Dearest readers, I'm really excited and very much grateful to y'all for viewing my book. This is the first book I'm writing and I know it's not perfect but I'm having so much fun creating my own beautiful fictional world and I'm happy you get to read it and enjoy this adventure with me. Love, Alison Nick.
Calla's POVJames came back up five minutes later. He walked slowly back to the table with his eyes looking from side to side nervously and sweat dripping down his neck. This collar button was undone and his tie hung loosely on his neck."Hey...what happened?" I said as a nauseating sense of concern and worry came over me. He sat down looking distracted a bit,his eyes still wandering around like he saw a ghost."Oh I think some young lad was admiring my car" he said as his hands brushed through his hair. He smiled at me and held both of my hands in his. "It's nothing the security was just worried." "Okay. Are you sure?""Yeah,I think he really like the car. The security took care of it,it's okay." He bite his lips but his assurance calmed my down.Another waiters came up to our table with our food. We got served I watched him taking in his meal slowly. His jawline moved in rhythm seductively,as his tongue licks the sauce remains from the spoon. I flickered at my thoughts of our unfini
James' POV( FLASHBACK)It was a summer afternoon in Ireland. Thirteen years old James ran around their beach house by the sea shores. He could taste the salty air as the storm gathers in the sky. He rushes into the house with his sandy feet and Vioner's Barbie doll swinging by his side. His sister chases him into the house and his runs even faster to hide away from her with her Barbie doll,when he nonchalantly bumped into one of his dad's clients. The man was tall and had a tan skin that made his appearance orange like that of an orange peel and his hair was a darker shade of brown like his shoes."Ohhh,hello lad" his Irish accent tingling in James' ears. He smiled at him and James smiled back.As James turned around to walk out of the room,he is met with the venomous stare of his father looking down at him. He looks at James with an obvious anger but no words fell from his mouth. James completely frightened,runs out and hide in the next room.James eventually gets caught in his chil
Calla's POV "Hey Calla,I need you help on this" Julie announces as she walks into my office. She had a measuring tape around her neck and she was barefoot. She hands me a vouge magazine that was turned to page 47. There is a picture of Zendaya and the other cast of euphoria with glittery eye makeup and a review of it as a retrospective fashion comeback."Ermmm..." I stood confused as my eyes couldn't help but stare at her feet--- she was barefooted. A little sigh of frustration left her mouth and she walked closer to me."Ohh ,don't ask. I ordered a new shoe and it's a size smaller and there's no return policy but it matches my dress and it's A LIMITED ZARA EDITION!" Her voice going from low frequency to a force of busting enthusiasm.Typical Julie,I chuckled at her randomness. She was more of a friendly colleague than a boss. It was just her being the nerodivergent ray of sunshine she is. "Sure,what do you need help with?" I asked ."We already contacted models to walk the show for
James' POV"Hello ladies" I greeted as they walked towards my car. Calla rolled her mum's oxygen tank beside her as she assisted her mother's slow steps up to the house."Hi" Calla said as they walked by me,she gave me a quick kiss on the cheek before continuing to pull the oxygen tank behind her. Her mum,who walked beside her looked at me and immediately lower her gaze."Hello James" she said. Not a hint from her tone could give away the intense curiosity between us based on our conversation from nights ago. She looked weaker than the last time I had seen her. Her arms were lanky and she wore a yellow beanie on her head. Her brows were scanty and she seemed exhausted.I followed behind them, taking the tote bag Calla hung on her shoulders and carrying the oxygen tank through the stires in the front pouch leading to the house. An art work poked out of the bag and it was like a canvas of some sort.The smell of condiments filled the house immediately we walked in."Hiiii" aunty Kathy a
Calla's POVIt's Sunday morning but the sun was hidden in dark clouds. The rain had been falling for the past two hours. I stood by the kitchen counter as I heated up some coffee for myself. I could hear Aunty Kathy and mum chatting in her room. The walls of the room were padded so sounds were nearly impossible to hear but the mumbling noise was hard to ignore.I opened the jar for sugar in the cupboard and added it to my coffee,as well as some creamer. I tugged on my robe and headed back upstairs. It was almost past 11am and I had slept over in mum's room with her last night. This week was the final week to get everything on track before we flew to Paris and it sure as hell was going to be a busy one. So I had just today as my last free day before the rustling week ahead and I was ready to sleep in all day.I pulled out my laptop and began to scroll through my I* feed when I got a call from James."Hi" I said into the phone,my heart flushing like a teenager."Baby..." His calm voice I
James' POVI stared at the blue letters on the desk as the mystery of who sent the three of them races through my mind. It's past midnight and it's been hours since I drove Calla back home yet I still can't fathom the lore connecting the blue letters with me.The recent letter had my name written in red ink just like the last two and a paper in it. It read:Tu ne sais rienWhich translates to "You know nothing." I whispered in the dark as my fingers ran through my hair. One of the best days of my life has suddenly been replaced with crippling anxiety from a someone whose name I didn't know and whose face I've probably never seen.The vague message consumed my mind as I lurk for hidden messages in the prints. I brought the lights closer to paper hoping there was more writing in invisible ink. Alas, nothing.Tu ne sies rien,was a common phrase in France. Grandma use to say it to remind us of how vast life is and how we should be humble because we can never know everything about everythin
Calla's POVThe ruckus from work was beginning to get through to me. The fashion show was in just five days time and I knew how perilous it would be for Hault Fashion if we weren't properly ready. I had gone over the list of items we had to ship to France before the day and my hyper fixation on making everything perfect was becoming a little edgy."What!" I screamed as my eyes twitch maniacally."I wanted to know if you wanted anything. We're about to order lunch." The new intern whose head was poking through the half opened glass door of my office,asked. His lips pout forward as he stares at me and I just know he was judging so bad."No sorry, I don't need anything." My voice lowering as I realized I had shouted at him.He walks away and the door shut behind him.The weight of my body fell on my knees as I knelt down on the floor of my scattered office going over everything tiny detail like my life depended on it. Soon after, Julie came busting through the door and I cured to seat on
James' POV"There's a great chance I am traumatized from seeing dad's legs without his trousers on." I said. Vinora and I were catching up over the phone. I told her about everything, because she was my best friend. Her laughter burst through the phone as I told her about catching dad during one of his cheating escapades."What?!" a loud laughter came from the end of the phone. "Vino,in the US they call them pants not trousers" My sister, Vioner said."I haven't seen him since then,and the meeting's tomorrow." I said devastated. "I wonder why Mum puts up with him.""Probably Stockholm Syndrome... I'm so over them." She said."So what about the fashion girl? Are you guys together now?" "Yeah,but it's complicated.""What's complicated about it. It's official,it's not a situationship right?""No, we're dating." I sighed despite the tickling feeling I got from admitting she was mine and I was her's out loud. Yet,it felt like a crash waiting to happen. "It's just... there's so much going on
James' POV The show was brilliant. Hault Fashion delivered beautiful pieces,more stakeholders began to invest on Renault Wine skyrocketing the stock market which made my father happy,which made him less irritable to everybody. Hault delivered a show that was jarring at the fingertips of blogs and magazines,while my father finally saw me fit as his heir since my plan worked.Yet, nothing felt right anymore. The void in me expanded and It left like I laid down on the tracks waiting for a train to run over me.The Deal between Calla and I was done,and so were we.I stood by the wine celler,forced to stay in the shadows as everyone else enjoys the party. It was already past 9pm and the after party was just staring. Most of the guests went back to their resistance to change while some stayed back. I've been driving around in the past hour with my sister, Vinora as we went to have diner together and I told her about what had happened. That was almost two hours ago before she dropped off a
Calla's POV One thing they don't tell you about love is that it is a big suffocating pile of inconvenience. It's flawed,it's awkward,it's makes you do embarrassing dumb shit,it makes you vulnerable,it shows you the dark side of us and a whole load of things you'd never thought you'd do.We don't choose the ones we love,we only choose to pursue it or ignore our feelings until we're numb. Sometimes,we pursue it till it drives us insane or leave us stranded and burnt out.Isn't it romantic how the chaos can either ruin you or strengthen you? It was this very moment I began to think of our love story was the kind that did both. James Renault was the star crossed love of my life. Ours wasn't as epic as those writing in movies and romance novels, we were place in each other's lives as inconvenience. I burned for him until I was nothing but ashes. He...well,he met me at the worst time of my life when I was an inconvenience. The deal that brought us together was cursed to rip us apart.Now,
James' POVI walked into the living room. It smelled of medicine and tea. A mixture like that of melodic poetry sonnet from a eulogy--a fine contradiction.Mrs Grayson, looked almost petrified looking at me as I stood on the front porch."James?" she said confused."Hi,Mrs Grayson. I need to tell you something,do you mind if I come in." I asked as she immediately moved from the door to let me in."What's the problem?" she asked concerned as she slowly walked by me into the living room. She sat on the one sitter coach on the left and gestures towards the triple sitter coach beside me. I looked down on the coach where a big blanket was spread with nearly no space for me to seat,I moved the blanket just enough for me fit in on it."James,it's quiet a surprise for you to show up this early in the day.""I need to talk to you" I said fidgeting before spilling out the long held thought that have wandered my mind. "I have to tell her...""You can't tell her." She objected. Her eyes were dro
Calla's POVThe smell of freshly baked pastries filled the air. Hot steams from cups of chocolate,tea, coffee forming a perfect blend for the sense of homeliness I was searching for since my arrival. Perhaps, I just wanted to be held,to be felt and kept warm. Protected from the void of the feeling of James slipping through my fingertips.Paris wasn't particularly cold in this season. The sun was bright but not scogging to leave outrageous sun burns on your skin or cause you to be dripping wet, melting sweat out of the pores of your skin.No,It was simple bright and beautiful.Julie and I sat under an umbrella in the bakery down the street of our hotel. She bites into the milky doughnuts on the table as it's condensed milk fillers pours on the floor almost staining her maroon dress. I sipped on my hot espresso,as I changed the song on my phone. "Ah-ah...I hate when this happens." she exclaimed,her face dancing on a fine line between being embarrassed and disgusted. I grabbed some pape
James' POVI could feel a heavy weight on my head as I'm being dragged into a room at the end of the passage. My eyes deemed as I struggled to stay awake, punching the air and trying to get loose of the security guard's grip on me. I pulled away from him with force as we got closer to the room. A part of my shirt began to feel loose only for me to look down to see a hole on shirt. My ripped shirt made my screams worse as the guards grip too became tighter. I wiggled,pushed,pull,and held on to furnitures,resisting to go through the doors of the room. My ripped shirt tore the more he dragged me almost freeing me from his grip. "Get in there!" He scolded and grabbed me by my collar and pushed me into the room. The room was dark,so I couldn't make sense of where I was.I rolled over the floor and laid flat,my legs spread apart,same with my hands extending into nothing and my head facing the ceiling. I laid there for a minute, making a snow angle mentally. My ripped shirt still covered in
Calla's POV I haven't heard from James in days. It has been quiet--too quiet,it's almost like he had gone ghost. I had called about a hundred times but he's not picking up,I've left countless messages but still I'm left with no reply. I'm so mad that I can tear him to pieces.My half packed suitcase laid open on my bed as I stacked and unstack clothes in it. I was trying to hard to bury the raging feelings building up in my chest as I threw clothes out of my wardrobe onto my bed,the floor and literally anywhere in my bedroom,as they compile together like a thrift shop safe heaven. Finally,I had decided on clothes to take. 'Why will he do that!' my inner thought eludes out loud as I soliloquize. I stared at the mirror half way through my rant. 'woah,I look crazy.' I said,again. I wanna fight and I wanna scream at him for making feel this wayPathetic Calla. Poor desperate Calanthe. What was I thinking...I went downstairs to get a quick snack,I walked passed mum's bedroom door which
James' POV"There's a great chance I am traumatized from seeing dad's legs without his trousers on." I said. Vinora and I were catching up over the phone. I told her about everything, because she was my best friend. Her laughter burst through the phone as I told her about catching dad during one of his cheating escapades."What?!" a loud laughter came from the end of the phone. "Vino,in the US they call them pants not trousers" My sister, Vioner said."I haven't seen him since then,and the meeting's tomorrow." I said devastated. "I wonder why Mum puts up with him.""Probably Stockholm Syndrome... I'm so over them." She said."So what about the fashion girl? Are you guys together now?" "Yeah,but it's complicated.""What's complicated about it. It's official,it's not a situationship right?""No, we're dating." I sighed despite the tickling feeling I got from admitting she was mine and I was her's out loud. Yet,it felt like a crash waiting to happen. "It's just... there's so much going on
Calla's POVThe ruckus from work was beginning to get through to me. The fashion show was in just five days time and I knew how perilous it would be for Hault Fashion if we weren't properly ready. I had gone over the list of items we had to ship to France before the day and my hyper fixation on making everything perfect was becoming a little edgy."What!" I screamed as my eyes twitch maniacally."I wanted to know if you wanted anything. We're about to order lunch." The new intern whose head was poking through the half opened glass door of my office,asked. His lips pout forward as he stares at me and I just know he was judging so bad."No sorry, I don't need anything." My voice lowering as I realized I had shouted at him.He walks away and the door shut behind him.The weight of my body fell on my knees as I knelt down on the floor of my scattered office going over everything tiny detail like my life depended on it. Soon after, Julie came busting through the door and I cured to seat on
James' POVI stared at the blue letters on the desk as the mystery of who sent the three of them races through my mind. It's past midnight and it's been hours since I drove Calla back home yet I still can't fathom the lore connecting the blue letters with me.The recent letter had my name written in red ink just like the last two and a paper in it. It read:Tu ne sais rienWhich translates to "You know nothing." I whispered in the dark as my fingers ran through my hair. One of the best days of my life has suddenly been replaced with crippling anxiety from a someone whose name I didn't know and whose face I've probably never seen.The vague message consumed my mind as I lurk for hidden messages in the prints. I brought the lights closer to paper hoping there was more writing in invisible ink. Alas, nothing.Tu ne sies rien,was a common phrase in France. Grandma use to say it to remind us of how vast life is and how we should be humble because we can never know everything about everythin