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Bella " He needs a little breathing room ? Really that's what she told you ?" said Selina as we walk through the doors of Ron 's house , our friend has finally turned eighteen and he had decided to throw this major party that's going to make Christina 's parties baby bash " well if you believe Adriana 's advice then yeah distance is really good in a relationship "I have just finished telling Selina about what Adriana told me this morning in the parking lot . It has been almost a month since Jacob 's breakdown on his birthday and well things haven't been going smooth for us at all - yeah , we are still together .But there was this distance between us which definitely wasn't because of me . Instead of seeing and talking with me on his own , he has been sending small messages through Adriana just like this morning where she told me that it might be good if I give Jacob a bit of space  in the relationship . She might have been right , but that doesn'

Jacob An awkward silence spread over the room, something that usually didn’t happened especially when there was Seth , the blabber mouth with us but currently the entire room was indeed so silent that I swear I could have hears a pin drop . Then after a very long pause , Seth finally broke the silence “ that’s it ? No , you - you are such a fucking moron !”The emotions changed in a swift and the atmosphere once again turned to the one that full of crackling electricity “ you know what ? Fuck you ! I knew you bastards will respond like this that’s why I never said a shit to you “Seth opened his mouth to retort but Conan glared at him , Seth shrugged with a fine whatever you say attitude and turned his back on me before taking the blunt from Lewis and sitting back down on his chair .  Only after Conan was certain that Seth was going to keep his mouth shut , did he turned to look at me ,

BellaI swear I regretted it the moment I said those words , this was my mum , I loved this woman to hell and back and I really didn't want to do anything that might make her upset , but it was getting overwhelming really completely out of my limits , I can't take this anymore - it was stupid to even consider but my mind was getting more and more incline towards accepting the fact that maybe my mum was indeed as toxic as all of my bullies - All my life I had remain silent and accepted whatever shit she threw on my head , she wanted me to be top of my grades - I did , she wanted me to go jogging the first thing in the morning - I did . She wanted to strictly control my diet , my life , my decisions and I gave her the right to do so but maybe that wasn't the right thing to do , I have given so much leverage over my life , that she has started to take it for granted . I wanted to put a stop on this but -" How can you talk to me like that ?" She said , hurt and agony slas

Bella Kisses rain down and all my fortifications left , leaving me a lot more vulnerable . In the past I found these vulnerabilities scary but right now - it was something more pure and more genuine . Jacob nibbled on the curve of my breast and I breathed hard " I want you "He slipped his hands a little more farther inside my dress and the pad of his thumb brushed against my clit through the fabric " don't worry you will have my fingers and tongue right inside you , just give me a moment "I hesitated then biting my lips , I looked at him " That's not what I meant … I meant all of you " I felt him freeze for a second before he abruptly looked up to peer down at my face " I want to have S*x with you .. That's what I was trying to say "Jacob had always pushed me past my comfort limits , he had made me say things that I didn't want to - I never understood why he did that but now I do - if you don't  ask for things than you will

Bella “ gosh , do you want to make me cry ?” Lightly slapping Jennifer’s arm , I couldn’t help but joke , in reality , all I wanted to do was cry . Jennifer had indeed been my mother’s perfect daughter and I always thought she did it because she wanted to be the perfect daughter for my mum , but only now did I realised that she never wanted to be the perfect daughter ever - she was just hanging on so that my mum doesn't  come as hard as on me as she was pushing Jennifer “ I never knew - I “She didn’t let me complete my words as she brought me in an embrace and deep inside I was relieved that she didn’t - after all I was never good with words and I had no idea what to say in such a situation “ Be happy for me Bella , I’m not asking you to just be careful with him , I am also asking you to be careful of yourself too , because that’s where the things goes wrong with you the most . Try to ign