During our last subject in the afternoon, I am still contemplating whether I should approach the lonesome boy sitting on the row where I am seated. Nothing changes as he seems to know only one direction, and that is the whiteboard. He only moves his head up to the board and down to his laptop.
I jolt to the ring of the bell, which indicates that the first day of school has ended. I gather my things, put them in my bag, and wait for the entire class to go out of the room. Cassy and her friends glance at me before they leave. I just shrug my shoulders and look away. My eyes land on the lonesome boy who is heading to the door. I took the opportunity to jog after him, hoping to approach and thank him for the favor he did to me.
"Hey," I said, my voice barely came out. The lonesome boy didn't even bother to look back; probably, he hasn't heard me call out for him. I remember Cassandra called him Mad. While in the hallway, I called his name again.
"Mad?" My voice appears to be a little more of a question than someone calling a guy she knows. I'm not sure if I voice it out louder, but he shifts back at me.
I froze when his eyes dart on mine. His orbs wiggle as he looks at me. He is probably wondering why this poor transferee dares to call out his name. "I'm sorry if I had to approach you here," I said, my hand's grip on the handles of my backpack, but my lips manage to press a thin smile.
"No problem. I'm just a bit shocked."
It’s a relief for me knowing he is not angry. "I just want to thank you for what you did this morning. You know..."
"Don't mention it. Cassy could be messy sometimes," he said, shaking his head.
"Yeah, she is. But I can take care of myself. Nobody could ever bully me on this campus." I told him, my voice firm in conviction.
Mad's almond eyes widen a bit. But I didn't expect what would happen; next, he burst out in laughter. Slowly his almond eyes become smaller, covered by his eyelids, and his fair cheeks flush.
I laugh with him, too, as his laughter is contagious. But on second thought, I'm a bit insulted. "What's funny?"
He stops and pulls the hem of his polo uniform. "I'm sorry," he said as he raises a hand as if to swear his sincerity. "I just think you're too tough for a petite girl."
"Hey, I'm not petite; Cassy is," I answer, glaring at him before I step out of the building, pretending to be angry.
I hear footsteps following me. The lonesome boy is fast to catch me, possibly because of his long legs. He walks by my side. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean it. You're too cute; you know that?"
I know what he meant, but his words sent butterflies in my stomach, which is strange. Never did I experience this weird feeling in my whole life. "Thanks," I reply.
An awkward silence follows for a minute. But he breaks it first. "Maddox, that's my real name."
"Nice, I'm sure you already know mine. Not unless you were not listening when I stood up in front of the class."
"Nah, I was attentive."
Possibly, because he only turns his eyes up and down. "Nice to meet you, Maddox. You are my first friend on this campus."
"Happy to know that. Uh, would you like a ride? I can take you home; where's your apartment?"
I suppose to ask him how he knows I live in an apartment. Still, then I remember I mentioned it when introducing myself. "You are so kind, but a taxi is waiting outside. Already contacted a grab driver."
"Well, hopefully, next time, I can drop you home."
"Maybe," I reply. But, unfortunately, my voice wasn't strong enough with conviction. Would a rich kid be interested in taking me home?
We part ways when Maddox reaches his car. I wave a hand when he drives off in his Mercedes Benz S-Class Coupe.
My pace fastens as I head near the gate of our enormous school. Standing a few inches ahead of me are Cassandra and the same three girls in the hallway.
"Hey, transferee," Cassy called out for me.
"What is it now?" I retort as I come near her.
She gasps. "Don't be too proud; your savior is no longer here. So don't expect someone will come and save you."
"I don't need any. I'm fine by myself."
The three girls behind Cassy laugh like the usual villain in the movie. So cliche. More like an Ursula vibe for me. Even though the three were taller than me yet, they don't send chills to my bones. One of them is morena, and the two were like Cassy in pale white skin color.
"I don't need three idiots tailing behind me." Intentionally directing my glare to the three girls behind Cassy.
"You..." said the morena girl.
Cassy raises her hand as if to command her to stop. "Let's make things clear here. How a poor girl, raised by a single mom, working as a secretary, would be able to send her poor child to our school?"
This petite girl is getting in every fiber of my being. But I won't give her the satisfaction of watching me being annoyed. "I'm on scholarship."
Cassandra cracks as she folds her arms around her chest. "This is not a charitable institution, transferee. Wake up," Cassy yells at my face.
Contemplating her words makes sense. I even questioned the scholarship, but I couldn't find the right words to ask mom. However, I don't want her to feel I'm not trusting her.
"Did your single mom sleep with one of our school executives or one of the owners? It wouldn't be surprising you don't even know your dad. Your mom is a whore." Cassy added when I stay silent.
"Shut up, Cassy, you don't even know me. You barely know my name and my mom. Mad was right; you are such a bully."
"Wow," she said, slowly clapping her hands, an act of sarcasm. "So, you started collecting boys as well like your mother?"
I'm about to retaliate when a white car park not far from me caught my attention. A tall and medium build man steps out of the car.
"Angel, I came to pick you up. Your mom asks me," he said, and he walks to the passenger door near me and opens it.
There are too many questions running in my head. When did we have a white Audi? Who is this man? Do I need to ride this car now? It's not like I'm rich that someone will abduct me. Yet, I'm hesitant. But seeing the three girls' reactions, their mouths fell open. Cassy raises an eyebrow. The satisfaction of watching them annoyed is priceless. It's the only reason I'm not declining the offer. No one would waste time to kidnap me anyway; we're poor.“Mad?”Maddox pulls me close to him and wraps his arms around me. My hands voluntarily wrap around Maddox’s body. He is warm, unlike the Christmas weather. My heart is pounding in my chest like the beat of a drum as we keep our bodies close to each other even more.We are both speechless until I hear Maddox cry. I feel so bad for causing so much pain to him. I hate and blame myself for every hurt Maddox is bearing. I gently pat Maddox’s back.“I’m sorry. I’m really sorry, Mad.”“It’s okay.” Maddox loosens his arms around me. I glance up at Maddox, trying to make eye contact with him.I can't
It’s December 24, the loneliest Christmas in my life without mom. This is the only yuletide season that I don't like celebrating. I've never felt like having Christmas since mom was in her bad condition.Dad asked me yesterday if I’d want to have an out-of-town vacation with my friends but I declined. I don’t want to leave the city as it seems like leaving mom. I know dad couldn’t ask me to join them for Christmas since his wife would be against it. So, I told him I'm staying in my condo.I'm having instant food for breakfast as I am starving already. If mom was here, she'll surely prepare something nutritious for me, she won't settle for instant breakfast.The doorbell rings while I'm eating my morning oatmeal. I wonder who would want to visit me as
On my first day without mom, I visited our old apartment in the hope of reminiscing about those times with mom in our nest. I fix the things mom left as well as my room for me to stay in. Everything is in chaos.There are spider webs on the ceiling, and dust on the sofa and on the floor. The apartment smells like an old building that hasn't been used for years. I can’t believe how much dirt it accumulated during the short time we’ve been staying in Singapore and at my mom's funeral.I start cleaning the small living room, the kitchen, and the dining area. It took me almost an hour to finish even in just a small area. Next is my room before cleaning my mom’s room. My room is just as messy as the living area. I have to put some of the papers in the trash to make space for my school materials.
Time stops…I don’t even know where Cassy and her minions get the nerve to visit mom’s funeral. The audacity they have is incomparable.“Hey, what do you guys think you’re doing here? Seriously? This is not a show.” Lea asks Cassandra as she gets close to mom’s coffin.Cassandra snorts. “We come here with good intentions. I know this is hard for Angel to lose everything, right? Not just her mom but also Maddox.” Cassy says the latter with a hint of tease. "That's why we're here to ease her pain. I know how it feels to be left alone."“Cassandra…”I can’t be wrong, I know exactly
Lea comes to us in mom’s room. Lucy is on the left side of the bed as she was trying to help mom make it comfortable and probably breathe easily. Mommy is like running out of breath which is worse than usual.“Mommy…” I hop on the right side of the bed.Mom only moves her teary eyes. She looks at me, her lips parting like she wants to speak up but is unable to because of the shortness of breath.“Mom it's okay, I’m here. You don’t have to say anything, mommy.”“Angel, is Aunt Athena normally like this when she wakes up?” Lea asks, her voice trembling in fear.“No Lea, this is the worst one but mom will be
It’s another day in Singapore and our last day to be exact. With a heavy heart, I pack mom’s stuff to prepare for our flight.“Mom, are you sure about this?”“Angel, this is the best decision I know. Let’s not argue about this anymore. We will have more time together in the Philippines.”Dad didn’t disagree with mom last night. I don't know why. Dad probably only wants to give whatever mom wishes. He immediately booked tickets for all of us. Although it is hard for him as well. I saw it in his eyes last night, he was sad.I knock on dad’s door to check on him. He let me in. Dad's luggage is open while his clothes scattering on his bed. "Dad, let me help you," I volunteer as I
“What is happening here? Ms. Lucy? Candace?”They both look back at me while helping mom on the bed. I see mom is having difficulty breathing.“Mommy, I’m here.” I walk over to mom’s bed and sit on the edge of it.“I already gave her the medicine Angel. Athena will be fine in a few minutes.” Candace says.“Thank you guys, but you should have told me earlier.”Mom holds my arm. “Angel…” Mom says between breathing heavily. “I told them not to…” She pauses for another heavy breath. 'I’ll be fine, don’t worry.” It’s hard for mom to utter a sentence.
Around 11 in the morning when mom wakes up. Mom’s eyes look tired, the dark circles have been getting bigger and bigger for the past few days.“Angel?” Mom smiles lazily as she looks at me.I smile back at her as I walk over to the bed. “Mommy, I’ll help you sit on the bed.”Mom is so light that I think I could carry her like a baby. She loses too much weight while battling cancer. I sit mom in the bed and put a pillow at her back to make it comfortable.“Mom, what do you wanna have for breakfast? I’ll cook it for you.”“Angel, what’s wrong?”
It’s 9 in the morning and I’m here in the bathroom, looking at myself in the mirror. The dark circles in my eyes are getting bigger. I wash my face with water hoping it will help me awake as I only slept for at least 3 hours.It was hard to watch mom in pain last night. I was helpless thinking and knowing there was nothing I could do to ease her pain. Angelo and I were with mom until she was able to sleep.Mom is still sleeping when I walk out of the bathroom so I head to the kitchen to drink some water and check on Candace, Lucy and Angelo.“Good morning, guys. Were you able to sleep?” Candace and Lucy turn back as I grab a glass to pour some water.“Good morning, Angel.” They greet me in unis