I stared at Jason as I stood by the door waiting for him to let me come in with my baggage, and not just my suitcase, but my emotional baggage of how much I can't get over my guilt and shame. I'm here trying to help my friends while slowly destroying my relationship with the guy I'm so in love with.
Moving in is just a way for me to try and somehow strengthen our relationship so that once all of this is done, he could at least find something worth forgiving me for, well I pray he does.
Seeing that he wasn't making any move of letting me in, I pulled my suitcase into his house and stood facing him.
"I'm moving in," now normally I wouldn't make such a hasty decision and just move in, but I did and I'm hating myself for it. "Now before you get all excited, I left a few things back at my apartment. I'm not full
It's been over two months of me living with Jason, we've had our great days which are filled with sex, laughter and bonding and we've had our worst days which are also filled with sex, sometimes separate bedrooms and my guilt keeps eating me from the inside. Jason has been busier than ever, mostly with his side shady business that had to be the one that led to our most recent fight. Jack might have purposely let it slip one night when he was at dinner with us at home and I played it off until he left, and when he did we went crazy. That was just this weekend, we haven't spoken to each other since then. I moved to the guest bedroom, I actually wanted to go back to my apartment but somehow this man, Jason, managed to convince me that I didn't need it anymore and I moved out...men. I haven't been talking to Ora as m
"Tell me again why we're here?" I asked Jason in his ear as we walked through the crowds of people that were here pretending to be friendly with each other, all for the business I guess. "Bellamy has donated a lot of money to our hotels, Lia, we have to show up for such things," he said in my ear and I groaned internally, pulling my lips into a smile for an elderly woman who passed by us. "How long do we have to be here?" "Just up until he gives his speech and then we can go home," he said, pressing his lips on my forehead. I tilted my chin up and he got the message pressing a kiss on my lips. "That works for me, now go on. Go act like a dick to others," I said and he chuckled, shaking his head and pressing his lips against my temple before walking away. Taking
I watched Amelia as she slept on our bed with a frown on her lips. It's been there since yesterday when we saw her mother. Carefully removing her arm from my chest, I got out of bed and headed to the shower to freshen up before going downstairs to make her breakfast. I grabbed everything I needed from the fridge before getting started on making us food. Finishing off with her tea and my coffee, I placed the food carefully on a tray and picked it up ready to join Amelia. Once I turned around I found one of the maids standing behind me staring at me. "Good morning," I said and she smiled. "Good morning, Mr Daniels. I'm so sorry I was late to make your food," she rushed out and I only nodded. "It's fine, I wanted to m
As soon as Jason left the bedroom, I went to take a shower and got dressed in one of his sweatshirts and my tights. Walking downstairs barefoot, I saw Rosie cleaning around Jason's office, offering her a small wave and a smile as I walked in the direction of the garden. I sat down on the bench with my legs folded underneath me, looking out here I thought it was pretty, but not as pretty as the one at my dad's house. Sighing for the umpteenth time today, I stared at the flowers with longing while a pool of thoughts swirled around in my mind. Why didn't you talk to her? my crappy excuse wasn't even enough to convince him, why didn't I talk to her? I guess I was afraid, scared of rejection, scared that this time around I would actually hear her tell me of how much she didn't want me. I know my dad said that she did,
"Wake up, Lia," he whispered softly in my ear, his arms were wrapped around my body in a tight hold and he wouldn't let go. I had been up for a whole hour staring at the same wall because I didn't want to see him leave. I heaved a sigh and slowly turned around in his arms and pressed a kiss on his forehead. "You're right, it's time to go to work," I said, unwrapping his arms. Opening up the water in the shower, I stripped out of his shirt folding it just to end up throwing it on the floor, I stared at it frowning and entered the shower feeling the scorching water burn my skin making me scream, I heard him chuckle behind me while moving the tap handle more towards the middle. "See why you can't go? I can't even open the water properly," I sobbed into my hands and he sighed, wrapping his arms around my body.
After getting myself together I got an Uber back to Jason's house, taking a deep breath in I opened the door to his house and found all the lights on meaning he was probably still home. Dragging my feet upstairs to his room, I found his door open widely but I couldn't see him anywhere. Entering the room I saw the bags on his bed and I saw movement in the closet. Placing my handbag carefully on the dresser, I walked into the closet and found him pulling out a couple of suits. "Jason," I called out and my voice came out hoarse. I don't know how but I was already shivering and I could feel my tears build up. He ignored me and I saw his jaw clench while he stopped and took a breath in. He didn't even look at me when he passed by me holding his suits in his hands.
I followed Amelia outside in hopes that she would look back one more time, or if I could just get over my pride and ask her to come back but I was filled with rage. I watched Chris take her bags from her and pack them in the trunk of his car before asking her something and she turned around looking at me once again before nodding and entering the car. He closed her door and walked over to the driver's side before giving me a hard look and shaking his head in disappointment. I'm even getting judged by a person who doesn't know the whole story, how great! The car drove away and I watched it leave with my heart. I collapsed onto the ground leaning my back on the wall bringing my knees up and crying in my hands. I couldn't believe how I just let her go after I had promised I would never, here I was. The b
Two Weeks Later "It's great to see you smiling," Aurora said as she leaned against the door. "Yeah, I enjoy being here," I said as I looked around the nursery. "Thank you for letting me help with the painting and all," I said and she smiled, shaking her head. "I like to see you happy," she shrugged, walking over to me and sitting down on the chair next to mine. "Can't she come out already," she groaned rubbing her belly and I smiled looking at it. "Don't rush my niece, she'll come out when she's ready," I said, rubbing her swollen belly. "Well, I'm more than ready!" I laughed out as she continued complaining about how she was ready to