LOGINCAIN POV
I feel like an absolute prize fucking asshole as we head into Sassy’s. Brian might be putting a thoroughly gracious front on it, but my confession has him reeling and I know it. That’s the thing with Brian – he’s always trying to be the reasonable one. Always trying to do the right thing, for everyone. Not least for me. And certainly not least for Moona Avii. If he was a lesser man, I’m sure he would’ve fucked the girl already. If he was a lesser man, I’m sure he’d have told me to fuck off with my stupid fucking confession after one paltry week of knowing her. But he’s a better man than I’ll ever be, and in my gut that’s why I know he should be the one to make a move on Moona, even if I’m the one in danger of recklessness. Even if I’m the one who’s seen her pretty little tits. The thought crosses my mind that maybe the little minx is playing both of us for a fool, but I doubt it. If Moona Avii is playing a game, she’s playing a good one. She seems too sharp to risk pitting the two of us against each other, not least because she seems awfully settled at my place. It’s like she belongs there already. I wave to Brian’s colleagues as we step inside the pub, cringing as one of his Co workers Alice jumps from her seat and grabs Brian by the elbow. I think she’s always had a thing for him, even if he’s always been oblivious. I have to stifle a laugh as she presses her mouth to his ear, as though I’m about to witness another confession of devotion that will leave his brain spinning even faster than it is already. Alice’s whisper is ragged and harsh and nothing like I was expecting. It’s loud enough that I hear it over the chatter from the leaving party table. “Moona Avii is here!” My eyes widened as his too did. “Moona is here?” he asks and she nods. “Smoking out the front with Raul Elf. They just came in and got tequila. I’d have stopped the barman if she wasn’t legal.” She pulls her phone from her handbag. “We should call Amie and Nick, or maybe the police.” I’d leap into action myself, but he’s already on it. His hand lands on hers, stopping her as she scrolls through her contacts list. “No need,” he says. “I’ll handle this.” “But they’ll want to know…” she counters. Brian shakes his head but doesn’t elaborate, and it’s the look she gives him, bewildered speculation that has me jumping in to save him the unwanted scrutiny. “She’s staying with me,” I tell her, just like that. Both of them stare. Alice takes a minute to find her words. “Moona Avii is staying with you?!” “She’s doing some work on my land,” I elaborate. “She’s good with fencing.” “Fencing?” I nod. “Fencing.” “Fencing,” Brian confirms with a grimace. I don’t hang around any longer, praising Brian from Alice’s grip and asking him for his assistance outside. We leave her open-mouthed as we march our way through the packed pub. I hope for some reason Alice’s losing her fucking marbles and Moona is safe back at home where I left her, but I hear her wild laughter before we’re even out through the door. She’s had more than one tequila, that much is certain. She sways outside the window with a cigarette in her hand, laughing along with Raul fucking Elf as he recounts some idiot fucking story that he probably made up on the spot. His eyes are all over her, his tongue practically lolling as she braces herself against him for balance. I have the strange urge to rip the bastard’s head off, but I think Brian is gunning for him even more than I am. “What’s fucking going on here?” he asks, heading right between them to break the contact. “Having fun,” Moona sneers and laughs right through it. “You guys were long-gone, why should I stay home alone on a Friday fucking night?!” Raul is a stupid cunt, I see his challenged brain slowly turning as he registers the implication. “You’re staying with these guys?” She slaps his arm as she cackles. “Yeah, they’re my new fucking foster daddies. Daddy Cain and Daddy Brian.” I reach a new personal low when my cock twitches. A really low fucking personal low. Daddy Cain and daddy fucking Brian. The gleam in her eyes tells me she’s not entirely joking either. There are no words for the clusterfuck she’s bringing into our once quiet country life. “You’re coming with us,” I told her. She shakes her head. “I’m fucking not, Daddy Cain. Go fuck yourself.” I grit my teeth and take a step forward, shunting Raul out of the way as Brian takes hold of her arm. “You’re coming with us,” I repeat. “Right fucking now.” “She’s my girl tonight,” Raul protests, and this time it’s Brian that loses his fucking cool. “You’re done here,” he says to the kid. “Take your drink and get back inside that fucking pub, before I tell the police you’re dealing again.” “You fucking wouldn’t…” Raul says, and if I wasn’t so pissed that Moona was trashed on tequila in his company, I’d be amused at how Brian’s changing in front of my eyes. Once upon a time he’d have defended Raul to the ends of the earth, just as he defends all those kids whose paperwork lands on his desk. But not anymore. Not now with Moona Avii is involved. “Get back inside,” Brian repeats and Raul does. He stubs out his cigarette and shrugs his shoulders at Moona, and then he’s gone. Good fucking riddance. Moona struggles in my grip. “Get the fuck off me,” she screeches. “You’ve no fucking right to order me about!” But I don’t. I don’t get off her and I don’t pander to her kicking and screaming either. I take one elbow, and Brian must have finally heeded my bastard advice about discipline, because he takes the other and together we drag her back to my car and bundle her into the backseat, be damned who sees the spectacle. She tries to climb back out no sooner as I’ve shut her in, but I raise a finger and my voice with it. “Don’t even fucking think about it,” I tell her, and she backs away. I climb into the driver’s seat and check out her expression in the rearview mirror. She’s scowling, her arms folded across her chest as her foot taps furiously. Difficult. Little. Bitch. It’s about time this little cow learned some manners. And I’m about to fucking teach her.MOONA POVI don’t know how long they will hold me there, but I never want to move.I’m scared I’ll fall apart without their arms around me. I’m scared I’ll shatter into pieces and never pick them all up again.I remember all the times the guy who called himself Peter touched me. I remember all the times he told me that that was what love felt like.But love feels nothing like that, and I know it now.I want to forget every second I ever spent with him. I want to feel how much I’m loved for real this time.I want to feel kind hands on my body. I want to feel kisses that give, not kisses that take.I want them. The only two men who’ve ever counted.I need to know I’m still theirs and they’re mine, and words aren’t enough.Words will never be enough now I know how easily a random guy like Mathew Connor could speak whatever he wanted in my ear.I’m still in their arms as I press my lips to Cain’s neck. Brian is still pressed to my back as I reach for him.Cain doesn’t respond at first as
BRIAN POVAnd suddenly all the pieces fit into place. She’s in a daze as she heads through to the living room and sits herself down on the slashed sofa. She pulls her knees up to her chest and hugs them tight as Cain sits alongside her and I drop to my knees on the floor. “It’s alright, Moona,” I say, “you can tell us.” And she does. She tells us everything. She tells us how happy she was to find her brother. She tells us the story of what happened all those years ago in Peter’s family home. She tells us how they thought it was her assaulting their younger daughter and leaving bruises on her arms, but it wasn’t. It was Peter, and that makes sense too. The kid was troubled when I met him, narcissistic tothe point it gave me shivers. Thoroughly dissociated from those around him. And now he’s studying law, blending into the student populous no doubt oblivious to the pain he caused the broken girl sitting before me. He didn’t mention Moona once in all our s
MOONA POVI want to tell him but I can’t. Even now I can’t let them throw Peter in prison. He’s my brother. He was there for me when no one else was. My heart is breaking worse than Cain’s, even though I can’t show him. My heart is breaking because I know I can’t come back from this, because no matter how much Cain’s eyes say he wants to forgive me, I know he won’t. I know he can’t. I know he’ll never trust me again. I wish I could say I’m sorry, but I can’t. Even though I can’t bring myself to land my brother in the shit, I can’t bring myself to confess all this either. Cain’s glaring right at me as I hear Brian’s car pull onto the drive. I want the ground to swallow me up and never spit me out again, but I’m standing right here with nowhere to run and no one to turn to.Brian doesn’t even notice the destruction as he steps through the door. He sees me before Cain but he’s already got questions of his own. “Mathew Connor was asking directions to your house in town ea
CAIN POVMy crazy idea for Brian’s career wouldn’t let go once it started. That’s why I called the bank today and set up an appointment. That’s why I marched in there with a hastily drawn up plan and opened a new account all ready to start. It’s crazy but perfect. Perfect for both of them. I can’t fucking wait to fill them in on the news.I’ve got more money than I’ve ever known what to do with, and more than enough time around work to help with the practicalities of setting up something like this. I make sure I’ve got my folder of ideas on the passenger seat as I buckle up and head for home. I know I’ll be earlier than Brian, I’ll just have to keep my mouth shut until he gets there. There’s a crunch of glass under my foot as I step inside. My brow creases as I stare down at it, and it takes me a second to realise it’s the mirror from the wall, smashed to pieces. What the fuck? Memories of walking in on Moona for the very first time come flooding back to me,
MOONA POVThe attached photo makes my heart race. A picture of the centre of Lydney. He’s here. Oh my God, he’s really here. But he doesn’t know Cain. He doesn’t know where I live now. I try to force the nerves away but they won’t budge an inch. All the filthy things I did for him come back to the pool in my belly. They make me feel sick. I used to think it was okay before I knew what real love felt like, but now I know it isn’t. It never was. What he did to me was cruel and disgusting. The way he made me use my body for him was a world away from how Cain and Brian make me feel. I don’t care that he’s my brother anymore, or that he’s holding family news over my head. I don’t care that I may never get to see them again if I don’t do what he wants. If they wanted me, they’d have found me long ago. If they still believe his lies after all these years then I’m better off without them. All the years of making excuses for him in the name of lo
I can’t believe I’m doing this, I can’t believe my dick is still hard, but it is. It’s only when I hear Cain grunt that I realise he’s not nearly so hesitant as I am. But Cain never is. Cain doesn’t have limits like I have. Cain goes all in for the pursuit of pleasure, and right now his pleasure is in Moona’s hand as she rubs his dick against mine. “Fuck,” he says. “Peen on fucking peen. This has never been on my fucking agenda.” But he doesn’t stop and neither do I. And it occurs to me, right at the back of my mind, that maybe he wants this. Maybe he’s not nearly so hung up on what all this means as I am. The thought that he might even enjoy these blurry boundaries takes me aback, but makes my dick throb. It makes me shunt closer, giving Moona all the leeway she needs to press us length to length and move us as one. Oh fuck, it feels good. It feels so filthily good. “You like it,” she whispers, “I can feel it.” I don’t argue and neit







