But she didn't. My mother didn't live enough for her to witness just how adorable and handsome my little toddler is. She didn't hold on as what I've asked her to. On the third month of my sensitive pregnancy, she died in her sleep while holding my hands. No matter how many times she has prepared me into this, I still can't accept it. Nothing could ever prepare me for this. Now I am officially an orphan. And I couldn't do something but cry and be bitter about it. My mother's funeral has been solemn with many friends and acquaintances paying their respects to my mother and condolences for me. I looked at the faces of the people I barely recognize. Who are the wolves and the vultures among them? Can I find a single friend in them? Von was also present in the service but he made sure to position several seats away from me. He didn't get to talk to me not because he didn't try but bec

"Trevor has been looking this way for straight ten minutes now."I arched a brow at Cathy who is giving me side glances on the other side of our table."You're still counting until now? You told me that exactly five minutes ago."I sliced my steak on the plate and chewed it."Well, I thought you might want to know. Jill, do you still have feelings for him?" Cathy sipped on her glass of wine and tapped her fingers on the table while waiting for my answer."Feelings? What kind of feelings do you mean? If you mean love, then I can confidently say that I have outgrown my feelings for him."I sliced another chunk of meat."Really? Even when he has an exact replica in your house?"I glared at her and looked around."Watch your words, Cathy!"She just laughed and called the waiter for another bottle of wine.

"That was harsh."I ignored Cathy and kept on reading the document in hand."You went below the belt last night, Jillian. You should have seen Trevor's face when you told him about Brad and Sandy. He looks defeated."I shrugged my shoulders and adjusted the frame of my glasses."That's not my problem anymore, Cathy. He barged into our beautiful night and ruined it so he should get the same feeling."She crossed her arms and stood up to transfer to the chair in front of my desk from the couch on a corner."Tell me honestly, Jill. Do you still feel something for him? I witnessed how you were crazy for him from years back. Are you really done with him or this is just your way of getting your revenge?"I smirked and shook my head. I can't believe how far her imagination had come."Cathy, I know how I was bordering to insanity during those times and I also know how that ended in a very nasty way. Trevor is not good for my overall we

"Sorry? I don't need that right now anymore." I yanked away his hand from my wrist and drank the water in my other hand. "That was all in the past now, Trevor. Let's move on. I discarded you in my life for a reason. I hope you'd do the same for me.""I can't, Jill."My face turned into a hard one. "And why is that?" I asked while looking at him straight in the eyes."Because I want you back in my life."I waited for a moment for him to say that it is just a joke or a prank but he looks so serious sitting there that I couldn't help but burst out laughing.Some people were looking at our direction so I grabbed the napkin and covered my mouth. "Oh my god! That was a good laugh. I haven't had that much laughter for years now. Thank you very much."I wiped the tears off my face and drank on my glass again."I swear that was a good joke. You can lau

“Fuck it!” I shouted after I slammed the door behind my back. Tears started rolling down my eyes as I replayed the scenes in my head.I just came from the security room to retrieve the whole video of when Trevor visited my mother when she was still alive.“Mom, I don’t want to hate you. You know that I love you, you know that. I cannot even afford myself to hate you even after all that. But mom, why? W-Why… do you have to do that? Why?! You know how I loved him so much!”I leaned on the wall to support myself while still weeping. I am questioning everything. I am questioning if after all those years if I really knew who my mom was but after watching the whole video, it seemed like I did not have any idea of what my mother is really like.I sat on the floor and put my hands on my face. I can still see Trevor’s face in my mind as he begs for my mother to let him be with me until I am able to function on my own after Laurie’s death. Instead, my mother slapped hi