Lahat ng Kabanata ng Her Long List of Ex-Lovers: Kabanata 21 - Kabanata 30

I didn’t even concentrate on the lectures today. Damn it. Why did he have to tell me that we’re having dinner with his mother just this morning? I’m not prepared enough!And what would I tell his mother when she saw me with Gavin last night? Won’t she think of me as a slut or a flirt? Would she think that I am not serious with her son?“Are you alright?” Genina asked me. “You’re zoning out since this morning.” She told me as a matter of fact.I nodded and smiled. “I’m fine.” I replied. “I’m just thinking of some things.” I told her.She raised her brow. “Like what?” She asked me. “What are you thinking that made you zone out too much?” She asked as she leaned her elbows on the table to listen to me more attentively.Damn it! She’s cornering me and I can’t even decide if I’m going to tell her or not about me and Knight.

My relationship with Knight is going smoothly. Sure there are a lot of people who wanted us to breakup or who are putting a deadline on our relationship, we didn’t care. Actually, I care but Knight does everything he could to make me not give a damn.He spends most of his time at school with me. He eats lunch with me and Genina. Sometimes, I eat with him and Serena, who is a little weird because she’s too quiet and I don’t see her that way when she’s alone with Knight.I am not the type who asks her boyfriend to stay away from other girls so, sometimes, I let him eat with Serena alone. After all, they are buddies. They are study buddies and they both love NASA and the galaxy.Sometimes, though, I could see Serena look at me and Knight as we eat alone. It seemed like she didn’t like me for her friend just as how everybody is against my relationship with him.I don’t find it weird though. She might be thinking that I stol

I followed Knight to the school’s rooftop.I’m still feeling nervous about what he would tell me when I ask him about all his secrets. Although I want an honest relationship, I am afraid of what the truth holds. Can I handle it? Or…He stopped and looked at me. His piercing eyes are seeing through me and I can’t help but look down. He intimidates me. He always does. I don’t even know how I endured being with him when he intimidates me this much.My heart started beating faster again. I ditched him when he told me to meet him up in the park. I don’t know how long he waited or if he even went there. But I know I didn’t show up. I wasn’t ready to talk to him back then. The memories were all fresh and I can’t seem to look at him without remembering how he kissed another girl in front of me.I felt him walk closer to me. I wanted to run away. But if I did, what would happen to me? I would just die of think

“Who she, Dada?”I almost wanted to run away from here when I heard Serena speak to Knight. I was so nervous that I think I could even match her broken, baby language.I swear I admire Knight for introducing me to his daughter but I don’t think I’m ready for this. I didn’t know it was this hard – accepting that the person you love have had experienced something special with another woman that’s not you.I wanted to know how it felt when he did it with her but then again, I don’t want to bring the past back. I wanted to know what he felt when he knew he was going to be a father but then again, I don’t want to be disappointed.He must really love Serene so much to be this happy.He scooped Serena into his arms and made her face me. “Serena, this is Ashejan,” Knight introduced her to me. “She’s my girlfriend.” He added even though we both know that little Serena doesn&

I rolled my eyes as I saw Chadwick waiting for me outside my class. I was kind of relieved that Knight has taken the exam earlier than me, so, he couldn’t see this. I’m pretty sure we’d fight over this.And I’m sad because I know that this is going to be my fault…and partly Chadwick’s.I don’t really know what’s going on inside this jerk’s head so I don’t know what to do. I don’t know what my next move should be because he always counters back really flawlessly that makes me speechless, with no thought in mind.“This is the last day of your exams, right?” The jerk asked me as he walked to me, offering to carry my books. Since when has he learned good manners, anyway?I looked at him and rolled my eyes. “Yes, so what?” I asked back as I walked, totally ignoring the helping hand he was offering me.He ran after me and walked by my side. “Then, we can spen