As I'm starting to wake up, I feel pain radiating all over my body. As I open my eyes, I am terrified of what is happening to me. I then realize that Ivan is fucking me from behind. I go and grab onto the sheets on the bed to pull myself up, trying to get away from him. When he realizes I'm awake, he takes his cock out of me and flips me over onto my back and gets on top of me.I start hitting his chest, screaming, "get off of me, Ivan, stop this."I feel a hard slap across my face, "I told you, Lilly, that you were going to pay for what you did.""No I don't want this, please Ivan no."I start to kick and punch him as hard as I can, trying to make him stop. When He finally lets go of me, I then make a run for the door, trying to escape him. I try to open the door, but it's looked. I began to bang on the door screaming for help, but no one comes. I then feel as Ivan pulls me back by my hair. He throws me on the bed, I go to get back up. But instead, he th

Landon sees me. I can see the shock on his face. I don't think he realizes that Jayden is in my arms. Until Jayden pops his little head up "Hey daddy, please don't be mad at me.""Jayden, what are you doing with Lilly, oh my God what happened.""Daddy Ivan was hurting her. I had to save her, so I did. I tried to tell you, but you didn't listen, so I had to do it by myself.""No Jayden, you did not he is Alpha there are consequences. Lilly, what the fuck why would you let him be involved."?I become so furious that he thinks I would ever put Jayden in any kind of danger at all. What a fucking peice of shit right before I go to say something. Jayden jumps out of my arm. I can tell he is annoyed. "Daddy what is wrong with you, Lilly was being tortured to death. She needed to be saved. I could sense every ounce of her misery and no one should ever have to go through what she had to."I bend down to Jayden with tears in my eyes. "I'm so sorry that you h

IVAN'S POVAs I am laying on the floor, I'm not sure how I got here or what the fuck is going on. I'm not sure what room I'm in. It doesn't look familiar at all. My head is pounding I go to touch my neck, fuck as I touch it I feel pain. Then a smell begins to overpower my nostrils and almost makes me weak in my knees. I go to look up, and that's when I see the most beautiful she-wolf that I have ever seen in my entire life.She looks so beautiful with her green eyes and her long brown hair as she is looking at me. I see instant fear, not sure why she is so afraid of me. I look down at her body, loving her naked body. As I let a growl out, making sure it's known that she is mine. Not liking that her body is exposed, I want to cover her, but I can see that she fears me and I want to avoid frightening her more than what she already is.She is so beautiful, but why is she so fucking against me, I have never met another she-wolf that wasn't head over heals for me. Go

I hear Landon talking, but I don't understand the words as I watch his lips move but not understanding the words, I watch as He reaches his arm out to me to comfort me. I then move backwards, not wanting any of his comfort. I'm shocked, wondering if he was involved in everything that has taken place.I don't speak to him, I turn around, and I run, I don't shift, I just run as myself. Tears flowed down my eyes, realizing all that had happened was a test. To figure out, I was a healer. I'm so uncertain about everything. I want answers, but I feel betrayed. I, no what I wanted in the beginning, wanting to find out who I was, but knowing now what it all cost just wasn't worth any of it.It seems like I'm losing small pieces of myself as time goes on. I'm scared that eventually I'm just going to disappear and hate who I become. I don't look back, I just continue to run faster and faster. I need to get away from all of this. I have been held here for too long, it's time to g

It has been a couple of days that I have found out the truth about everything that has happened. I haven't talked to Landon. I have been trying to avoid him as much as possible, not wanting to talk to him just yet. I understand why he did what he did, but I almost feel like he caused all that happened. Even though he wasn't the one that did it physically. What surprises me even more is that Ivan has been gone since that night he left while I was in the shower. He hasn't been back since. I'm not sure where we stand or what is going to happen between the two of us. I'm afraid that I will not be able to look at him the way a mate should look at their mate. I mean sometimes I even get scared just thinking about being with him with all the pain he caused.I want to be happy with my mate, but I'm just not sure if that is really in the cards for me. How can I be happy with someone who has caused me so much suffering in the past? I don't know how I feel about anything. M