Semua Bab BEGIN AGAIN: Bab 41 - Bab 50

Silence had long taken over because neither one of us, has attempted to say a word after what he has revealed.All I can do is just stare at him since the news are too hard to grasp, it's too heavy to bear and my heart pains for him. He lost his mom." Hazel Grace no, no don't cry for me." He sighs when he turns to look at me.I cant help myself, the tears are too heavy to contain and that's why I let them freely fall." But it's your mom Roman." I whisper out." Hazel -" " I'm sorry Roman, I'm sorry." I say, launching myself to him and wrapping my arms around his waist, resting my head against his chest."It's okay Hazel.""No it's not. I wasn't there when you needed me most and I know that you needed me more then ever then, I bring comfort to you. Me being where you need me most makes everything okay for you. It's always been this wa

Left me to die?No, no, I must have heard wrong.I slowly turn around to face him. My eyes follow his every move, where he walks towards me." Hazel you have to listen to me, let me talk and explain to you-" "Why did you say such a thing to me Roman?....Why would you say that to me?"" Danny is not good for you Hazel Grace. He is not." " Roman, not this again." I say through a sigh, dropping my eyes to the ground." Hazel." A gasp slips out when his hands cradle my face and tilt my head up so I am looking into his eyes." Hazel I am here, not as your enemy. I am your bestfriend, your Roman. Eversince we were young, have I ever given you a reason to not trust me?" "No, but - ," I pull out of his touch but his hands are quick to hold my shoulders, keeping me from taking another step further.

It's my fault, it's my fault.It should have been me and not him.The thoughts repeatedly play in my head as tears stream down my face. Tonight has been the worst night of my life and I wish, more then ever for someone to tell me that this is all a bad dream. That I'll wake up and he'll be fine. All he wanted to do was to protect me but I couldn't do the same for him. I couldn't protect him. I couldn't protect my best friend.He called out for me. Oh my gosh he called out for me and I should have answered, maybe then he would have stopped. This is all my fault."Hazel!" I jump off my chair when I see Sam and Avery coming my way.I rush towards them, literally throwing myself to him and wrapping my arms around him. " Hazel, hey hey are you okay?" I shake my head, burying my face in his shoulder. I can't stop my bo

" Hazel, wake up......doctor!" I feel myself being shaken awake.I would have resisted, had it not been for the repeat call for the doctor. That's when I remember where I am and why I had been in here. For Roman.A moan slips out as I tiredly open my eyes and the first thing I see are Roman's hazel eyes. " Ha, thank God." He sighs in relief, his eyes closing for a moment.I blink up at him, confused by his actions."You're awake, you're awake." He repeats, burying his face in my hair.What's wrong with him all of a sudden?" Roman?" He leans back to look down at me, his eyes moving all over my face. I watch with a confused frown as he traces his finger along the side of my face as if trying to put it into memory." What's wrong?" I finally ask."You weren't waking up." " I was asleep Roman, I t

Moving in with Roman, came with a deal. Dad made a deal, that if I were to move in with Roman, I had to attend therapy for atleast a month.Of course I agreed. I wanted more then anything to get out of the academy and to live elsewhere. It's not that dad didn't trust Roman or anything, but he wanted to ensure that I would be safe, as well as safe. To me, Roman was the word safe. I've always felt safe around Roman because I know that he would protect me as I would him. Protecting each other just became a natural thing for us, eversince we were young.With today being the day that I moved, I had everything packed and ready to go and was simply waiting for my dad to show up. I don't know how he managed to sort everything out so quick with the school, but he did and now in a few moments, I would be out of here.Avery was both saddened by the fact that she was losing a roommate but she was