LOGINLouis’s POV
Normalcy was a fragile, precious thing. We clung to it like a life raft. Katie started at her new, absurdly secure private school. Sierra began working with the architects and bakers to design a flagship location for “Savarina,” a patisserie concept that would be part of the Katherine Hope Initiative’s vocational wing. It was her dream, reborn in fire and gold. She was in her element, her eyes alight with a passion that had nothing to do with threats or security briefings. For two weeks, the monster in Sydney was silent. The ledger showed the monthly retainer payment had been received. No emails, no assessments. It was as if Alistair Ford was just a wealthy, reclusive man enjoying his retirement. I almost let myself believe it. Then, on a Tuesday afternoon, my assistant’s nervous voice came over the intercom. “Mr. Trevane, there’s a… a Mr. Donovan Shaw here to see you. He doesn’t have an appointment. He says it’s urgent, and that you’d want to see him. He mentioned… he mentioned the Monaco incident.” Ice water trickled down my spine. Monaco. A name I hadn’t heard in ten years. A weekend buried so deep I’d almost convinced myself it was a bad dream. “Send him to the east drawing room,” I said, my voice carefully neutral. “And keep Sierra occupied. Have Claudette bring up fabric samples for the gala curtains or something. I don’t want her coming down here.” “Yes, sir.” Donovan Shaw. A ghost from a life I’d incinerated. He’d been there that weekend. A hanger-on, a weasel of a man who traded in secrets and illicit favors. I’d paid him handsomely for his silence a decade ago and hadn’t thought of him since. I walked into the drawing room. He was already there, pacing, looking out of place amidst the serene art and antique furniture. Time had not been kind. He was gaunt, his suit cheap and shiny, his eyes darting and hungry. “Louis,” he said, turning with a greasy smile that didn’t reach his eyes. “Or should I say, Mr. Trevane. You’ve done well for yourself. Very well.” “Donovan,” I said, closing the door. I didn’t offer a hand, didn’t sit. I remained standing, a clear signal of power and dismissal. “You have five minutes.” His smile wavered, replaced by a nervous twitch. “Always straight to business. I admire that. I’m here on behalf of a mutual friend. Someone who remembers Monaco quite… fondly.” “I have no mutual friends with you, Shaw. State your business or get out.” He licked his thin lips. “Lena. Lena Moreau.” The name was a second, sharper punch. Celeste’s older sister. A woman of profound cruelty and even greater avarice. She had been at the center of the Monaco disaster. I’d thought she was in Switzerland, married to some decrepit count. “What does Lena want?” “She’s seen the news. Your beautiful new family. Your touching charity. She was… moved.” The sarcasm dripped from his words. “She feels that since you’re in such a generous, *family-oriented* phase of your life, you might be inclined to extend some generosity to an old… friend. Who has fallen on hard times.” Blackmail. Of course. The news cycle had dug up every old girlfriend, every business rival. It had only been a matter of time before it unearthed something truly toxic. “How much?” The words tasted like ash. “For her permanent, nostalgic silence? Twenty million. A pittance, really, compared to what you’d lose if the details of that weekend came to light. The drugs. The accident. The poor Italian girl who ended up in the harbor…” He shook his head with mock sadness. “Your saintly Sierra would be devastated. And the press… they’d crucify you. That initiative of yours would be a joke.” Rage, hot and corrosive, flooded my veins. This wasn’t just about money. This was about poisoning the well I was trying to drink from with Sierra. This was about smearing the future I was building with the filth of my past. “I have proof,” Shaw added, seeing my silence. “Photographs. Statements from staff Lena has kept on retainer all these years. It’s very compelling.” “Get out,” I said, my voice lethally quiet. “I—“ “Get out of my house. Tell Lena she’ll have my answer in twenty-four hours.” He hesitated, then scurried out, his confidence brittle. He knew he’d struck a nerve. The moment the door closed, I sagged against the back of a chair. Monaco. I’d been twenty-two, reckless, swimming in inherited money and a pathological sense of invincibility. A wild party on a yacht. A girl, high on things I’d provided, had fallen overboard. She’d survived, but with a brain injury. My father’s lawyers and an enormous pile of money had made it go away. I’d buried it, changed, built a man who would never be that careless again. But the stain remained. And now Lena Moreau, a viper I’d once associated with, wanted to use it to bleed me dry. I couldn’t pay. It would never end. She’d always come back for more. I couldn’t fight it publicly without destroying everything Sierra and I had built. There was only one person I knew who operated in this specific, septic layer of hell. One person who specialized in making problems like Lena Moreau disappear. I walked to my desk and opened a secure, encrypted channel. I typed a message to an email that didn’t exist. **A. Ford. New contract. Domestic. Target: Lena Moreau (née Moreau), currently in Geneva. Objective: Permanent neutralization of a blackmail threat. All relevant data to follow. Retainer doubled for discretion and speed.** The response came back in under a minute. **Terms accepted. Data package received. Commencing assessment. Timeline: 72 hours. Maintain operational silence.** I closed the channel. My hands were steady. My heart was a block of ice in my chest. I had just hired our monster to kill another monster. And I would have to look Sierra in the eye tonight, kiss my daughter goodnight, and pretend the world wasn’t made of rot and shadows. The price of our peace kept rising. And I was becoming the kind of man who could pay it without flinching. For them, I would drown the whole world in darkness.Sierra's POVThe first trimester hit me like a truck. A big, smelly, nausea-filled truck.I forgot how awful this part was. With Katie, I was young. Twenty-seven. I bounced back from everything. This time? Forty-two felt very, very old.The smell thing got worse. Coffee was enemy number one. But then it was also eggs. Then chicken cooking. Then Louis's cologne. Then the cleaning stuff the housekeeper used. Then the garbage can in the kitchen. Then flowers. Flowers!"I can't smell anything," I moaned, lying on the bathroom floor at 3 a.m. "Everything smells like everything."Louis sat beside me, looking helpless. Men always look helpless when their wives are puking. It's kind of funny, if you're not the one puking."Do you want water?" he asked."No.""Tea?""NO.""A cracker?""Louis, if you say one more word, I will divorce you."He shut up. Smart man.---The tiredness was worse than the puking.With Katie, I worked through my pregnancy. I was busy. I had energy.Now? I couldn't kee
Sierra's POVI was forty-two years old when my body decided to play the biggest joke of my life.Katie was fifteen. Fifteen! She was already talking about college and boys and how embarrassing we were. Louis and I were finally at the easy part. The "we survived parenting a teenager" part. The "we can sleep in on weekends" part.Or so I thought.It started with the smell. Coffee. I'd loved coffee my whole life. But one morning, Louis made his usual pot and the smell hit me like a wall.I ran to the bathroom. Threw up. Came back pale and shaky."You okay?" Louis asked, concerned."Fine. Just... coffee smelled weird."He looked at me funny but didn't push.The next morning, same thing. And the next. And the next."You're not fine," Louis said on day four. "I'm calling the doctor.""It's probably a virus.""For four days?""Viruses can be long."He gave me The Look. The one that said he wasn't buying it.---Dr. Patel was young and nice and very professional. She ran tests. She asked ques
Sierra's POVMeeting the Crofts was one thing. Building a relationship with them was another.After that first coffee, we didn't see them for a few weeks. Life got busy. Katie had school projects. Louis had work. I had foundation meetings. The usual chaos.But they sent cards. Little notes. Margaret had beautiful handwriting, old-fashioned and careful. Edward's was shakier, but you could tell he tried.*Dear Louis, Sierra, and Katie,**I saw the most beautiful flowers today at the garden store. Purple ones, like Katie's sweater. Made me think of her. Hope you're all well.**Love,**Grandma Margaret**P.S. Edward is learning to use email. It's not going well. Send help.*Katie loved the cards. She taped them to her wall. She started writing back, little notes in her messy kid handwriting.*Dear Grandma Margaret,**Thank you for the card. My sweater is still sparkly. Mom washed it and it didn't die. School is boring but art class is fun. I drew a horse. It looked like a dog but that's o
Sierra's POVThe months after Margaret died were strange. Not sad exactly. More like... quiet. Like a door that had opened and closed again, leaving us different on the other side.Louis read all the letters. Every single one. He took his time, like he was saving them. Some made him laugh. Some made him cry. Some he read to me at night, his voice soft in the dark.*Dear Louis,**Today I saw a little boy at the park who looked just like you. He was maybe three, with dark hair and serious eyes. He was building a sandcastle all by himself, so focused. I sat on a bench and watched him for an hour. I pretended he was you. I pretended I was just a normal mom, watching her son play. It was the best hour I've had in years.**Love always,**Mom*"She watched other kids," Louis said after reading that one. "For years. Just to feel close to me.""She loved you so much.""I know. I just wish..."He didn't finish. He didn't have to. We both wished for more time.Katie handled it better than I exp
Sierra's POVThe second photo changed everything.We couldn't just wait anymore. We had to do something. Louis spent hours on the phone with lawyers and private investigators. I spent hours staring at the photos, trying to see something we missed.The woman in the pictures. Louis's birth mother. She had my eyes. My dark hair. My smile. It was like looking at a ghost version of myself from thirty years ago."Is it weird?" I asked Louis one night. We were in bed, both too wired to sleep. "That she looks like me?"He was quiet for a minute. Then he said, "Maybe it's not weird. Maybe it's... I don't know. Fate? Something?""Do you believe in fate?""I believe in us." He turned on his side to look at me. "I believe that somehow, through all the mess, we found each other. And we stayed. That's enough for me."I wanted to believe that too. But the photos made everything feel complicated.The next morning, Louis's investigator called with news. They'd traced the postmark on both letters to a
Sierra's POVSix months after the beach house. Six months of normal, happy, boring life.I say boring like it's a bad thing. It's not. Boring is good. Boring means no ghosts. No trials. No fear. Boring means waking up and knowing the day will be full of small things. Grocery lists. School runs. Dinner with the people you love.I've learned to love boring.Katie was in eighth grade now. Almost done with middle school. She had a little group of friends who came over on weekends and ate all our snacks and giggled about boys until midnight. Louis pretended to be annoyed, but I caught him leaving extra snacks outside her door."She needs to eat," he said when I raised an eyebrow."She needs to sleep.""She can sleep when she's dead.""Louis!""Too dark?""Way too dark."He grinned and kissed my forehead. "I'll work on my dad jokes."The foundation was going well. Really well. We'd helped over two hundred kids in the last year. Kids with absent parents. Kids who needed someone to believe in







