“Love is not a poison Robin!” Ivana called out behind me and I turned around to look at her. This was the first person who had said what I thought about love out loud like this.“What do you know about love?” I asked her, my brows were raised, she was saying what I have believed for years was not true.“Love can never be poisonous!” She barked as more tears streamed down her eyes and I was shocked, it was as if she said that to make the things that had clouded it for years vanish.She stepped closer to me, her blue eyes locked with mine as her lips moved. “I will show you, I will show you that love isn’t a poison.”I scoffed at her bravery. “And how do you propose to do so?” My lips twitched, I thought she would teach me how to love, but seeing her walk away with Hinn Carlos made me drop those hopes. I didn’t want to have them anymore.“I will cover your heart and the pains in them with flowers.” She said softly and I blinked. Was this girl sick, what the heck was she saying now?“I d
"I'm fine mom.” I flashed a smile to make her believe I was really fine, I wouldn’t want to bother my mother.“If you say so.” My mother said after hesitation, I know she doesn’t quite believe in it, but since she didn’t stay with me for those long years, there was no way she could tell I was lying from my poker face.She turned to Ivana and looked her all over. “Why do you look so pale Ivana, did Robin maltreat you while I was away?” She asked Ivana and I scoffed behind them.“Mom, I am not a stepmother or something like that,” I told her as I rolled her luggage into the living room.“You can tell me the truth Ivana, did he treat you badly while I was away?” My mother asked her and I glanced over Ivana.“No he didn’t,” She said softly, but I know she was trying to keep the times I treated her badly from my mother, I smiled where I was, I know I wouldn’t want to treat her badly anymore. “We had a practice yesterday and my whole body aches, that must be the reason.” Ivana finished.MY
“Ordean, it is time for you to let go of the hate you have for your father, it is time for you to forgive him.” Mrs Jane told me and I staggered backwards, shocked to hear her say that.The memories of what my father had done to me, what he had done to my mother flashed in through my mind like a rushing wave and my heart felt like it was filled with thorns as I gazed at my mother as if she was a stranger.“Robin…” She called out to me and tried to reach me with her hands but I stepped backwards. “Why?” I asked her in a hoarse voice. “Why should I? Why would you?” I shook my head at her. “Why would I forgive him after all he did?” I raised my voice as my heart was numb.I watched tears roll down my mother’s cheek again, it hurts me even more that she was still crying because of that man. “Robin, no matter what he did, I don’t want it to destroy us, we have had that hurt in our heart so much and it could consume us if we don’t let it go.” She voiced out and I shook my head.“No, you st
I paced around the sitting room after Mrs Jane called Robin up. I was a bit uneasy since I noticed the look on Mrs Jane’s face when she said she wanted to speak with Robin.I glanced at the wall clock, it was over 30 minutes and they were still upstairs and talking. I heard Robin’s voice and I turned to look upstairs. I wondered what was going on. I could also hear a light sob, that was when I knew something was wrong so I slowly walked upstairs.I wasn’t meant to eavesdrop, but I heard no choice, not when I saw Mrs Jane in tears and Robin in the same expression I saw him when Hinn Carlos had said those words to him.I hide behind the pillar close to the stairs as I heard Mrs Jane tell Robin to forgive his father, tears brimmed in my eyes as I heard all the things Mrs Jane said and also what Robin said about his father, but what made me shocked was when Mrs Jane told Robin that she slept with his father against his father’s will.I clasped my hands to my lips as my tears rolled down a
I drove in circles for a while before driving to the beach. All through the ride, Robin had said nothing and I didn’t ask him anything, if it meant just staying silent with him, at least he wasn’t alone.I couldn’t tell the pain he has gone through as a child, it would be odd if I were to think I understand when I don’t.I looked over at him when I stopped the car, he was still staring outside the window, the sun was almost setting and the beach was only left with few others that were leaving already.Robin gently stepped out of the car and I did too, he walked towards the water before halting. I watched his back for a long time, he was silent, I couldn’t tell what was displayed in his thoughts, it has been hours since he spoke a word and I was a bit worried.I walked over to his side and gazed at his face, he wasn’t looking at me, he was only staring at the water that was bathed with the setting sun.“All my life has been a series of coldness.” He parted his lips to speak and I was a
I returned home with Robin late at night and he went into his room walking past Mr Jane who was standing by the door waiting for us.I could see the pained look in Mrs Jane's eyes, I could see her heart also breaking piece by piece, I felt so sad for both of them.With what I have earlier heard, it also wasn't easy for Mrs Jane, she was seeking almost the same thing as Robin, they were both longing for love.Robin shut the door and I turned to see Mrs Jane standing by the stairs, staring at Robin’s shut door, she sniffled a cry and I went over to her side.She closed her eyes slowly like she was suppressing the tears in her eyes, she looked so thin in just what had happened today.She looked fragile and I can’t imagine the pain she had also gone through in the past, if what Robin had told me was true, if she has become an addict to alcohol then she has also felt so much pain to let that consume her then."I am not a good mother Ivana," Mrs Jane said immediately she opened her eyes and
I came out of my room, dressed for school hoping that what had happened was just a nightmare, but it wasn’t, I looked over at Robin’s closed-door before walking downstairs.I looked at the empty living room, I exhaled softly, this should be a mansion filled with love but everyone was sad, I can't think of what to do to make them happy again.I walked to the kitchen to make a meal for myself and perhaps Robin, only to find some food covered on the dining table.I felt it and it was still warm, I glanced over to Mrs Jane’s room, it was locked, I can't tell if she has left for work already, but I know she was the one who had prepared this meal.I looked at the dining table with gloomy eyes, I could still remember how happy Robin was the first day he came to this mansion, he has even talked a lot with Mrs Jane and there were smiles on his face.Mrs Jane was the only one who he felt so free and happy with, he feels comfortable with her that I also wished that he could smile at me the way h
Everything seems to be going as normal today. We practised for a long time and surprisingly I was getting good at it. Chloe was a big help and indeed I didn’t see myself as a doll when she used me to show the rest how to make the move.I felt like I was doing well and I was almost getting proud that I was the centre of the choreographer's teacher's attention when I tripped and fell on my face, making the rest of the students who already hate me laugh at me.Can this day ever go well for me?"Are you okay?" Chloe asked me as she helped me up."I am fine." I made an awkward chuckle to show them that I didn’t lose a tooth, no one ever dared laugh at me while I was in the countryside, but it was different here, not when I was provoking others."Okay," Chloe said as she turned to the rest. "We will all take it from there." She made a clapping gesture and the others stood up.I walked over to where Kate stood as we all fell in place to start the dance practice."We should teach them a lesso