My heart was beating faster, and I hated myself for doing this to him. I'm worse for him. How could he forgive me so easily, I can see it clearly over his face that I've hurt him. But he needs to know what's he walking in.      I want to be with him and push him away. When I thought about all the bad things, Which part bothered me most was unclear. My this deed to him is going to come back to haunt me in my dreams that I've hurt him. Nothing could ever happen between us. It doesn’t make sense, but that part scares me.       He stares at me, my heart is beating a mile a minute. He steps back, twirling; he leaves me alone, mulling over what I did to him.       I'm feeling so embarrassed right now for my doing. I never want to disappear into thin air so badly.      I turn my gaze. The dress is still lying on one side of the mattress. Before my friends att

       My brother wants to talk about something essential. But wasn't he attending a bachelor party? Did he witness something unpleasant there? He doesn't want me to marry Arnav. I hurry toward my room. I behold him standing out of the room from the corridor. It makes me tense when I find him with our elder brother.          Arrogant bossy huh!      I want to snap but I keep quiet, " You don't need to wait outside, " I tell him as I turn the knob and open then to come in.     I gesture him to sit but I know both are stubborn and stay on their feet, " Dad has sent something for you. " Ruu says. Big brother hands him a small white bag. Ruu extends his hand.      I always get excited when dad brings something to me. I take it eagerly. I put the bag on the table and peep inside it, " Wao! Green, " I fish out the dress. It's a long green floral printed dress

         I can smell roses in the air. The sitting place is decorated with roses in the backyard garden. I was thinking, only jewellery would be heavy but this dress is also heavy.     I glance at Mini, almost requesting her to let me change into something light as shorts and a simple white top. She moves her head from right to left, " Sit! '' She says in her bossy tone.      " I hate you. " I squint at her.       She smiles and pecks on my cheek, " You're looking beautiful. You'll love your pictures after years when you'll watch them with your kids and husband. " She says in my ear.      I roll my eyes. I don't even know this wedding would work or not? She wants me to expect kids. I sit down and extend my hands. Mehndi Designer is already ready to begin it. I was expecting a simple girl. But she's pretty, her hair is colored blonde and it's sui

CHAPTER ONE       I walked behind him in tow four times, holding the dupatta in my hands that binds us together, taking laavan. It signifies we've accepted each other as one soul in two bodies. I sign the marriage paper and forward my hand with the pen. His gaze holds mine before returning to the paper. He holds it with a smile and signs it.         I'm his wife and he's my husband.      I sigh inwardly and gulp hard. I never imagined this day in my life. Here I'm wearing a bridal dress, gazing at my husband. All come at the same time to congratulate us. Mostly, I don't know them. So, I plaster my best smile and mutter thank you.      When he's busy talking to his brother. I use this opportunity to check him out. He is draped in a cream and golden threadwork sherwani teamed with the ivory shawl and golden safa with kalgi adornment

There are a lot more ceremonies. I'm still feeling that sleeping wasn't enough for me. I can sleep more. Navu knocked on the door in the morning. She was playing the role of messenger. She passed me the message of my mother-in-law, that she wants us in the hall for the rest of the marriage ceremonies. Arnav has bathed already.       Draping my wet body in the white towel, I step out of the bathroom. My eyes widen when I hear his voice. I swivel and see his back at me. He's shirtless, his v-shaped body is tempting. I push the thoughts away.       Without giving another thought, I take a step at the bathroom again. He shifts on his feet. I wander my gaze around. My eyes rest on the opened cupboard and his shirt and coat laying on one side of the mattress. In a hurry, I grab his shirt from the mattress. I rush at it and close the door. Hurriedly, I put on his shirt.       My body goes numb and still whe