Complicated.

I never really saw Jake as anything other than a boss and a good lay. He has been there for me more than a few times and I guess some sort of a connection formed as a result. Annoying as he is, I know I'm able to count on him. Now especially since I don't really have anyone else in my life. Luke and I still haven't reached that point yet and who even knows where Katie is? Maybe what formed was some sort of a friendship, a friendship with some added benefits. But why is my heart heavy when he tells me he's seeing someone? Why don't I hug and congratulate him instead of just saying, "Oh"?

"Yea," he replies simply to me and we just stand there awkwardly for a while. I think he feels it too, the heaviness. He looks like he wants to apologize to me but also, he looks like he wants to tell me he doesn't owe me an explanation. Which he doesn't. We're not anything to each other.

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