and I feel my insides light up. I slam the glass on the counter, laughing heartily as I pour myself another drink. I don't know why I'm laughing so hard. It has to be the booze. I've never laughed this hard. Not even when Theo says his sick jokes.I feel a deathly burn at Theo's memories and I take another chug of whiskey, to flush down the memories. I don't wanna remember him. I wanna forget. I fucking want to forget!!Another wild squeal leaves me as the D.J. changes to a rock beat. I get down from the stool, teasing my body to the beat.It's my first time alone in a nightclub. I've always been too reserved and shy to come alone. Theo and Tasha are my compulsory companions. But today, I'm alone.Today, I'm doing everything wrong. I'm drinking myself into a stupor. I'm dancing erotically to beats, and not giving a fuck who's watching or not. Tonight, I
ETHANThe blaring sound of my ringtone sends me flying off the bed and rejecting the call. I don't even check who the caller is. All I know is I didn't want the call to rudely interrupt her sleep.HER. Returning my phone to the nightstand, I turn to look at her. She's sleeping calmly, curled up next to me. The duvet is covering her lush, naked body, and I'm tempted to push it down just to get another long, good look at her. Her pert boobs are just the perfect size. Her perky ass deserves all the love in the world. Her cascading brown hair is a messy tangle, and again, I run my fingers through it, loving just how it feels in my hand.Her small rounded face is just like a little, fragile doll, and her small nose and pouty lips give off an erotic but innocent vibe. How can she be so incredibly perfect?I've met a ton of women to last a lifetime. I married one of the most curvy and sexy sophisticated women out there but she has nothing on the woman lying next to me.She's different; imp
GISELLE I quit my five jobs and began searching for one, comfortable job. Something that won't keep me out all day so I can still have time for my son. I'll forget about my unfortunate one-night stand and focus on restarting my life. This time around; for the better.As I scroll through my cellphone, I see an ad from the Hunt Cooperation which says they're in search of a secretary. I apply without wasting time and head over to the company on the day of the interview.Having made sure to be well dressed, I sure conclude I have no problem even as I step into the elevator. As it dings, I step right out of it and let my eyes scrutinize my surrounding. A gasp escapes my lips at the glamorous sight. The sparkling tiled flooring can be seen as it glisters right down my feet. Different colognes swims through the air as passerbys makes their way both in and out. Looking around and not knowing exactly where to head to, I'm sure anyone can get lost in here if he or she does not trend with caut
ETHANIf there's anything I wasn't expecting, it's that we'll ever cross paths again. The fact that she left that day still has my mind in an uproar but then it soars above an octave when she steps foot inside my office, seeking for a job. I couldn't stand it. After what transpires that night, I still can't place my finger on the reason why I shouldn't ask for her to thrown out of my company.I step foot out of my office and grabs my key from the guard on the stand. I proceed for my car and climbing behind the wheels, I ignite the car's engine and reverse. Once out of the building, I increase my speed up the tarred roam as my hands tightens against the steering wheel. Had I known this would be its repercussion, I wouldn't have had anything to do with her. It happened that when I finally decided to give another woman a chance, she disappointed me. Making me see really clearly now that they are all the same - all women are the same.I stop at the familiar restaurant that belongs to one
GISELLE I didn't expect Ethan will want to see me again. Until I received a certain letter informing me of a sudden meeting with him. I didn't want to leave the comfort of my apartment after yesterday's embarrassment but then I'll almost go nut if I don't hear him out. As I board a cab, I wonder throughout the ride why he's calling me over to a restaurant. He wants to apologize? It must be that cause he obviously won't want to discuss about work in a restaurant. Well, who knows what he may be up to. I'm still thinking of whether or not to take up Griffin's offer though. I don't want to keep wandering about the whole of NY. After all, I'm sure I won't face rejection with him. Ethan had thrown me out of his company because of that night stand with him. He didn't tell me that himself but am not dumb- I do know."We are there, Ms." I hear the driver say and I snap out of my head. Opening the car's door, I step out before handing him his pay and turning around towards the restaurant. It
GISELLE Watching Shane sound asleep beside me on the bed, my stomach gnashs as I rest my head against the headrest. The hospital bills and everything when I take me there keeps messing up with my brain.I really don't know how to deal with this.If Theo still happens to be here- My breath hangs for a while as memories of him flashes back to my mind.Damnit!Not able to help it, a streak of tear drops down to my cheeks as our intimate nights rushes back to my head like a tornado.~~~Our kiss deepened when his tongue thrusts deeply inside my eagerly awaiting mouth. He tastes me as his tongue mingles with mine in a passionate dance. My body started responding to his seductive caresses and actions. He changes the angle of our kiss a couple of times, each time deepening our kiss. He was such a good kisser and I find myself wanting even more of him. His hand slide down from my waist to caress the side of my hip before stroking its way down even further to my thighs.I moan into our heated
GISELLE Perhaps we were both just addicted to occasional s"x with each other. I never saw it coming. Back then, I mistook his lust for love and yeah, see where it lands me.Things looks really glamorous back them with him so it wasn't my fault for not seeing how faulty we were. Now that he's gone, his memories are still intact and that's exactly why I despise him the more. He was never really there. Being blind to see him for whom he truly is, he must have find fooling me pretty much ecstatic.All out of the blue, he's out of our life. No doubt, he could have been formulating this all the while. He must have stayed for that long simply because of our addiction- at pleasuring each other.~~~When I look around, I notice Theo sleeping comfortably as a powerful beam of the sun king hit my eye. I blink three times to remind myself that I was going delude again, that I was not lying next to him. I smack myself because it might have been another of my fantasies about him. Even with my fou