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BIANCA
The morning shift at the hospital was a blessing—twelve hours where I could lose myself in other people's problems, where my hands could heal bodies even if my own heart was breaking. I'd left before Matthew woke, left a note for Theo with his breakfast, and escaped into the only place I still felt competent.
Mrs. Michaelson needed her bandages changed. Little Marcus had finally kept down solid food after three days of stomach flu. Old Mr. Kapoor's blood pressure was stabilizing. These were problems I could solve, wounds I could actually mend.
"Dr. Morrison?" Nurse Sarah approached my station, a file in her hands. "We have a home visit request. New patient, immunocompromised, can't come to the hospital. The address is—"
I took the file without looking, already mentally preparing for the visit. Home calls were rare but not unusual, especially for patients who couldn't risk exposure to hospital germs. I gathered my supplies, checked my bag twice out of habit, and headed for my car.
It wasn't until I pulled up to the building that my stomach dropped.
The Meridian Apartments. Fifteen stories of modern luxury overlooking the park. I knew this building. I'd driven past it exactly forty-three times in the last thirteen months—yes, I'd counted—because this was where Mia lived.
My hands tightened on the steering wheel. The patient was on the ninth floor. Mia was on the same floor with this patient but they were two different people. Different worlds, really. I could do this. I was a professional. I couldn't abandon a patient just because my husband's first love happened to live in the same building.
Besides, what were the odds I'd even see her?
I forced myself out of the car, medical bag heavy in my hand, and walked through the pristine lobby. The doorman nodded at me professionally, clearly used to medical personnel coming and going. The elevator ride was smooth, silent, and I focused on my breathing, on the patient I was about to see, on anything except the fact that somewhere else, Mia was probably planning the next activity on her bucket list with my husband.
The ninth floor hallway was quiet, carpeted in that expensive way that absorbed all sound. Apartment 9C. I knocked, heard a weak "come in," and entered to find an elderly woman propped up in bed, her color poor, her breathing labored.
Mrs. Adelaide Finch. Seventy-eight years old. Stage four lymphoma. Actually dying, unlike certain other people I could name.
"Mrs. Finch," I said gently, moving to her bedside, already assessing her condition with practiced eyes. "I'm Dr. Morrison. I'm here to check on you and adjust your pain management if needed."
"Bless you for coming, dear." Her voice was thin, reedy. "The hospital's too far, and I get so tired..."
I spent the next forty minutes examining her, adjusting her medications, checking her vitals, and listening—really listening—as she talked about her late husband, her estranged daughter, the grandson she hoped would visit before... well. Before.
This was what dying looked like. This exhaustion, this fragility, this gradual dimming of light.
I was updating Mrs. Finch's chart, my hand steady and professional, when I heard voices in the hallway outside. Male voices. One of them was familiar in a way that made my entire body go rigid.
Matthew.
No. No, it couldn't be. What were the odds—
But I knew that voice. I heard it said "I do" four years ago. I'd heard it say "it's a boy" when Theo was born. I'd heard it say "Bianca's just tired" last night while I cried behind a locked door.
"Mrs. Finch," I said quietly, proud of how calm I sounded, "I need to step outside for just a moment to update your chart in private. Medical confidentiality. I'll be right back."
She nodded, already drifting off, the pain medication making her drowsy.
I moved to the door, my heart hammering, and eased it open just enough to slip through. I was pulling it closed behind me—quietly, carefully, so as not to disturb my patient—when I heard a second voice. Clearer now. Closer.
Dr. Gerald Hartwick. I recognized him immediately. One of the top specialists in rare blood disorders at County General. What was he doing here?
I froze, my hand still on Mrs. Finch's doorknob, my body half-hidden by the door frame. I should leave. I should walk away. But something—instinct, suspicion, the same feeling that had made me question Mia's diagnosis from the beginning—kept me rooted in place.
"—grateful you came to the apartment, Dr. Hartwick," Matthew was saying. They were walking toward the elevator, their backs to me. "Mia's been so worried about the test results. About what comes next."
"I understand your concern, Alpha Morrison." Dr. Hartwick's voice was professional, careful. "But as I explained, the diagnosis is quite clear. Ms. Davids has Feral Lupin Phase 2."
Feral Lupin phase 2. My medical mind immediately accessed the information. . A rare genetic blood disorder that caused progressive organ failure. It was terminal, yes, but it wasn't the death sentence Mia had been claiming. With proper treatment, patients could live for years, even decades. It was manageable, not immediately fatal.
So it was real. She did have something. But not what she'd been claiming. Not a death sentence. Not "months to live."
"But there is a treatment?" Matthew's voice was urgent, desperate in a way he'd never sounded for me. "You said on the phone there was something we could try?"
They'd stopped near the elevator, still with their backs to me. I should move. Should retreat into Mrs. Finch's apartment. Should cover my ears and preserve my ignorance.
I didn't move.
"Yes," Dr. Hartwick said slowly. "But I need to be very clear about what this treatment entails, Alpha Morrison. Feral Lupin Phase 2 can be cured—completely cured—but it requires a very specific biological component. It needs a genetic match, a willing donor, and the procedure is... complex."
"Whatever it takes. Name it. I'll pay anything—"
"It's not about money." The doctor's voice was grave now. "The cure requires sustained cellular regeneration from a compatible donor. The closest match would be a blood relative, but Ms. Davids has none living. The second-best option is a mate bond—specifically, the Luna of a powerful Alpha. The combination of Alpha blood and Luna healing abilities creates a unique cellular signature that can reverse the damage Feral Lupin Phase 2 causes."
The world tilted sideways.
"You're saying Bianca could cure her," Matthew said, and I heard something in his voice—hope, determination, that tone he used when he'd made up his mind about something and nothing would change it.
"Potentially, yes. Your mate's healing abilities combined with your Alpha blood bond could provide the necessary cellular regeneration. But Alpha Morrison, I need to stress something crucial—this treatment is extremely dangerous for the donor. It requires sustained, intensive healing sessions over months. It would drain your mate's abilities, potentially permanently. And there's a significant risk of—"
"How significant?" Matthew interrupted.
"Twenty to thirty percent chance of the donor developing severe complications. Organ failure, neurological damage, loss of healing abilities, even death in extreme cases. The Luna would essentially be transferring her life force to cure Ms. Mia. It's not a simple procedure. It's a sacrifice."
Silence.
I pressed my back against the wall, my medical bag sliding from my numb fingers to land silently on the carpet. This was it. This was the truth I'd been circling for thirteen months. Mia wasn't dying immediately, but she was sick. And the cure required me to risk my life to save her.
"When can we start?" Matthew asked.
My heart stopped.
Chapter 261CALI looked at Theo. He was watching this exchange with the kind of careful attention I'd come to recognize in him over the past weeks — the attention of a kid who'd learned, the hard way, that adults lie to children for reasons they think are good, and that the only defense against it was paying very close attention to everything, all the time, so nothing got past him twice."You believe her?" I asked Theo directly, because that mattered more to me right now than whether I believed her.Theo didn't answer right away. "I don't know," he said finally. "I saw a room. There were tables in it. There was a face on one of them that looked like hers." A pause. "She didn't tell me I was wrong about that. She just told me the other thing was true. About leaving on purpose."That was, I thought, a strange thing for a liar to admit to a frightened kid, if she was lying. A liar trying to win him over fast would have denied the room, denied the table, smoothed it all into something co
Chapter 260CALI came up out of it the way you come up out of deep water. Slow, then all at once, lungs first, like the air had been waiting for me to ask for it.The first thing I did was check my hands. Habit, from years of jobs where waking up disoriented was a professional hazard rather than a personal one. Fingers moved. Good. Arms moved. Good. I wasn't tied down, which meant either they hadn't bothered or I hadn't been worth the trouble.The second thing I did was find Theo.He was right there. Close, against the wall, his knees pulled up, watching me with the specific stillness he got when he was working hard not to look as scared as he was. My chest did something complicated at the sight of him, relief and alarm arriving at the same time, neither one cancelling the other out."Hey," I said. My voice came out wrong, thick, like it belonged to someone else. "You okay?""You're awake," he said, like that answered something more important than my question."I'm awake." I pushed m
Chapter 259BIANCAThe dark held for three seconds, maybe four, before the lights came back.When they did, they were dimmer than before, the kind of dim that meant something in the building's wiring had taken damage and was running on whatever backup existed for a place like this. Theo hadn't moved. His question was still sitting in the room between us, unanswered, and I understood that I couldn't let the explosion be the thing that let me off the hook for it."That's a fair question," I said. "I'm not going to dodge it because the lights did something dramatic."He watched me. Waiting.I had thought, in the months since I left, about how I would answer this if I ever got the chance. I had built versions of the answer in my head the way you build versions of a speech you hope you never have to give. Most of those versions were better than the truth. Most of them gave me more credit than I deserved.I wasn't going to use any of them."I let you believe I was dead," I said. "That part
Chapter 258BIANCA"And she said that's what I am," I said. "Something built to look like her.""She didn't have to say it," Theo said. "I saw it."I let that sit a second."I'm not going to tell you what you saw wasn't real," I said. "I believe you saw exactly what you're describing. I think Voss wanted you to see it. I think she wanted you to see it right before she put me in front of you, so that whatever I said next, you'd already have decided it didn't matter."Theo's jaw moved, the specific small motion of a child working very hard not to show he was listening."That doesn't mean you are real either," he said. "It just means she's smart.""That's true," I said. "It doesn't prove anything. I know that."I didn't move closer. I kept my hands where he could see them, resting on my own knees, and I let the quiet come back in instead of chasing him with more words. He needed room more than he needed convincing. I had learned that from him months ago, through a glass door he didn't
Chapter 257BIANCATheo was on the floor.He was sitting against the wall, knees up, arms around them, and next to him, on his back, unmoving, was a man I didn't know. Dark hair. Breathing slow and even in the specific rhythm of deep sedation, the same rhythm I had just come up out of myself. This had to be Callahan. I had heard the name through walls. I had not pictured a face.Theo's eyes came up when I came through the door.I stopped where I was. I did not go to him fast. I had learned that much about him even from a distance, through months of watching pieces of his life I was not supposed to see — that fast was the wrong speed for almost everything with him."Theo," I said.He looked at me.Then he looked away. Down at the man beside him, at Callahan's chest moving, and he put his hand near the man's hand the way you'd guard something. He did not look back at me."It's me," I said. Quiet. "I'm here."Nothing."Theo."He still did not look at me, and the not-looking had a weight
Chapter 256MATTHEWThe house was dark when I pulled into the drive.Not late-dark, not the ordinary dark of a house where everyone's gone up to bed. Wrong-dark. No kitchen light. No hallway light. Cal kept lights on. He'd told me once, early on, that a lit house was a house where you could see who was in it, and he never let it go fully dark before Theo was down for the night.I sat in the car for one second too long, telling myself I was being careful rather than scared.Then I went in."Cal?"Nothing."Theo?"The silence had a texture to it. The specific silence of a house that nobody is currently in, which is different from the silence of a house where people are simply quiet.I went through it fast. Kitchen — empty, the apple core on the table, Cal's mug by the sink, untouched coffee gone cold. Living room — empty, the dinosaurs out on the floor in mid-formation, abandoned rather than finished. Upstairs — Theo's room empty, the bed made from this morning, the night-light off beca
Chapter 36BIANCADr. Palmer was in the middle of explaining my medication schedule for the third time when I finally had to interrupt."Dr. Palmer, with all due respect, I am a doctor myself. I understand the dosing instructions for anti-inflammatory medication and magical essence stabilizers."Sh
Chapter 39MATTHEW I stood in Bianca's closet like a man surveying the ruins of a life he'd destroyed, surrounded by evidence of my failures as a husband.Designer dresses hung in neat rows—the emerald silk gown I'd insisted she wear to the Alpha Summit, the champagne cocktail dress for the Winter
Chapter 41MATTHEW Mia's recovery was nothing short of a miracle. I had been checking up on her when I could, while carrying out, albeit slowly burial's preparations.By the fourth day, she was walking the halls of the recovery wing without assistance from the nurses, moving normally. By the fifth
Chapter 40MATTHEWHe dissolved into sobs, curling into a ball on his bed, and when I tried to reach for him again, he flinched away from my touch like I was poison.My own son. Flinching from me. Hating me. And I deserved every bit of it.I left his room because I couldn't stand to see his pain an







