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CHAPTER 28
I was just that ashame to show myself to Jinx.
I did not went to work the next day because I know that Madame Lucia was there. As far as I have remember, they say that she would be at home temporarily. And I am shy and afraid to show myself again. I am too coward, really. And I am being sorry for myself because of that.
I thought I am already fine. That I would not feel upset anymore because my anxiety and depression has already leave me, but I am not sure right now even if my doctor said that I am already healed. I just have to control myself.
But then, I think my previous problem that I thought that was already gone came back.
It was annoying and frustrating. I cannot focus on my class and the thing I should do. I even did not inform Mister Adonis that I will excuse myself too. But maybe he already understands what was the reason why I did not come for work.
I have not seen Jinx for one week already and I could not help but be sad. He did n
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