Lahat ng Kabanata ng Alpha×Alpha: Kabanata 21 - Kabanata 30

Adom's eyes start to droop as the bath water continues to cool. Alexander is cupping water into his hands and then letting it drip slow over Adom's shoulder and back. It kind of tickles whenever his fingers brush against Adom's bare skin. It's also a little soothing, the faint glow of the candles helping to guide in Adom's descent towards sleep. "Hey sleepyhead, this is nowhere to pass out" Alexander says, the mirth not concealed in his voice. Adom opens his eyes long enough to stare at Alexander and give a soft huff before they're closing again. Alexander chuckles, his wet fingers cupping Adom's cheek for a second. "I'll go get you a towel," And just like that he's gone, leaving Adom to sit alone in the bath.    Without Alexander there, talking or creating ripples in the water it's almost too silent. Adom takes a moment to stretch and yawn, the flickering of all the candles drawing his attention. He watches them dance and feels warm in their presence.

Adom has been through a lot in his life. He's been through relationships that didn't last, friendships that came and went with the passing of time and also a pet or two that ran away from home. Every separation is different, every single one hurts different. Adom's only constant is his family, his parents and his sister who he adores. They fight, often or at least they did. But now whenever Adom thinks of her and his family those aren't the memories that resurface, it's all the sweet moments. All the times his sister gave him advice or his parents hugged him in consolation. So when Adom thinks of Alexander, it isn't too difficult to default into his preconceived notions. People always leave and Alexander is just another one of those people.   It isn't difficult to think that way, Adom wishes he thought that way. Except he doesn't. As he stares at Alexander's face while the older drives them home, all he can think about is how much he wants Alexander to

Adom stays in bed the rest of the day, daylight comes and goes until it's dark out as he remains in the same spot. He crawls out of bed to take a quick shower since he's feeling so completely gross in hopes that he'll pass out as soon as his head hits his pillow once more. Instead once he comes back into his room with a towel wrapped around him all he sees is his messy sheets and no Alexander. It's ridiculous, the way he expected Alexander to be there after he got out. It was a stupid thought, something that dispels just as quickly as it came. He can't smell Alexander anymore, the only thing lingering in his room is himself. He hates it. He can't stand it. It's almost like Alexander was never there at all.  As a final attempt he pulls on the clothes Alexander burrowed last night and sleeps on Alexander's side of the bed. It makes him feel a little better, if at all. Adom might have let Alexander baby him all this time but now he's got to do this all alone.

 It's only once Adom's already out of the bath, dripping wet and cold does he remember that he hasn't brought with him a change of clothes. His eyes shift to Alexander's clothing drawer before he reaches for it. He finds a soft t-shirt and some shorts that he can slip on. The fact that they smell like Alexander is a bonus, Adom feeling enveloped by the scent. He dries his hair and then sits down on Alexander's couch to order himself some food. He's really tired and almost positive now that his cold is only going to worsen but he needs to eat some food if he hopes to take any medicine and drift off.  Just as he calls a place nearby for some spicy soup and rice, his mom calls. Adom smiles before even answering. "Hello, ma" Adom says softly, laying down on the couch to try and get more comfortable. "How's my sweet boy? Your voice sounds hoarse, are you sick?" Her words fill Adom's eyes with tears. He's been feeling so dejected, deserted in a big c

 Adom spends the rest of his morning the next day coming up with a speech as he cleans Alexander's apartment. He washes all the dishes, laundries all the sheets and the duvet cover. He manages to vacuum too before he leaves, making sure everything is the same as when he arrived. Adom is halfway to the train station when he realises he's still wearing one of Alexander's hoodies. He pouts down at the cozy sweater, contemplating going back before deciding against it. It's not considered stealing since he'll return it back to Alexander once he sees him. Okay maybe not right away, tonight has to be special but soon. He'll bring it back soon. Adom gets home and showers, doing his best to style his hair afterwards with a bit of gel. He's not really talented in this department, hands clumsy as the gel goops through his fingers and falls into the sink. He looks at himself in the mirror and thinks he looks a little ridiculous. He's seen this exact hairstyle on Alexan