LOGIN“Jer! I know you’re home, open up!”
Ryan’s fist hammers against the door and the sound tears through the apartment, sharp and demanding. He’s here. Actually here, on the other side of that door, and I don’t understand how this is possible. I didn’t tell anyone I was coming to Jeremy’s—not my parents, not even Reina. The only person who knew I was going to the clinic was Reina, and I never mentioned Jeremy’s name. So how does he know? Jeremy’s already moving toward the door and panic floods through me so fast I don’t think, just react, grabbing his arm and digging my fingers into his sleeve hard enough that he stops. “Wait.” I say, pulling him back. “Please, wait.” He turns to look at me and I can see the confusion spreading across his face, his eyebrows pulling together. “What’s wrong?” “He can’t know I’m here,” I say, keeping my voice low even though Ryan’s still pounding on the door. “Please, Jeremy. Don’t tell him I’m here.” “Cam, I don’t understand, why would—” “Please.” My voice cracks and I hate how desperate I sound but I can’t stop myself. “I’m begging you. Just—don’t tell him. Don’t let him know I’m here.” “JER!” More pounding, violent enough that I’m surprised the door doesn’t splinter. “Come on, man, I know you’re in there!” Jeremy’s looking at me like he’s trying to solve a puzzle, his eyes searching my face, and I can see the war happening behind them—loyalty to his best friend versus whatever he’s reading in my expression right now. “Jeremy, please,” I whisper, and my fingers are still gripping his arm so tight I’m probably leaving marks. “I didn’t tell anyone I was coming here. Not my parents, not Reina, nobody. So if he knows I’m here, if he somehow knows—” I watch it click into place. His eyes widen slightly and his whole face changes, jaw tightening, and suddenly he’s not looking confused anymore. He’s looking angry. “Turn off your phone,” he says, voice dropping to a whisper. “Right now.” “What? Why would I need to—” “Cam, just trust me on this. Turn it completely off. Not silent, off.” My hands shake as I pull my phone from my pocket and hold down the power button, watching the screen go dark. “Good. Now come with me.” He grabs my duffel bag with one hand and my wrist with the other, pulling me down the hallway so fast I almost trip, shoving open his bedroom door and pointing toward the closet. “Get in there. Don’t make a sound no matter what you hear, understand? I’ll handle this.” “Jeremy—” “Please, Cam. Just trust me.” I slip into the closet and he closes the door, leaving just enough of a gap that I can breathe, and through the crack I watch him take a breath, roll his shoulders back like he’s preparing for something, then walk back toward the front door. I hear it open. “Took you long enough,” Ryan’s voice says, and it’s so close now, inside the apartment. “Where is she?” “Good to see you too, man,” Jeremy says, and he sounds so calm, so normal, like Ryan didn’t just pound on his door hard enough to wake the entire building. “What are you talking about?” “Don’t play stupid with me, Jer. Camille. I know she’s here.” My heart is slamming so hard against my ribs I’m convinced they can hear it from the other room, convinced every beat is giving me away. “She was here,” Jeremy says after a pause that lasts just long enough to sound believable. “Stopped by maybe five, ten minutes ago. But she didn’t stay.” “Where’d she go?” “Didn’t say. Seemed upset about something, wouldn’t really talk to me. Just grabbed some stuff she’d left here a while back and took off again.” “You’re lying to me.” “I’m not. You want to search the place? Be my guest.” I hear footsteps-heavy boots on hardwood, the kind of deliberate stride that says Ryan’s looking for something and I press myself back against the wall of the closet, trying to make myself smaller, trying not to breathe too loud. The footsteps get closer and stop right outside the bedroom. “The tracker said she was here,” Ryan says, and his voice is coming from maybe ten feet away now, just on the other side of the closet door. “Her phone pinged at this exact address fifteen minutes ago.” Tracker. The word hits harder than it should. He’s been tracking my phone. How long has he been tracking my phone? “Well maybe her phone’s not far from here then,” Jeremy offers, and I can hear him moving closer too, probably following Ryan into the bedroom. “She could’ve dropped it somewhere by accident.” I hold my breath as footsteps move around the room—I can see shadows shifting through the crack in the closet door, can see Ryan’s silhouette as he walks past. He stops. Right in front of the closet. I watch his hand reach toward the closet door handle and my entire body goes rigid, every muscle locking up because this is it, he’s going to open it, he’s going to find me, and I don’t know what happens after that but I know it won’t be good. His fingers wrap around the handle. “Ryan,” Jeremy’s voice cuts in sharp, and I hear him move closer. “Man, I already told you she’s not here. You really think I’d lie to you?” Ryan’s hand pauses on the handle but doesn’t let go. “Then you won’t mind if I look.” “Actually, I do mind. This is my bedroom and my closet and I’m telling you there’s nothing in there except my clothes and some shit I need to donate. You want to search the place? Fine. Search the living room, search the kitchen, hell, check under the couch if it makes you feel better. But I’m not letting you tear through my personal stuff like I’m some kind of suspect.” The silence stretches so long I think I might pass out from holding my breath. Then Ryan’s hand drops from the handle. “If she comes back here,” Ryan says, hand dropping back to his side as he turns away, “you call me immediately. You understand?” Relief crashes through me so violently I nearly gasp. “What’s going on, Ryan?” Jeremy asks, and there’s an edge to his voice now. “You disappear for three months without a word to anyone, and now you show up at my door in the middle of the day looking for your fiancée like you’re hunting her down. What happened?” Silence stretches between them and I can feel the tension even from inside the closet. “That’s none of your concern,” Ryan finally says, voice flat and cold. “Just call me if you see her.” “Sure, man. Whatever you need.” More footsteps, moving toward the front door this time. The door opens. Closes. I count to ten, then twenty, barely breathing, waiting to make sure he’s actually gone. “He’s gone,” Jeremy calls out, voice carrying down the hall. I shove the closet door open and stumble out, my legs shaking so badly I have to grab onto the doorframe to keep from falling.The next morning we’re sitting in the waiting room at the hospital and my leg won’t stop bouncing, knee jumping up and down in this nervous tic I can’t control.Jeremy reaches over and rests his hand on my knee, gentle pressure that stills the movement.“Breathe,” he says quietly.“I’m breathing.”“You’re holding your breath. I can tell.”I let out the air I was holding and he squeezes my knee once before pulling his hand back.When they call my name we both stand and follow the nurse back to the exam room.Doctor Kent is already there, pulling up my file on her computer. “Camille, good to see you again. And Jeremy, right?”“Yeah,” he says, taking the chair beside the exam table.“Alright, let’s take a look at this baby.”She has me lie back and lifts my shirt, squirting the cold gel on my stomach that makes me flinch.Then she presses the ultrasound wand against my skin and the monitor flickers to life.For a few seconds there’s just static and blurry shapes and my heart is in my thr
I’m off the bed before I even realize I’m moving, phone clutched in my hand, every beat of my heart feels loud in my ears.Jeremy’s asleep on the couch and I need to show him this, need him to see what I just found, but I freeze halfway across the living room because waking him up feels selfish when he barely gets enough sleep as it is.I’m turning to go back to the bedroom when I hear the couch creak.“Cam?” His voice is rough, groggy. “What’s wrong?”“Nothing, I’m sorry, go back to sleep.”“You’re a terrible liar.” He sits up, rubbing his eyes. “What happened?”I hesitate, then walk over and sink down onto the couch beside him, holding out my phone.“Look at this. The photo from eight months ago. In the background.”He takes the phone and squints at the screen, zooming in on the image, and I watch his expression change as he spots what I’m talking about.“That’s Ryan,” he says quietly.“Sasha knows him. They’ve been to parties together. Which means—”“Which means she might recognize
At the far end of the aisle, looking at granola bars with a guy I don’t recognize, is Sasha.She hasn’t seen us yet but my whole body goes tense anyway.“What’s wrong?” Jeremy asks, following my line of sight.“Sasha’s here.”His expression shifts, becomes more alert.“Do you want to leave? We can come back another time.”Before I can answer, Sasha turns and her eyes land on us and her whole face lights up.“J! Hey!”She walks over with the guy trailing a few steps behind, and I force myself to smile even though every muscle in my body is screaming at me to run.“Fancy running into you here,” she says, then her gaze shifts to me. “Oh. Hey. You’re staying at J’s place, right?”“Yeah. Hi.”The guy with her is looking between us with mild curiosity but doesn’t say anything.Sasha’s eyes drop to our grocery cart and I watch her take inventory—the three jars of pickles, the ginger tea I grabbed without thinking, the crackers that are supposed to help with nausea.I notice her face tighten,
Weeks pass and we fall into something that feels almost like a routine.Mornings start the same way—I wake up to the smell of coffee brewing and wander out to find Jeremy already up, standing at the stove with two mugs waiting on the counter.He makes mine first, oat milk and honey measured out with the kind of carefulness that suggests he’s done this enough times now to have it memorized no matter how many times I complain, then pours his own black and hands me the one with the lighter color.“Morning,” he says, voice still rough with sleep.“Hey, morning.”We don’t talk much in those first few minutes, just exist in the same space while the caffeine kicks in and the day starts to feel real.I’ve shifted to working remotely—the bookstore manager was surprisingly understanding when I explained I needed to process online orders from home for a while, and it means I can stay in the apartment instead of being on my feet all day.Jeremy paints in the corner by the window, easel set up whe
I really think about it.“I always felt responsible for my sister,” I say finally. “Iris. She's four years younger and our parents were always so busy with work that I ended up being the one who made sure she ate dinner and did her homework and got to school on time. And I resented it sometimes, being the one who had to be responsible when I was still just a kid myself. But I never told anyone that because it felt like admitting I was a bad sister.”Jeremy’s quiet for a moment, processing.“That doesn’t make you a bad sister. That makes you human.”“Maybe. I still feel guilty about it though.”“What about now? Are you two close?” He asks“We are. But she’s at college now, and I don’t want to burden her with everything that’s going on. She’s got her own life to figure out.”“Does she know about Ryan?”“No. Nobody does except you and Reina and yeah-his mom. And I want to keep it that way for now. Iris would drop everything to help me if she knew, and I can’t let her do that. She needs
Back at the apartment I make it as far as the couch before my legs give out and I sink into the cushions, every bit of energy I had completely drained.The meeting with Patricia replays in my head on a loop—her cold eyes, her dismissive tone, the way she said that baby ties you to my son forever like it was a life sentence.Maybe it is.Jeremy disappears into the kitchen without saying anything and I hear the familiar sounds of him moving around—cabinet opening, water running, the click of the stove.A few minutes later he comes back with a mug and sets it on the coffee table in front of me.“Rooibos,” he says, settling onto the opposite end of the couch. “Same as before.”I pick it up and wrap both hands around it, letting the warmth seep into my palms.“Thank you.”He just nods and we sit there in silence, him with his elbows resting on his knees and me curled into the corner of the couch with the mug pressed against my chest.The quiet stretches but it’s not uncomfortable, just hea







