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He looked at me, his eyes filled with regret, sadness and longing. “Me, too. I feel like I don’t deserve you anymore. I hurt you. I didn’t mean to but I still hurt you after I promised that I wouldn’t. What happened there, though. That’s not me, that’s not who I am. I would never send anything that nasty intending to destroy you and especially not by text. And, I would never cheat. If you take anything from what happened tonight, please remember that. I would tell you face to face and try to end things as smoothly as possible. What she attempted tonight was just mean and cruel, which I believe were her intentions.”“I know that now and I will remember that. I hope we never have to go through something like this again. Like, I know we will have fights and arguments but hopefully, we never have to face anything like this again.”“We won’t. I won’t let anything like this happen again.”“So, where do we go from here?”“Well, for starters. Aurora Grace Butler, will you be my girlfriend aga
I grabbed a washcloth and ran cold water over it before using it to wash my face and neck. My hands were shaking and my body was almost trembling. I wanted to see him so badly and just give in, just run straight into his arms but the logical part of my brain said that wasn’t going to solve anything. We really needed to sit down and talk this out but with emotions so high right now, could we do that?I took a moment to brush my teeth and swish some mouthwash, just as a distraction and because regardless of what happened tonight, I wanted to put my best self out there. I wanted him to know that he hurt me but still seem strong enough to not need him, if that made sense at all. To me, it did but it didn’t either. I’m quickly learning that love is messy and complicated.I stepped out of the bathroom and listened intently to see if I detected any sounds in the house. The only thing I could hear was the deafening roar of silence and the beating of my heart in my ears. I softly and slowly st
I opened up to Vanessa while we were driving more details about my mother that I hadn't shared with her yet and her relationship with men and how that affected my view of sex and relationships. I also explained that I had always known that unless my choice was taken away, I would only ever give myself to someone I totally trusted, was completely in love with and that I knew loved me unconditionally, too. I told her that I thought I had that with Owen and I even told her what he did on my birthday just as we had pulled in the driveway at the house.“Shut up! Seriously! Aurora, honey. That should tell you how much he loves you. You are only like his second serious relationship. His relationship with Chloe was only serious because he was forced into it and she was serious about him, not the other way around. He never even talked about her and when he did, it wasn’t with that goofy, far away, puppy dog eyed look that he has anytime someone mentions your name. And, that someone is usually
“Honey, you have to make her walk away. She’s an unhinged bully but she was always scared of pulling any of that crap in front of me. She knows who the Alpha Female is around here and it’s not her and never will be.”“I wish I had your confidence, your fight, Vanessa. I get too emotional.”“No, your problem is that you have low self-esteem and want to think the worst about yourself. Aurora, once and for all, say this to yourself. ‘I am not my mother and I will not be blamed for her choices’ and stick to it! You are an amazing woman! Do things on your own terms and tell everyone else to go screw themselves!”“I’ve been trying to tell her that for years.” I didn’t hear Barb come up behind me but as she said that, she patted me on the back. I looked up at Barb as she asked, “Are you okay? Not trying to eavesdrop but I am hoping this conversation is about what happened earlier and is getting straightened out.”“It is and yes, thank you, Barb. I am feeling a lot better.”“If you are close
I hurried out of the back, wondering which girl Barb was referring to. Sitting in the same booth I had just cleaned was Vanessa. She gave me a sympathetic smile as I came out, one I couldn’t return and I felt myself getting emotional again.I slowly walked over. “What can I get you?”“Nothing. I’m not here to eat or drink. Can we talk?”“Did he send you?” I couldn’t even say his name.“No, not really. I came because I wanted to but he does know I am here. You deserve an explanation and right now, I don’t think any of that needs to come from him. He hurt you too bad.”I slid into the booth seat across from her with a sigh, my lips held tight and thin. “You’re right, he did.”“This has all been a huge misunderstanding, Aurora. Owen loves you.”I scoffed as she said this, the tears building up. I grabbed a napkin from the dispenser and wiped them before they could flow.“How is it a misunderstanding, Vanessa? I have the video, I saw it all. It came from his phone! How can that be a misun
I looked over at Barb and she gave me a look that said I could do whatever I wanted to.“Okay, for just a minute but if another diner comes in, I’m getting up and going back to work.”“Fair enough.”“Sorry I ruined your cheeseburger.” I apologized and for some reason, just saying that made me want to cry again so I quickly looked away.“Aurora, you didn’t ruin this cheeseburger. It’s still delicious. It’s just a little harder to eat seeing how upset you were. Want to talk about it?”I shook my head, still looking out the window. I sighed. “Maybe after I have had time to process it myself but not now.”“Want me to go beat the hell out of him?”That caused a hint of a smile as I looked back over at Kyle and cocked my eyebrow.“You don’t think I can, huh? Why do you think he hates me so much? I’ve already kicked his ass twice before when we were younger and he knows I can do it again.”“You beat him up before? Why?”“Cause I wanted to. I didn’t like his face and I can’t even really remem