I'm lying on my belly on the mattress and my chin is resting on the pillow. I peer at my phone. He told me that he'd call. But I can't see it happening. It's turning at eleven o'clock, soon going to be midnight. My eyes are getting heavy. There is no sign of his call.      I'm spending my time stewing over what Arnav will be doing, What does it take him so much time? He asked me to make a promise to receive his call but he's missing.     I'm mulling over to make him call or not! The problem is it's bothering me. He should make a call yet. I'm bothering to yell at him in anger because he's taking too much time to return the words. I'm acting all weird, I finished my dinner early because I don't want to miss his call. It's stupidity. I'm trying to push him away but I'm attracted to him. It's getting stronger.      My feelings are growing stronger. It is a matter of

     He looks handsome in a coal-black suit. I don't know, where did this plan stuck in my mind? But I've no option. It'd be better if I tie up in an unwanted marriage then my husband should be such a person who I can trust between the four walls of a room. I never can imagine I can show that trust in a guy from the arranged marriage. I hope Mini will make mom comprehend the situation. My heart is saying she'll agree with it and refuse to that oaf. I'm feeling tired, my body aches for no reason, I want to sleep perhaps it's the effects of my shut off. The tension really sucks all the energy from me.       I don't want to drag Arnav in the mess of my life. But my mother and friends didn't leave me any other option. I'll try my best to end it before marriage. I'll be glad if Arnav will end it as I've made words to him, I can't back up now. I know to keep my words.      I don't wanna wear wife's title. I'll tell him

         I put the dress in the basket. I lazily walk over the bed and plop on it. I rub my palm on my cheek and close my eyes. Oddly, I'm feeling calm. I hear the door clicking to open and weigh on the mattress. I keep my eyes close.       A familiar hand brushes on my forehead. I push myself in a sitting position opening my eyes, " Do you need anything? " I ask my mother.      " I know you hate me. Perhaps, it's the last time we are spending time together. " She says.       I control myself not to answer, " How was your journey? " I ask what stuck on my mind first.       " I enjoyed it, " She smiles.       I still love her. After all, she's my mother. But I'll never forgive her and she also knows it very well, " Is something important? " I ask her.       " Why don't you

        I'm not interested in falling love again. But I've... I can feel it. I perceive only happiness around him. The problem is still there, standing between us like an immovable stone. I got over the breakup with him. I'll never call it a breakup. The breakup happens with the agreement of two people. He left me without saying a word. Cheap! That isn't enough for him, breaking my heart. He began to plant people in my life to ruin me, to get what he couldn't get. Cheapest! Arnav is different from him. He's the same as I dream my husband to be. He only knows that I have a past but he doesn't know it haunts me every night. My nightmares have made my life miserable. I can't live a life like other girls, normal and happy. My tears have dried up, but my heart is still bleeding. Arnav has made this pain disappear, I've had nightmares but he can't stay with me forever. He's going to be my husband, but I don't know, does he want a raped girl as his

        Sippy opens the curtains of my room. The sun sinks down over the city. My skin is glowing yellow and I'm smelling like roses. Sinking sun spreads orange all over, making the room glow, " Take a nap. We girls are partying tonight, only ladies. " Mini says, turning from the window, Including our mothers and mother-in-law. " She adds quickly.      I was tired before. But the hot bath was really incredible. I can add it in my routine, " Here! Some fruits, juice and sandwiches if you feel hungry. " Sippy slides the tray on the nightstand.     " We'll knock at your doorstep at eleven," Mini says as she grips the doorknob. Sippy steps out first and then Mini, " Call me if you need anything. " She meets my eyes for a few seconds. I nod my head and lock the door, closing it after them. My eyes are getting heavy. I walk over the mattress and plop on it, pulling the blanket to my ch