I opened my eyes and found the bed next to me empty. Junhyu had left early in the morning to take care of some of his work in Macau. He shook my shoulders lightly to say goodbye around half past five, before he had said that the plane would take off at half past six. And today I'm a little lazy to do anything. I got a few days off from my private tutors because I complained about being tired to Junhyu several times. Indeed, it feels much more tired than in early pregnancy because now the baby has grown bigger. In fact, he often made me moan in pain because of his kick in the middle of the night, then Junhyu seemed to have his own alarm when it happened. With his eyes half closed he will stretch out his warm palms to touch the surface of my belly, then he will gently stroke them until the baby in my belly calms down and stops kicking. To be honest, I feel a little sorry for him because lately college activities take up a lot of his time, not to mention

There were no glasses for today, and he had been smiling strangely while looking at the ultrasound portrait of our child who had grown up well in there. So our son is a boy. Maybe if I followed his stupid game, I would lose and get punished by him. Never mind, it doesn't matter now. Today the examination went very well. Our baby is growing up healthy in my belly. There were too many developments delivered by doctors with a radiant face, that's what ultimately made Junhyu look this happy. In fact, he hasn't even let that smile off his face at all since escorting me home from the clinic. He was too happy today for information that felt so meaningful to him. "You don't want to change your clothes first?" "I seem like today is too happy." "Yes, it shows on your face." I pointed at his face which had only been showing a happy hue. Even though I intend to talk about Jihoo oppa's problem with him, but I don't have the heart to interrupt his joy today. So...

I didn't do much today, so I decided to join my mother in doing charity work at an orphanage on the edge of town. Actually a little grateful because this morning I woke up without having to see Junhyu. The embarrassing image of my love statement last night made me feel as if I had to face Junhyu, even though the man didn't necessarily hear it, but my heart was filled with an extraordinary feeling of shame about it. Karma now applies to me. If I was forced to go back to reminiscing about all the events of the past seven months or six months ago, when I still hated Junhyu so much, it would feel really bad. Then in an instant that man managed to make my heart tremble every time he got a sweet treatment from him. I admit that Junhyu is a lady killer. He can conquer me in his own way, in a unique way, full of patience, and full of love. Unfortunately he probably did those damn things out of pity when he saw me crushed by this pregnancy. My future clearly became chaotic since he f

Then nothing changed from us after that day. Junhyu took me to do a maternity photo, then the two of us kissed with the flash which rained down on us for about thirty seconds. And when the flash was gone, Junhyu suddenly let go of my body, stepping backwards without caring for me who felt like lost his warmth. “That would be a great photo. Memories of us both." He said that with a sweet oddness without paying attention to the disappointed look on my face. So he thought it was all part of the scenario? He thought they were all just photos? Damn it! I hate you Lee Junhyu! Yet I had mustered up all the courage I had, the pride and everything it took to tell him that if I love you, I love that bastard guy with all the feelings I have. Really at that time I wanted to cry in the photo studio. My eyes are already glistening, ready to spill the clear liquid that was created by my feeling of pain. But fortunately, after that Junhyu didn't pay attention to me, meaning he had l

How long has I not been here? One month? Two months? Even months! Oh... I really miss my school. It's really really amazing because I can sneak into the old building behind my school to reminisce about my good times being a naughty student as well as a popular student at Kirin High School. This place used to be the place to beat up Junhyu. There, on the blackish pole covered with rust, Junhyu was often tied there by Jihoo oppa and his friends, then one of them would beat Junhyu until the man was battered and coughing. I walked slowly around the old building that used to be the former storage for these sports equipment. Even though it is no longer functioning, it seems that the school does not intend to dismantle it so that it can be used as a new, more useful building. But it's actually really good because then I can sneak in here without being noticed by the school guard or Kirin students who could be outside the classroom and see me sneaking in here. Dug! I almost