Lahat ng Kabanata ng If It's All The Same [COMPLETED]: Kabanata 51 - Kabanata 60

I was still a little sleepy when my alarm rang, yet the moment I realized that it was my first time working at the research center, I suddenly felt the rush of adrenaline in my veins. I felt so ecstatic that the idea woke me up as if I had just drunk an espresso shot. I closed my eyes and smiled as I was stretching my arms--it was probably the best sleep I ever had for years."Good morning indeed," I told myself before I finally stood up and fixed my bed before I headed outside of my room to make myself some hot cocoa. When I got out of the door, I realized Lyza had posted her schedule in front of hers which had me curious so [it's probably not considered creepy since I'm her roommate] I read it. Her schedule's really packed, and aside from her lectures, she also has a side job at a famous fashion brand. Which had me thinking for a while... I knew how she was acing her studies back when she was studying law, and she seemed really enthusiastic about her degree pro

A week passed by in a hurdle. Lyza and I... well we're still not on talking terms although, she was finally recognizing my existence. I mean, we're living on the same roof, so the more this cold war between the both of us prolongs just makes it even harder to live. I might as well just find another location... Today's my day off yet I didn't really have much to do so I just planned to go outside and roam Cambridge until the end of the day. I haven't gone around since all I did ever since I got here was go to work and then sleep. I survived without buying my own groceries since I figured I could just eat at the cafeteria every day instead of eating processed foods. I realized I was getting older, I might as well take care of myself so I wouldn't worry my friends.Adjusting was the hardest part... aside from the fact that I was miles away from my friends, I knew no one, and by then a sudden realization hit me--it felt like I was in a battle arena. I mean, not in a

I left the coffee shop as fast as I could the moment I realized who was in front of me.Drey Punder.I scoffed. He's never really going to leave me alone, huh?I walked away as fast as I could just so I'd be miles away from that coffee shop. Fucking A. Why is he even here? Does he really have nothing to do in life but pit Lyza and I against each other?When I realized that I was far from the shopping center already, I stopped walking and heaved a deep breath in. I couldn't help but to feel scared thinking he might come after me, or if he knows where we live. There were a lot of scenarios playing in my mind, and I can't even get them to stop.I clutched my chest as I try to take a deep breathe. I was losing air... I couldn't even breathe properly. My chest was throbbing as well as my head that it feels like I'm going to pass out any minute because it feels heavy.I never really imagine seeing Drey again... and I never wanted to see him ever i

I came to the center earlier than the time I'd usually come to work just to try and have breakfast at the cafeteria. Trying new things out of my bucket list still felt like an achievement for me--even the littlest ones like this. Yesterday was a breather. Compared to the first few days that I was here, it felt a little better and light. Lyza even told me that she wasn't purposely leaving the apartment early just so she wouldn't see me, she just really had to leave really early since she was finishing a project. I wanted to ask why she quit studying Law, but I could already mirror in her eyes that it was a reason for passion over money. She seemed genuinely enjoying what she's doing right now. I mean, sure she was really studying hard for law but there's always this feeling that she might've just pursued it because it was along the line of work of some of her relatives.She must've been suffocated trying not to break all the rules... and now she's here, living her

I went to work at the usual time I'd go, although I was feeling a little nervous after that conversation with Drey. I don't know what's bound to happen after I talk to him personally. I haven't even talked to Enrique since I don't even know where I'd start. The situation was really odd, and I can't even find the right words to tell him.And then I'd be meeting Drey.I was being eaten with guilt already.My day started gloomy when I woke up being reminded of how I had to suck up all remaining courage within me just so I could meet Drey. He seemed fine with it, and he probably had an idea already on why we were meeting. For once and for all, I want to clarify my feelings already and clear this remaining bad atmosphere between the both of us. After this... I don't really know what would happen next.We might end up not seeing each other anymore, or probably the reverse.Besides, I don't want to be unfair to Enrique. He doesn'