Teach me how to love you

"Robin, are you alright?" I heard  Benny say as he opened the attic door and picked me up from the ground. "Damn it! You are burning up, Robin."

I couldn’t say a word as I shut my eyes, tears rolled down from the corner of my eyes, not because I felt sorry but because my heart felt sore.

Even as a seven year old child I know when I was craving for someone, I have never felt sick when I was with my mother, but because of this man, starving me, hitting me and locking me up in an attic.

What sort of stupid affection and care was he trying to show now, why does he sound worried when this was all his fault?

I wanted to push him up but I had no energy. My body felt so weak. I could only hear the hurried footsteps of my father. I didn’t bother to see who was also behind him, perhaps his lovely new wife.

They put me in the car and my father drove off. I felt us moving. I