Lahat ng Kabanata ng I Can't, If It's Not You: Kabanata 11 - Kabanata 20

“It’s past 2:00 am Master. You should leave now and get some rest,” Chati said as he entered Siri’s office, without knocking. He was pushing a small tray-table, which had a bowl of steaming chicken-noodle-basil soup. The bulky man made some space on his Master’s table and placed the soup there.“Eat, master, and then I will take you home.”Siri watched the man, took off his glasses but didn’t make any effort to eat or get out of his chair. He just closed his eyes, leaned back on the chair and sighed.“Master..please, you have to eat something. This is one of your favorites,” Chati said as he pulled Siri out of the chair. Of all the people around Siri, he was the only one who could do something like this and not get reprimanded for it. The security chief pushed the young man towards the bathroom and asked him to quickly freshen up. When Siri came out, he sat down on his chair and reluctantly took a spoon

Sirichai Thanawat found himself once again at Pai’s apartment. Over the past two months, Siri had taken to spending every weekend and some week-nights here. His Pai had left the place almost three months back, and Siri was still unaware of where he was. His heart clenched at the thought every time and he had taken to praying for the health and safety of his beloved. He took his suit off and gotten into the shower. He had come here straight from the airport as he had been in Singapore for past three days. He was exhausted but he really did need a shower and something to eat as well.Wearing Pai’s pajamas again, Siri sat on the chair with a bowl of instant noodles. It was something hot and satisfying, and that’s all that mattered at this hour. He scrolled through his phone as to check for any important messages or mails he might have missed while on the flight. He went through some queries from the production department, mostly they concerned the budget and re

Aroon, who had come in the room behind Siri, watched silently the happenings before him. He felt a stabbing pain when Pai’s eyes filled with tears as he saw the visitor. The way he said the man’s name, hurt tremendously. The fact that the elder man had willed his body to stand up and take a few steps, where he couldn’t even hold a spoon, made him feel useless. The embrace, the familiarity between these two, it made the pain worse. It was clear that this was not a normal friends meeting, there was definitely something more. Aroon didn’t know what was going on between these two, but he certainly would make sure that no one could hurt Pai ever.After a few minutes of just embracing each other, he saw Siri pick up Pai, bridal-style, and place him gently on the bed. The two men seemed to be in their own world, and Aroon wondered if they were even aware that Aroon was in the room as well. He saw the two wiping tears off each-other’s faces and smiling t

Pai and Siri found themselves together on the bed, the younger man spooning his Pai in a secure embrace, after talking for almost an hour. Siri didn’t think he had to hide anything from his Pai so he had told Pai everything that had happened since the night of the marriage. Siri explained how his Nana had ordered him to not contact Pai at all and how she had given him the ticket to Chiang Mai this morning. He had told how he had found out Pai had left the town and how he had sought sanctuary at the old apartment. He had told how his Nana didn’t expect him to have any relationship with Boonsri, although he avoided revealing the fact that his so-called wife was basically a gold-digger. The younger man had finished by telling Pai how he believed that his Nana really did mean it when she had promised to make everything right.Pai was quiet the whole time as he listened and noted the similarities between whatever had happened in the past four months with him. How Mrs.

As the elevator doors opened and Siri stepped out, Aroon noticed the drinks in the bag. He felt amused at the selection. He questioningly looked at the bag and smirked, “Nomyen? The Thanawat heir drinks pink-milk, who would have thought?”Siri didn’t reply but his heart felt smug. He felt immense satisfaction at the fact that this young man had no idea of what Pai liked. Siri only smiled, his eyes twinkling with mischief. Aroon’s breath hitched as he felt that he might be missing something. To cover up his hesitation, he picked up his bag and said, “I got all of Pai’s favorites. You didn’t have to bother. He has no need of you anymore..”Siri couldn’t believe the guts of this young man beside him. How dare he say that? This time, the Thanawat heir made no attempt to cover his contempt as he opened the door to the flat and challenged, sneering, “And what? He needs you?”As if on cue, the two young