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36. What It Means To Me
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2025-02-26 02:00:11“I…what?” I couldn’t look away from Alpha.
“You defeat Gamma Maddox and you can stay in that house with Beta, his chosen, and the child. However, if you lose, you will be adopted out. You will live in the pack house. You will move on from this childish hyper focus on a piece of property.”
Tears sprung to my eyes as I looked at Gamma Maddox. He put his hands up and shook his head. Gamma Maddox probably had been commanded because despite enjoying a good fight, this would be out of character for him. Hell, this was out of Alpha Damian’s character.
“Aurik, that’s going too far.” Mr. Penn frowned, his arms crossed over his chest. “Winter doesn’t have the training. You know that.”
“Should I just order her instead? Damian wanted to give the pup the chance and this is what I decided. I am done watching, Caspian. I’m done letting this get
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