XIENNEI was astounded by what Clark did. He’s still not leaving my lips and I don’t know what to do. His soft lips are not moving yet it gives me a different feeling. I held his shoulders to push him away but he already left my face so I did not have the chance to push him.I waited for him to talk. He shook his head and place his palms on his face to cover it. No words came out of my mouth. Fortunately, no one saw us.When I found the right words to say. I asked him. “Why did you kiss me?”He then removed his hands from covering his face and looked at me. “I’m sorry. I was… I think I don’t know what I am doing. I’m sorry, Xienne. I did not mean to kiss you.”I stood up and clean up my things and put them in my bag. “It’s okay. Let’s just forget that it happened.”He nodded. “Thank you. I hope you won’t avoid me.”I looked at him intently and heaved a sigh. “No, don’t worry. Let’s just go back to our class.”Like what I have said, we

XIENNEI didn’t leave. I still chose to hear what they are talking about. I am very curious about what Clarisse had said. What does she want Rhiza to do?Rhiza is still sobbing and when she calmed. She sighed softly. I heard her clear her throat. I did not bother to peek my eyes inside anymore. It is enough to hear them.“Let’s break up,” said Rhiza.My forehead creased the later on I smiled a little. Few more, I will already make up my plan with these two. They will in my hands... easily, without exerting too much effort.“What? No! We’re not going to end this fucking relationship, Rhiza! Open your mind!” Rhiza exclaimed. I heard her chuckle with annoyance.“I already made up my mind, Clarisse. This isn’t working anymore!” A little sob from Rhiza came again. “This is not about us anymore! It is only about yourself and your bullshit ego!”I tried to look inside. Clarisse is now sitting on the floor with her palms in her face. I bet she’s cry

XIENNEMy dream never put me to sleep again. It is late at night but my eyes remain open. Drowsiness has never visited me. I was already in bed to force myself to go back to sleep but I really didn't work.I wonder if my friend Nikolai is the child of my dream. But I can no longer remember that scene. Did that really happen or was it just a dream?I don't want to think anymore but I just can't help it. A lot of things are running through my mind right now and it seems like very soon enough, my brain is going to explode.I was in a mess and didn't know what to do. It's like I just want to disappear suddenly and never be seen again.After one and a half hours adventuring in bed, eventually visited by drowsiness, I finally fell asleep. The next day, like yesterday, I woke up at noon again. Eventually, I just thought not to go to school. I just turned off the cellphone so that Ace wouldn’t annoy me and ask why I didn’t come to school.His scratching i

XIENNEBecause of the severity of my condition, I chose to stay in the hospital temporarily until I recovered. If I go home to the apartment, there is a good chance or high possibility that Lexy and Nikolai will visit me every day. My classmates might also visit me which can’t happen, they might see what’s in my room. They can't figure out my plan. I thought of that for a long time, they should not ruin my plan.I missed class for almost two days and Ace told me yesterday that our classmates might visit me when they have time after class. They already know too that Clarisse is the mastermind of what happened to me. I heard they are ignoring both Rhiza and Clarisse. I don’t think they should ignore Rhiza too, I only hate Clarisse. I also think that Rhiza has nothing to do with what happened to me, she’s too nice to agree with what her girlfriend is planning.Nikolai did not visit me since the night I was admitted here to the hospital. I don't know what he is up t

XIENNEThat incident did not put me to sleep. I watched myself, afraid that when I opened my eyes, Beatrice and Samantha, who had been dead for almost a few months, were staring at me.I was just stunned in the bedroom while sitting, I was also shaking and I didn’t know what I was going to do to calm myself down. I had no friends to call, I was afraid they might call me crazy because I had the illusion that I was seeing Beatrice and Samantha.If I only knew this was going to happen to me, I would have just kept quiet and did not kill anyone. I wish I had just let them do to me what they wanted to do. I wish I hadn’t planned to retaliate, but I could do nothing. This is my destiny.I will still pursue my plans and nothing can stop me. This is my only option. I can't take back what I've done, I'll just continue.My cellphone rang. I picked it up trembling from the bed and looked at who was calling. Ace's name registers on the screen.I calmed myself