Torture

Lea's POV

Phill was right.

Jake needed to know about the child but deep down I knew exactly what he would be doing.

I knew the exact challenge that he was facing.

I didn't tell Phill what Rosa had shared when she visited.

Jake's agency had already given him the choice - relationship, scandals or a high flying career that had already taken off.

I had seen Jake's hesitation when he had received the call from his manager.

I didn't want to pester him and he had decided to not talk about it at all.

I wanted Jake to know about the child. Of course I did.

Why the hell would I not?

But I didn't want him to regret the child later on in his life. I want Jake to know about him when he is ready.

I told myself that I would raise the child well. I told myself that I was strong enough. I told myself that I was only giving ourselves some time. I was giving Jake the time to concentrate and focus on himself.

Even though I had explicitly written in the letter that I left