I was feeling deaf and numb as my whole world had stopped. My knees were slowly losing their strength and my chest was squeezed so hard making me feel breathless.  My Blake didn't survive because he saved me. He saved me and our child.  With a blank mind, I stepped my heel out of nowhere. I don't know where to go, I just did let my feet decide. My tears were streaming down on my cheeks while walking along the hospital halls. This is such a curse! I am a curse!  "Hey, Aly. Where are you going?" I shoved Celestine's hand on me. I want to see him so badly. He can't die this time. He can't die this young!  "I have to see him, Celestine," I replied without taking a single glance at her until I reached the emergency rooms.  I immediately asked the nurse whose sweat was visible on his forehead and was pacing back and forth, assisting some