Chapter 1

When I opened my eyes, Dante was holding my hand so tightly his knuckles had gone white. “Ivy, look at me.” He bent over the bed, his voice rough. “Does anything hurt? Are you still dizzy?”

I remembered leaving the maternity ward and catching the stairwell railing before my knees gave out. After that, nothing.

His jacket hung open, his tie crooked. A look from this man could silence every tough guy on the Boston docks. Now he barely seemed to trust himself to touch my face.

“They said you were dehydrated. Your blood pressure tanked.” He pressed my fingers to his mouth, his eyes searching mine. “I called seventeen times. Seventeen, Ivy. Don’t scare me like that.”

His phone lit up with the family lawyer’s name. He switched it off. “Nobody else matters tonight.”

My fingers went cold in his. Two hours ago, he might have said the same thing to another woman.

“What about Montreal?”

“Someone else is handling it.” He stroked the hand with the IV. “You think I’d leave you here over a contract?”

A pink thread clung to his cuff. I’d seen that color upstairs, wrapped around his daughter.

I shut my eyes and slid my free hand over my stomach. The results were still in my bag.

I’d booked the appointment myself; only my doctor knew about the pregnancy.

I’d planned to tuck a recording of the heartbeat into his anniversary present, then sit beside him while he listened and waited to understand what I’d given him.

Now I wanted to keep our baby a secret.

“Baby?” His thumb brushed beneath my eye. “Did the doctor tell you something? Talk to me.”

When they’d warned I might never conceive, he’d sat outside the exam room with me until morning.

We could get dogs, he’d said, or travel. We didn’t need a baby. At every follow-up, his first question was whether I was in pain.

Today, he’d held someone else’s children.

“The disinfectant’s making me sick.” I pushed myself upright as my stomach lurched.

He got me to the bathroom, gathered my hair, and wiped my mouth. He knelt on the floor in his suit pants without a second thought. “Easy. Don’t fight it. I’ve got you.”

That familiar tenderness almost broke me. I came close to asking him to give her up.

His other phone vibrated. He checked it, then unscrewed a water bottle for me. “Trouble at the warehouse. Let me take this. I’ll be right back.” He kissed the top of my head before leaving.

Three minutes later, an unknown number sent me a picture. Dante was on the sofa in her hospital room with a baby in each arm.

Celeste’s cheek rested against his shoulder. Anyone would have called it a family portrait.

[His first diaper change, and he was more careful than the nurse. Bet you’ve never seen this side of him.]

Another message followed.

[Don’t tell him I texted. He’s so protective of you. I’d rather not get chewed out right after giving birth.]

I stared until the screen went dark. She knew he’d come back and hold me. She knew how hard that would make it to leave.

I saved everything without replying.

When Dante returned, there was a damp patch on his collar. “All sorted?” I asked.

He checked my forehead. “Yeah. Just you and me now.”

I hadn’t known a lie could sound so gentle.

After my discharge the next day, I had the driver drop me at my friend Nora’s restoration studio. She looked through the messages and my test results, her face draining of color. “What are you going to do?”

“Leave Boston.”

“You don’t have to handle this alone. I’ll find a lawyer and go with you.”

I shook my head.

Last year, a supplier’s wife had tried to leave. Dante made two calls. Her landlord returned her deposit, and her attorney suddenly discovered a conflict of interest. Afterward, he’d asked why I looked upset.

Nora lowered her voice. “He won’t let you take his baby.”

“Then he can’t know either of us is alive.”

She locked the studio door and stood there for a long moment. “You’re sure? You can’t do this hoping he’ll prove how much he loves you.”

“I’ve seen enough.”

We settled on the mountain lodge I was already due to visit.

The area was being evacuated, the hillside was cracking, and the nearby fires were spreading. Nora contacted a property manager who knew the area and could arrange another way out. Dante had to believe I hadn’t made it.

Back at our brightly lit Beacon Hill townhouse, I took down our framed wedding invitation. On the back, he’d scrawled, [Every Sunday morning. Yours and mine.]

I fed it into the shredder.

Then I canceled the opera box and the yacht club membership he renewed every year. I left the platinum watch engraved with our wedding date in his study. All I packed were my documents, my mother’s sketchbook, and my test results, worn thin along the folds.

At midnight, Nora texted.

[Day after tomorrow. Leave as planned.]

I darkened the screen as the garage door opened downstairs. Dante was home. I rested my hand on my stomach and stayed where I was.