Chapter 5
I remembered to look at my cell phone to see if Brian had called me but no call, I guess the party must have been great for him to forget to call his girlfriend, after he tried to congratulate me 20 times by calling but no answer.
"I'm not going to think nonsense! I said in my mind."
I went to get ready for school and my father was taking his wife just as I went downstairs to prepare my coffee. He saw me, got all upset and I said nothing, I was so upset with Brian that I wasn't going to waste my time fighting with my brazen father.
Before I went to school I sent two more messages to Brian in the hope that he would answer, but to no avail, something was happening, especially with our love that in a few weeks was already changing completely. My friends told me that this was going to change, but I realize that it changed very fast. I could barely concentrate in class today and everyone was sweating because it was clear that now that he was 18 he would want to enjoy life and not get stuck with a girl who lives on the other side of the world. Who would put up with dating like that? I was feeling very bad about this, but I would never see myself suffer for Brian.
"Hum, by the look on your face you are suffering for love! - said Lais to Ana.
"No, you're filling my bag, please go to all the shit I'm sacking. - Leave her alone, Laissez has a cuckold's pain!
- I hate those girls!
I was so sad and stressed by the jokes that I asked my father to come and pick me up, I couldn't afford to go to the school bus with these girls talking a lot of nonsense in my ears. There is a possibility that they are true, so I will wait for Brian to call me to find out what happened and if we are still dating. My father, from the look on my face, realized that something was wrong and even tried to talk to me, but I preferred to keep quiet and try to understand what was going on.
- Are you sure you don't want to talk, daughter? - Thanks, Dad, but no more!
I really didn't want to talk, I don't know what was going on, but the love that Brian felt for me was not the same. Then I looked at his social networks to see if there was anything and I was even sadder, there were pictures of him with another girl and to my understanding they were very close. That had to be his reason for ignoring me completely, he was already with someone so fast that he didn't even have the conscience to tell me. In the midst of crying and sobbing, I couldn't believe my eyes: he had cheated on me and didn't even care what people would think. After all, he was already 18 years old and I would still be 16. There was a long way to go and it would be obvious that he wouldn't be able to wait for me to live. He decided to do it without me.
After several times my father called me to dinner, but I was so sad and disappointed with what I saw that I didn't even want to come down to eat. But it was no use, he came to me and saw me crying a lot and didn't know what was going on and certainly called Mom, because in a few minutes my phone sounded like an ambulance siren.
"Mom, what do you want? You're calling me like a crazy person! - Ana, I'm asking you what's going on, because your father called me and said he was in tears?
"If you really wanted to know, you would be here, but you are always traveling and leaving me last. After all, I don't understand why you didn't take me with you? - Ana, I am studying to guarantee you a better future, here I am without any comfort!"
"You know what, Mom? I'm tired of your excuses for not staying with me, you left me here with my father who only brings a different woman every day and who fucks her everywhere without respect, and you only talk to me once a month and that's it!"
"And what? Your father is doing this?"
I hung up the phone in my mother's face and didn't even want to hear her unfeeling attitudes toward me anymore. I took my bike and went to the edge of the lake where I always spent the afternoon with Brian. How much I missed him and now I was trying to find a way out of this feeling for him that was stronger than everything else but I couldn't. I couldn't do it.
"Did you know that you were here, my friend? - Lais, if you're going to talk nonsense, then leave me here! - Ana, I told you that this love of yours was temporary, but you thought I wanted your boyfriend, right?
"Laisse so far he hasn't even answered my messages and you can't even say that he didn't see them because he viewed them! " Wow, he was too fast and has already found someone else, I'm sorry.
I stayed a few hours talking to her and calmed down, but it was getting late and we had to go back. I had left my phone at home and there were many messages from my mother and my father's face was not good at all, at least they had had a fight. And to my surprise and happiness Brian finally spoke to me without much to say, he just said that he would be here again next weekend and that he missed me.
He didn't say anything else, other than that, I was even happy but a little puzzled because he didn't tell me about his party and anything that happened. I was sure that Brian was hiding something from me, he just didn't want to talk to me over the phone, that's all. I didn't play hard to get either, I didn't answer so that he would know that I didn't like anything he did behind my back and if he really had been cheating on me it was good to get it over with because I didn't want to be a circus act for anyone.
I spent the week pretending not to know that he was coming and because of my contempt Brian felt that I was changing too. Of course, I was still in love with him, but I wasn't going to suffer the way I had before. My mother's words, when she says that love is treacherous and worse, are always right.
To pretend that love will be eternal is pure lie, now I see that I was being and completely blind in thinking that Brian was really going to stay with me forever. I was going to suffer if he wanted to break up with me, but I was going to learn that men can't be trusted even for free because they are already like that and that will never change. I see from my father that every day he is with a different girl, there are things that we are thankful to get rid of, and I bet my mother really got rid of a terrible man who calls himself my father.
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