Chapter 42

Lauren’s Pov

I didn’t know what I needed to feel anymore. It feels like nothing is going right with my life. Everything is a mess, from my life to my emotions and to all of the things that is happening around me.

Ethan…. after all of our argument and conversation last night, he stayed in his study room and didn’t go outside. He didn’t talk to me nor asked me to eat with him like he always does. It breaks my heart that our relationship is bruised like this.

I put my hand in my tummy and imagine that my child is still there but I know that he wasn’t. He is dead but how can everyone expect me to just suddenly accept that?

When I was kidnapped, I did everything I could to protect my body. I’ve accepted all of the blows while trying to avoid being hit in my tummy because I know that I needed to protect my child but I failed. I failed to the point that I’ve lost him.

I know that I’ve be