All Chapters of Her Desires (TagLish Version): Chapter 11 - Chapter 17

Palipat-lipat ang tingin ko sa dalawang engrandeng gown. Magaganda ang designs. The marbles, diamonds, crystals and the details are fantastic. The color yellow seems off for me. Hindi ko alam kung bakit nakakasilaw na damit ang laging binigay sakin. "Wala bang ibang kulay?" Nilingon ko si Ares habang nakapamewang na pinagmamasdan ang tatlong damit na nakalatag sa kama. "His Highness is the one who chose everything and he specify the color of the dress you are going to wear." I like the attention. Only if I needed it. As of the moment hindi ko kailangan ng atensyon ng nakararami. "I don't like it. I'm very particular and picky especially this is a grand party..." Hinding-hindi ko susuotin yan. "...maybe you can find another outfit. Must be in color red or black," mahinahon ngunit may diin kong sabi sa kaniya. "I'll look for a way," sabi ni Ares at bigla nalang nawala sa paningin ko. Makalipas ang ilang minuto ay bumalik si Ares. Ngayon may dala-dala na siyang engrandeng long dr

Paulit-ulit kong binasa ang nasa loob ng sobre. Hindi ko alam kung hindi ba talaga ma-proseso ng utak ko ang bawat letra sa sobre o hindi ko lang talaga kayang taggapin. Itinapon ko kung saan man ang sobre. Hindi ko alam kung saan man dumapo iyon total makakapunta pa rin naman ako sa engagement part dahil nasa palasyo lang rin naman ako. Umupo ako sa kama at nagmumuni-muni sa mga pangayayari at mga posibilidad na mangyari. After I lost consciousness, I just woken up in my room. Alone. With dead flowers in the corner and a letter. I don't even know what that supposed to mean. The first thing that came into my mind was 'what the fuck?'. After that incident, pumupunta naman si Acheros dito. I don't know what's up with him. But everytime he visits me, he made sure that I'm asleep because everytime that I wake up from deep nap or sleep, he just got up and leave. No words being said. Lumabas ako sa pintuan at timing na hahawakan na sana ni Acheros ang door knob. Tinaasan ko s'ya ng kila

I am trying my best to paint something. We are facing the huge mirror window. Its been ages since the last time I painted that's why I am having a hard time to choose what to paint. Tiningnan ko si Drystan sa tabi ko. Hindi ko mabasa kung ano ang nasa utak nang batang 'to. He said he met me. He met Morana. He said he met me beside a lake but I thought that was a dream. I remember it happened but I didn't know that it was real. What the heck is happening? Tiningnan ko naman ang ipininta ni Drystan. He's good. He looks like he has been doing this for a long time. The way he stroke the brush. The way he chooses the tones. "Did your dad taught you how to paint?" I can't imagine Acheros teaching a child. I just can't imagine the efforts he did. Pinili ko nalang ipinta ang tanawin na nasa aming harapan. Siguro kailangan ko rin 'to para naman malihis ang sarili ko sa mga bumabagabag sa'kin. "Acheros would rather spent his time with 'mom' than teaching me with these things," natatawang

Nakaupo kami ngayon sa upuan na gawa sa kahoy. Kaming dalawa mismo ang gumawa nito dati. Of course with a little magic this wooden chair last for years. "Ang dali lang naman pala 'non," sabi ko. Pinipilit kong magbiro at gawing magaan ang paligid. Hindi para sa kan'ya kundi para sa akin. Tumawa si Acheros. "Alam kong marunong ka. Hindi nga kita halos naturuan dahil bago pa man ako makapagsalita ay nagawa mo na." Muscle memory, I guess?Hindi ako nagsalita. I just want to feel the moment. Hindi pa rin naman nawawala ang galit ko. Hindi rin nabawasan. Hindi napunan. Ganon pa rin. "I guess some things never change." Ang sarap lang sa pakiramdaman at ninanamnam ko lang ang pagkakataon ngayon. Ang daming kong katanungan. Gustong-gusto ko s'yang harapin at tanungin lahat nang bumabagabag sa'kin. I admit it. Kahit masakit na aminin. My pride and ego are what keeps me. "You know I love someone..." Marahan na sabi ni Acheros. Hindi ako nagsalita kaya nagpatuloy s'ya. "She's the only pers