LOGINI’m still in bed when Jeremy comes back three hours later, propped up against the pillows, the plate of toast and scrambled eggs he made me eat sitting empty on the nightstand.
“It’s done,” he says, holding up my phone. “Everything’s wiped. I had him do a full factory reset and reinstall everything fresh. If there was a tracker on there, it’s gone now.” He hands it to me and I turn it on, watching the screen light up. The loading screen feels like it takes forever, that little spinning circle mocking me while I wait to see just how many messages are waiting. Thirty-two missed calls. Forty-seven text messages. Eight voicemails. All from Ryan except for the one from Reina. I scroll through Ryan’s messages without opening them, just reading the preview text that shows up on the lock screen. “Where are you” “Answer your phone” “This isn’t funny Camille” “I know you’re ignoring me” “We need to talk” They get progressively angrier as I scroll down, his carefully controlled mask slipping with each one until the last few are just strings of accusations. “You think you can just disappear?” “This isn’t over” “You’re a terrible liar” “Why do this ..????” My finger hovers over the delete button but I don’t press it because some part of me thinks I might need these later, might need proof of what he’s really like when he doesn’t get his way. Jeremy’s watching me but not saying anything, giving me space to process whatever I need to process. I read the one from Reina. “Where have you been? Your phone’s been off for hours. Ryan’s freaking out. Are you okay?” I stare at her message and something cold settles in my stomach. “You don’t have to respond right now,” Jeremy says, watching my face. “She’s going to ask questions.” “Let her.” Before I can decide what to do, the phone starts ringing in my hand. Reina’s name on the screen. I answer before I can talk myself out of it. “Oh my god, Camille, where have you been?” Reina’s voice comes through frantic. “I’ve been trying to reach you for hours.” “My phone died. I’m fine.” “Are you sure? Ryan called me, he said he went to some guy Jeremy’s place looking for you and—” “I don’t want to talk about Ryan,” I cut her off. Silence on the other end for a beat. “Okay,” Reina says slowly, carefully. “Okay, we don’t have to talk about Ryan. Just tell me—are you safe? Where are you staying?” I glance at Jeremy, who’s pretending not to listen but obviously is. “I’m safe. I’m staying with a friend.” “What friend? Camille, you’re scaring me. What’s going on?” “It’s someone from before. You don’t know them.” “Then give me an address. I’ll come to you. We can talk in person.” “No. I just—I need space right now.” Long silence. Then her voice, quieter: “Is there something you aren’t telling me?” My breath stops. “Camille, talk to me ” “I have to go. I’ll call you when I have time.” I hang up before she can say anything else and I set the phone down on the bed beside me, suddenly exhausted despite having done nothing but lie here all day. Jeremy sits down in the chair again. “She knows something’s wrong,” I say. He sighs “She’s going to tell Ryan.” “Maybe. But Ryan can’t track you anymore. And he doesn’t know where you are.” “He’ll find out eventually. He always does.” Jeremy doesn’t argue with that because we both know it’s true. My phone buzzes again and I almost don’t look, almost just turn it off and throw it across the room, but something makes me check. A message from the hospital. Reminder: Follow-up appointment scheduled for Thursday 2pm. Please bring partner to discuss test results and prenatal care plan. My hands start shaking before I even finish reading it. Jeremy notices immediately. “What is it?” I show him the message without saying anything. He scrolls down and I watch his face change, brow furrowing. “What?” I ask. He looks up at me and there’s something in his eyes I can’t read. “It says they need to discuss test results. What test results?” And just like that, everything goes cold “I don’t know,” I say, but my voice sounds wrong. “She just said there were things we needed to talk about. With the father. I thought she meant about prenatal care or—” “Cam.” Jeremy’s voice has gone very quiet. “This is not normal, What if something’s actually wrong?” The question catches me mid-breath and suddenly I can’t breathe again. “We don’t know that,” I say, but I’m trying to convince myself as much as him. “It could be routine. It could be nothing.” “Or it could be something.” We stare at each other and the weight of everything unsaid presses down so heavy I think I might break under it. My phone buzzes one more time. Another message from the hospital. I didn’t pay attention to it. “You have to go,” Jeremy says. “To that appointment. You have to find out what they need to tell you.” “I don’t know if I can—” “Can’t they see you without a partner there?” He cuts in “They can,” I say slowly. “But only if—” I stop because I don’t know how to finish that sentence, don’t know if I can actually ask him what I’m about to ask him. Jeremy’s looking at me with those questioning eyes. “If what?” My thoughts spirals. This is insane. I know it’s insane even as I’m about to say it out loud but I don’t have another option. I can’t go to that appointment alone, can’t hear whatever test results they need to discuss without someone there to help me process it. Jeremy’s still looking at me, patient, waiting for me to finish the sentence I started. “They won’t see me alone,” I say, the words coming out slow and careful. “Or if they do, they won’t tell me everything. Mrs. Kimberly said they need to discuss things with both parents. It’s policy or protocol or something. And I can’t—I can’t bring Ryan. I can’t let him know about any of this.” “So what are you saying?” I meet his eyes and hope he can see how desperate I am, how much It hurts that I have to ask this. “I’m saying the only way I can go to that appointment and find out what’s wrong is if someone comes with me.” Understanding dawns across his face and he sits back slightly, processing. “Cam—” I take a breath. “I know what I’m asking. I know it’s not fair and I know it’s a lot and if you can’t do it I understand,” I pause “But this can only work if you claim to be the father.”“Camille.” Her voice comes through sharp and brittle like broken glass. “Mom, I can explain— there are some things we need to talk about. Things I need to tell you.”“Well I’m listening, Camille. What is it?”I open my mouth but the words stick in my throat.How do I tell her about the pregnancy over the phone?“I just—I need you to understand why I did what I did. It wasn’t some silly fight or me being dramatic. He was—”“Ryan’s mother called me this afternoon,” Mom cuts me off, her voice cooling. “She told me you’re planning to leave him. She said there are some things you need to clarify. What’s going on?”“I already left him, Mom. It’s been over a month. I gave back the ring.”There’s a pause and I hear her inhale sharply.“You gave back a three-carat diamond? Camille, do you have any idea what that ring cost? What kind of message that sends to his family?”“I don’t care what message it se
Jeremy sets his brush down so fast it rolls off the palette and onto the drop cloth.He’s across the room before I can blink, his socked feet sliding slightly on the hardwood, and then he’s on his knees beside the couch with his hands hovering near me like he wants to touch but isn’t sure if he should.“Where?” he asks. “Where did you feel it?”I move one hand lower, pressing against the spot where I think the movement came from. “Here, I think. It’s hard to tell, it’s so—”It happens again right as I’m trying to explain it and my eyes fly wide. “Oh my god. There. It did it again.”Jeremy’s staring at my stomach like if he concentrates hard enough he’ll be able to see through the layers of clothing and skin to watch the baby moving inside.“Can you feel it from the outside?” he asks, his voice tight with barely contained excitement.“I don’t know, I’ve never—I don’t know how this works.”Without thinking, withou
A few days pass and nothing catastrophic happens.No more anonymous texts lighting up my phone in the middle of the night.No more stories about Ryan drunk and breaking things at expensive restaurants.Just quiet, ordinary days where I try to push thoughts of him into a box in the back of my mind and pretend everything is fine.It doesn’t always work.Sometimes I’m washing dishes and my hands go still under the running water because I remember the way Ryan grabbed my wrist at the café.Sometimes I’m folding laundry and I catch myself checking the windows, making sure the locks are turned, listening for footsteps in the hallway that sound too familiar.But mostly I can go hours without thinking about him, can focus on the small ordinary things like what to make for dinner or whether I should finally finish the book I’ve been reading for two weeks.Jeremy helps without even meaning to, just by being here, by filli
I nod against his shoulder. “I used to think Ryan was the best guy I knew,” he says, staring straight ahead at the dark apartment. “Loyal and driven and fun to be around. The kind of friend you could count on for anything, the kind of guy who’d have your back no matter what.” He pauses and I wait, not wanting to interrupt whatever he’s working himself up to saying. “But then I met you,” Jeremy continues, and his voice gets quieter, more careful. “And I started seeing things I didn’t want to see. The way he talked about you when you weren’t in the room, like you were a possession he’d acquired. A trophy he’d won. Something he owned instead of someone he loved.” My chest gets tight and I have to force air through my lungs. “Why didn’t you say anything?” I ask. “Because I told myself it wasn’t my place,” Jeremy says, and I can hear regret th
The next morning I find Jeremy in the kitchen making coffee and the smell of it turns my stomach but I force myself to walk in anyway.He looks up when he hears me and whatever he sees on my face makes him set the coffee pot down immediately.“What happened?”I unlock my phone and hold it out to him without saying anything, my fingers tight around the case.He takes it and I watch his face change as he reads the text from the unknown number, watch the way his mouth goes flat and his eyes go cold reading the message.“That’s not Ryan’s number,” Jeremy says, and his voice is tight.“I know.” I wrap my arms around myself. “He’s using a burner or something. A number I won’t recognize so I’ll answer thinking it’s someone else.”Jeremy hands my phone back to me and holds out his hand again. “Give it here.”“What are you going to do?”“I’m blocking it,” he says, and there’s steel in his voice that I’ve never h
I watch Ryan stare at the velvet box sitting between us on the table and I wait for guilt to hit me, wait to feel bad about hurting him, but there’s nothing.Just relief.Relief that I don’t have to carry this ring around anymore, don’t have to hide it from Jeremy, and don't have to pretend it means something when it stopped meaning anything months ago.Ryan’s hand trembles slightly when he reaches for it and he opens the box, looks at the diamond catching the café lights, and I can see him trying to process this, trying to understand how we got here.“I bought this with my first bonus,” he says quietly, and his voice sounds hollow. “Spent three months’ salary on it because I wanted it to be perfect. Wanted you to show it off to your friends.”“I know,” I say.“And you’re just giving it back? Just like that?”“Just like that.”His hand closes around the ring box and his knuckles go white.“I don’t want
I’m on the phone with Reina telling her about the new bookstore that opened downtown when Doctor Kent walks in carrying a manila folder.“Hey, the doctor just walked in,” I say into the phone. “Let me call you back.”“Okay babe, let me know what she says,” Reina says, and I can hear traffic in the
I wake up to the feeling of something cool pressed against my forehead and for a second I don’t know where I am, I don't remember how I got here.The ceiling above me isn’t mine.Neither is the bed.I try to sit up and a hand gently pushes me back down.“Easy,” Jeremy’s voice says from somewhere cl
Jeremy’s standing in the hallway watching me and the second he sees my face his whole expression shifts, concern replacing everything else.“Cam—”“Tracker,” I cut him off, and my voice sounds strange in my own ears, too high and unsteady. “What tracker was he talking about? How does he know where
“Jer! I know you’re home, open up!”Ryan’s fist hammers against the door and the sound tears through the apartment, sharp and demanding.He’s here.Actually here, on the other side of that door, and I don’t understand how this is possible.I didn’t tell anyone I was coming to Jeremy’s—not my parent







