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BIANCA POV Wearing one of Matthew's jackets over her party dress, Mia laughed at something my husband had said. "Mama!" Theo ran to me, frosting still crusted at the corners of his mouth. "Aunty Mia came home with us! She's staying over because it's her birthday and I asked if she could and Daddy said yes!" The room tilted slightly. I looked past my son to Matthew, who had the grace to look uncomfortable. "It's just for one night," he said quickly. "Theo wanted her to stay, and since it's her birthday—" "Bianca, I hope it's okay." Mia's voice was soft, apologetic, perfectly pitched. "Theo was so sweet, asking if I could stay for a sleepover, and I didn't want to disappoint him on my birthday..." I forced a smile that felt like glass cutting my face. "Of course. How could I say no to the birthday girl? Especially one who shares the same birthday as me." Matthew and Mia both froze. Only Theo, sweet and oblivious missed the meaning in my words. "Yay!" Theo jumped up and down. "Can Aunty Mia sleep in the guest room next to mine?" "We'll see, baby. It's very late. You need to get ready for bed." I kept my voice light, controlled, even as fury burned through my veins. "But Daddy said—" "Theo, listen to your mother." Matthew's voice held a warning. "Go brush your teeth. Now." Our son's face fell, but he obeyed, trudging up the stairs. "I'll just go freshen up," Mia said softly, following Theo upstairs with an ease that suggested she knew exactly where the guest bathroom was. The moment she disappeared, I turned to Matthew. "Our bedroom. Now." I closed the bedroom door behind us with deliberate calm, my hands shaking as I faced my husband. "What the hell was that?" I kept my voice low, aware that Mia was somewhere upstairs, probably listening. Matthew ran his hand through his hair. "Bianca, before you overreact, let me explain. Theo asked if Mia could stay. It's her birthday. He was so excited, and she has no family, no one to celebrate with. What was I supposed to say? It's just one night. One night. She'll be gone in the morning." "What about my birthday? I asked. Matthew froze, his hand covering his chin in helpless frustration. I continued, forcing myself to calm down. "You dismissed my birthday, and now brought her with you like it's completely normal!" "It is normal! She's my best friend, Bianca. She's dying. Our son adores her. What exactly is the problem here? He paused, his hands opened, like an unbelievable gesture, seeing nothing wrong with his behaviour. "This is about boundaries, Matthew! This is about respect! This is about the fact that you keep prioritizing her over me, over our marriage, over everything!" "I'm not prioritizing anyone! I'm trying to help someone who's dying make the most of her final months. Matthew continued, raking a hand through his hair feeling frustrated with this conversation. “I'm trying to balance all of this while you act like every kind gesture is a betrayal. Do you hear yourself? You're jealous of a dying woman." "I'm not jealous—" "Yes, you are! I thought you'd be compassionate. But instead, you're making this about you. You're asking me to choose between being a decent person and making you comfortable." Matthew's voice was hard, devoid of emotions and his gaze was cruel, like he was speaking to a stranger. “Mia is staying tonight because Theo asked. It's her birthday. She has no one else. If you can't be compassionate enough to handle one night, then that says more about you than it does about me." The words hit like physical blows. I stared at my husband, this man I'd saved, married, given a son to, and saw clearly that he would never choose me. Not over duty. Not over honor. Not over her. "Get out," I whispered. "Bianca—" "Get out of this room. Now." I yelled. He stared at me for a long moment, then turned and left. I closed the door behind him, my hand shaking on the knob. Through the wood, I heard his voice, low and apologetic. "Sorry about that. Bianca's just tired. It's been a long day." Mia's soft response was too quiet to hear, but I could imagine it—understanding, sympathetic, perfectly calibrated to make him feel justified. I pressed my back against the door and slid down to the floor. Four years of marriage. . Four years of waiting for him to see me, choose me, love me. And here I was, locked in my own bedroom while my husband comforted another woman in my hallway. I was tired. So incredibly, bone-deep tired. I buried my face in my knees and finally let myself acknowledge the truth I'd been avoiding for thirteen months. This marriage was over. It had been over the moment Mia came back into our lives. I’d just been too afraid to admit it, and too scared to drag Theo into a life as a rogue with me. But I didn’t know how much longer I could keep holding on...Chapter 261CALI looked at Theo. He was watching this exchange with the kind of careful attention I'd come to recognize in him over the past weeks — the attention of a kid who'd learned, the hard way, that adults lie to children for reasons they think are good, and that the only defense against it was paying very close attention to everything, all the time, so nothing got past him twice."You believe her?" I asked Theo directly, because that mattered more to me right now than whether I believed her.Theo didn't answer right away. "I don't know," he said finally. "I saw a room. There were tables in it. There was a face on one of them that looked like hers." A pause. "She didn't tell me I was wrong about that. She just told me the other thing was true. About leaving on purpose."That was, I thought, a strange thing for a liar to admit to a frightened kid, if she was lying. A liar trying to win him over fast would have denied the room, denied the table, smoothed it all into something co
Chapter 260CALI came up out of it the way you come up out of deep water. Slow, then all at once, lungs first, like the air had been waiting for me to ask for it.The first thing I did was check my hands. Habit, from years of jobs where waking up disoriented was a professional hazard rather than a personal one. Fingers moved. Good. Arms moved. Good. I wasn't tied down, which meant either they hadn't bothered or I hadn't been worth the trouble.The second thing I did was find Theo.He was right there. Close, against the wall, his knees pulled up, watching me with the specific stillness he got when he was working hard not to look as scared as he was. My chest did something complicated at the sight of him, relief and alarm arriving at the same time, neither one cancelling the other out."Hey," I said. My voice came out wrong, thick, like it belonged to someone else. "You okay?""You're awake," he said, like that answered something more important than my question."I'm awake." I pushed m
Chapter 259BIANCAThe dark held for three seconds, maybe four, before the lights came back.When they did, they were dimmer than before, the kind of dim that meant something in the building's wiring had taken damage and was running on whatever backup existed for a place like this. Theo hadn't moved. His question was still sitting in the room between us, unanswered, and I understood that I couldn't let the explosion be the thing that let me off the hook for it."That's a fair question," I said. "I'm not going to dodge it because the lights did something dramatic."He watched me. Waiting.I had thought, in the months since I left, about how I would answer this if I ever got the chance. I had built versions of the answer in my head the way you build versions of a speech you hope you never have to give. Most of those versions were better than the truth. Most of them gave me more credit than I deserved.I wasn't going to use any of them."I let you believe I was dead," I said. "That part
Chapter 258BIANCA"And she said that's what I am," I said. "Something built to look like her.""She didn't have to say it," Theo said. "I saw it."I let that sit a second."I'm not going to tell you what you saw wasn't real," I said. "I believe you saw exactly what you're describing. I think Voss wanted you to see it. I think she wanted you to see it right before she put me in front of you, so that whatever I said next, you'd already have decided it didn't matter."Theo's jaw moved, the specific small motion of a child working very hard not to show he was listening."That doesn't mean you are real either," he said. "It just means she's smart.""That's true," I said. "It doesn't prove anything. I know that."I didn't move closer. I kept my hands where he could see them, resting on my own knees, and I let the quiet come back in instead of chasing him with more words. He needed room more than he needed convincing. I had learned that from him months ago, through a glass door he didn't
Chapter 257BIANCATheo was on the floor.He was sitting against the wall, knees up, arms around them, and next to him, on his back, unmoving, was a man I didn't know. Dark hair. Breathing slow and even in the specific rhythm of deep sedation, the same rhythm I had just come up out of myself. This had to be Callahan. I had heard the name through walls. I had not pictured a face.Theo's eyes came up when I came through the door.I stopped where I was. I did not go to him fast. I had learned that much about him even from a distance, through months of watching pieces of his life I was not supposed to see — that fast was the wrong speed for almost everything with him."Theo," I said.He looked at me.Then he looked away. Down at the man beside him, at Callahan's chest moving, and he put his hand near the man's hand the way you'd guard something. He did not look back at me."It's me," I said. Quiet. "I'm here."Nothing."Theo."He still did not look at me, and the not-looking had a weight
Chapter 256MATTHEWThe house was dark when I pulled into the drive.Not late-dark, not the ordinary dark of a house where everyone's gone up to bed. Wrong-dark. No kitchen light. No hallway light. Cal kept lights on. He'd told me once, early on, that a lit house was a house where you could see who was in it, and he never let it go fully dark before Theo was down for the night.I sat in the car for one second too long, telling myself I was being careful rather than scared.Then I went in."Cal?"Nothing."Theo?"The silence had a texture to it. The specific silence of a house that nobody is currently in, which is different from the silence of a house where people are simply quiet.I went through it fast. Kitchen — empty, the apple core on the table, Cal's mug by the sink, untouched coffee gone cold. Living room — empty, the dinosaurs out on the floor in mid-formation, abandoned rather than finished. Upstairs — Theo's room empty, the bed made from this morning, the night-light off beca
Chapter 34BIANCAI woke to the sound of machines beeping steadily, Every breath took effort, and my chest ached with a deep, bone-weary exhaustion that suggested I'd been fighting something or someone.My eyes cracked open slowly, the fluorescent lights above was too bright, making me shut my eye
Chapter 29BIANCA"The catch," Rivera said, leaning back in his chair with an expression that looked gentle despite his burly apperance , "is that you owe me. Not money, all i need from you is just your commitment to saving my son. You stay in BloodMoon City, you continue treating Louis until the c
Chapter 32MATTHEW The next two days passed quickly as I was staying more hours in the hospital, in room 306, watching over Mia, making sure that there was no complications or her disease would resurface. Mia was recovering beautifully—better than anyone had dared hope. She was sitting up by the
Chapter 31 MATTHEWI paced outside the operating theatre like a caged wolf, my feet wearing a path in the sterile linoleum while my wolf prowled restlessly beneath my skin. Six hours. It has been six hours since they had been rolled in together and i was still out here waiting for news, my heart







